
But Jin hallucinating Brandon when he was drugged out during sex with Matthew was so interesting to me, I 100% get Matthew for being jealous–
But I know Brandon is just one hell of a traumatic figure for Jin because he's the one who got him addicted to the drugs. Jin did mention that Brandon was like a father figure to him at one point. So I see it as an admiration, loyalty in the sense that he wanted to be praised by him, but then again also fear because he's associated him with the trauma of drugs and addiction. Brandon didn't know he had a good thing until he lost him, and it's so funny that exact same line was used about Jin losing Matthew.
I'm glad Brandon betrayed the organization and that Jin got to find out who he is, clocked him out for real because Brandon wanted someone he could trust, but he himself couldn't be trusted.
But yeah, it shocked me to find that they were in a sexual relationship. And I also kinda didn't like that he was referred to as Cheungwoo because of the associations with Brandon.

I read this at the worst possible time: I'm nursing a flu
Fuck this shit man. Fuck you Maximillian.
It's so ironic because his name Maximillian means "The Greatest" but to Jean, he is "Little Pearl". He really is the greatest, in that he's the brain behind the coup, which meant that even Jean was acting as the leading role in the play he orchestrated, and what–it is a plot where his death is a necessary piece, if not THE piece that completes the play. It's so—Ugh. Brilliant? Brilliantly martyr. And he was right–in that they should have never met at all, they only made this whole thing harder on themselves.
But FUCK, when you think about the times he unexpectedly appeared around Jean, wanting to be seen by him, saying "I just suddenly wanted to see you." BECAUSE HE WAS TURNING BLIND ^$*#*@× FUCK THAT SHIT
I usually leave 5/5 reviews to be a WOULD READ AGAIN but this one ahh. I know it's gonna be a better read the second time knowing what I know now, but I honestly just kinda want to forget about it or the fact that I read it at all. But yes, in all seriousness, I would love to read this again in better health so I can appreciate it better.
If Yeomin doesn't take the card, I'll have it