But also, I really hate to admit it, but I can kinda relate to Minwoo the psycho, in that I wonder how most emotions feel like.
For example, we were struck by an earthquake recently and I felt like I was tripping seeing the pandemonium around me while I was just there-not-there. I do already feel like an alien on the daily but that feeling gets even more pronounced when something is happening to the collective like that because I can see and I observe in other people what I should be feeling but I just...can't. Did I hit my head as a baby or something
There should be research about this in human psychology though I forgot what they're called or which types would be more relatable for you. Like you can try researching about disassociation, imposter syndrome, apathy, EQ, disconnection etc. (Disconnection I kind of remember being said as common due to technology. Screens showcasing whats happening and the reality of that other side of the world creates a de-sync connection between the mind and what you watch, numb and easily ignored just by scrolling away. Also Disassociation and Disconnection can mix and occur together for some) There's a lot, one or some of these could relate to you, you'll have to discover that yourself or seek another (whether a therapist or an internet medical nerd, whichever you want). Mine's on the simple tech disconnection feeling
god i love psychology so much
The metaphor Sand castle first came out when they first came to the beach in Busan. Eunsung was the one who discovered the shovels left by the kids and started digging, and Jiwoo was apprehensive at first, saying it was dirty, but it was Jiwoo who got more into the idea of making the sand castle, making it pretty. and wishing it lasted forever.
It was at this moment I even remembered the title of what I was reading and went OH. I saw this as a metaphor to their relationship at this point. Eunsung was the initiator who forged his way in through whatever means and tools (the shovels) but only because it was interesting. He didn't even make a sandcastle. Meanwhile, Jiwoo was the one who actually wanted it more, building it with his own hands and decorating it with the shovel that Eunsung picked. Later we see Jiwoo had learned to want to find someone who could fulfill the role of a "special other" and someone who could spend the rest of forever with him, based on what he saw from his parents. Eunsung is that special other, the final touch to his sandcastle.
But seeing the last panel, how they are pictured near the waves on the beach in place of sandcastles tells me love isn't in the sandcastle that we try to build with our ideals. Rather, it's in the surrender. It's not wise to want something so fragile to last, to try to keep molding the other person so that they match our idea of them in our head – this causes frustration and obsession. Love is accepting that we'll be weathered by the wind and that we are not safe from collapsing thanks to the waves, yet choosing to our person anyway, accepting that the rest is out of our hands and maybe, even finding shelter in that surrender. Whatever comes comes.
Anyway it's like the artist only knows one way to draw good-looking(?) guys so the three of them all look like each other they could pass off as brothers
Where are the raws??
Edit: just realized I accidentally made myself sound like the MC of the third story. "Wow Emotions Are So Interesting Let Me Take A Note" fuck
Jeongwoo, who called his monster of a father "Chairperson" because of what he's done to him, who must have felt relieved when it wasn't him that was called to the study but Minjae, who gave Minjae an out so that the abuse on him stopped, who must have continued to bear the brunt after Minjae had left, who kept it to himself all this time unable to turn to an "adult", who protected his little brother in his own way so that he didn't suffer the same.
Minjae, whose only fault was to be unlucky he was put in such an environment, who only wanted to have a sense of belonging in the new family he was handed, whose response to the abuse was to seek sxx even though he despised it, who only knew how to live life seeking revenge and who was nothing outside of it.
Jeonghyuk, who sought the approval and affection of someone he would later find out to be a monster, who unknowingly played into it all, unable to protect his older brother
Taeyoung, who felt he had to make his needs small so that he wasn't thrown away or abandoned, who only wanted a home, who grew up too soon, whose love was pure, who grew up grounded, kind, and warm despite it all simply because of Minjae's words "Hold your head high"
It's when I look at children in fiction and reality that I get to look back at my own childhood and recognize what kind of adult I needed at the time–what kind of needs were unseen, unmet, how I've been neglected–that I get inspired to be a good adult.
But I don't doubt it's because of chang geon that inspired him to be a doctor. Man.
Because I save the best for last
lmaooo
So so heavy (in a good way)
Poor Ido. He can't even ask for forgiveness because he hasn't forgiven himself.
If you think about it, he hasn't done anything gravely wrong in this lifetime? Only that he kept his heart at a distance, withholding the truth from Sejin thus never being able to gain his trust completely.
But also, you couldn't blame Sejin for his reaction. With their bond, both the past and present lifetimes are intertwined and that link can never be erased as it is a huge premise in the story. I wish they both just stopped hurting, but it's not such an easy matter that can be dealt with by having them get back together. Maybe couple's therapy?
Lol
Lmfao