Ok.
I binged this so fast that I regret not noticing the full line-up of mature chapters.
But seriously, this got me hooked so hard from the get-go. I love the slow burn, the build up honestly felt perfect, I love how Kang is both stern and gentle to him.
Also, Yoonshin is a cutie. And I appreciate the fact that even if he's righteous, he learned fast not to feel superior for it. And I LOVED when he came out clear on the blind date. That's honesty right there. No hiding things, no unnecessary stabs in the back, no misunderstandings. Only doubts solved by talking sincerely.
I highly recommend reading this.
"Now you're just somebody that I used to know" Gotye be like
The top being this chill and laidback is damn annoying. The bottom being this incapable of talking is also damn annoying.
But I relate to the bottom more than the top. Rumors and the like fly high and far, and they always have a bit of truth, no matter how exagerated they may be. The top never gave any sort of explaination on anything, despite his partner clearly being insecure. He noticed he got startled by the attempt to touch his cheek, why wouldn't he notice he needs confirmation?
Those people "he used to know" may not have thought the same about him. Much like the guy that went talking to MC, that's not a "uninterested ex" behaviour.
I think the friends couldn't quite accept Ash being with another alpha rather than your usual alpha/omega couple, so they still thought Hazel would be worth a shot even if they parted on real bad terms. I don't remember if Ash made it an habit to avoid omegas before he even met Lyle.
That being said, no friend has a right to interfere in the relationship, even if it may look like the best course of action. Matters of the heart are incredibly fragile, you can't simply butt in because "it's the right thing to do". Turns out giving out Ash's number wasn't quite the right thing to do after meeting Lyle, huh you so-called-friend?
... AAAAARRRGH
It's been a while that I've felt this frustrated.
But why, we're so close to finishing, let the story end at least! ╥﹏╥
I'll never understand why people, mainly men I'd say, always seem to think that because the body is reacting the owner of said body must be "liking it".
Touching sensitive areas will always bring the reactions they were made for. It doesn't mean that your heart is on par with your body's desires. It doesn't work like this, and I never understood why it's considered a thing instead.
Omg legit I hate that in every single bl they say that , and how sex always sparks a relationship authors make it worse by having the bottom say it’s pleasure but they don’t want it in a way solidifying the whole “well your body likes it” or making the the character blush and moan like crazy when it’s rape , which is sadly in like every bl ( even the backstories ) when scenes like that come up I’m expecting for the person to turn blue and look like they want to die instead of a euphoric look that authors love to display . In a way promoting this as love and normal
Part of it is fantasy and part of it is just plain rape apologia.
I recommend this video to explain the fantasy aspect of it (it’s very long I know LOL but it’s a worthwhile, fun, and interesting video essay to watch). https://youtu.be/bqloPw5wp48
BUT tl;dr in a *PURELY* fantastical sense, for some people (women in particular I believe) the idea of being “forced” to orgasm or “forcing” someone to orgasm can be psychologically stimulating. It’s a way to play with certain power dynamics/control but it can also be like, a way to absolve one’s self of being responsible for their own pleasure/for enjoying a sexual act—why it’s prominent amongst women in particular being because women are often shamed for being sexual beings or participating in sex in any capacity, and so one way to cope with that can be imagining a scenario where she’s an “unwilling” participant being “forced” to enjoy sex that she Most Definitely Does Not Want wink wink nudge nudge. At least that’s one explanation. Obviously since BL is BL the bottom is substituted for the woman here lol.
The other part is yeah just plain rape apologia. Part of me also wants to say it’s also bad sex ed that doesn’t teach people that obviously just because someone physically reacts to something doesn’t mean they actually like what’s happening, and I’m sure that’s true, but it feels like a shit ass excuse. The idea that non-consensual sexual actions against someone can’t *really* be rape/sexual assault if they orgasm from it, or even that forcing someone (especially women) into sex is the natural order of things since they can occasionally orgasm from it, therefore it’s not bad…it’s all to excuse and perpetuate rape culture. And it’s a really awful myth to perpetuate, people struggle with being raped/SAed as is, I can’t imagine having to sit with the idea that you “enjoyed” it as well…
As a woman myself, and completely uninterested in real sex, I kind of understand the first part. There's something interesting about "losing control", which is something I personally hold dear for myself. But still, I'm not sure I'd be able to accept or consent to anything similar because of so many reasons that have mainly to do with self-respect, dignity and mental state.
On the second part, I sadly totally agree. Even more so that's a topic that should be spoken about in education. I'm not a victim of SA myself so I can't fully understand, but the mere thought of it happening to me gives me the creeps and I'm sure I'd never be able to recover from it unless my mind went blank and forgot about it all. Which could not happened, based on how easily I remember traumas.
I'd know for a fact I didn't enjoy the experience, and having my body react to it would make me feel so dirty and like I lost all sense of self... I can't even begin to imagine how it feels to end up pregnant after such a violence. That has to be even worse...
That has to be one of the worst feelings...