So, I love the comments, everyone enjoying his suffering is kind of hilarious!
Having some thoughts about his narcissim - yes I've been watching YouTube psychologists about the subject so take it as it is. Any attempt at changing without actual therapy and acknowledging his potential NPD, will always feel superficial and like a nacissits 'hoovering' tactic.
No actual reflection or change, just doing enough to get dan back in his inner circle. In reality this would happen and the abuse cycle would start all over again. But this is manwha so he'll have his internal struggle, miss Dan and then be fixed somehow and morph into the best boyfriend evvahhh (〜￣△￣)〜
I'm not expecting these stories to be all that realistic but the surface level discussion of serious topics is so obvious to me now. Don't get me wrong I'll still read and enjoy it, I just felt compelled to write all my inane thoughts down ╮(￣▽￣)╭
He's just so unlikable, no self reflection, it's everyone else's fault -a clear narcissist. And narcissists never change.
The novel was way more graphic, MC was beaten way harder too, it was really obvious he didn't want it, he was barely conscious from oruman already, so the rape from Garon was even more gross. Oruman was also castrated and mutilated beforehand. It was really graphic... I also don't think Garon had so many facial expressions, especially not so much anger. He's kind of accepted he likes mc and wants him around no matter what he does (he knows everything he's doing, yes even the poison) but he'll destroy anything if he feels he's going to lose him physically, he does not yet care about the mcs mental state. Kind of like legs that won't walk, If you've read that. Ml who doesn't care about the state of their 'love' so long as they're close and alive, but eventually changes their mind and wants them happy and close.
Right, I don't get MCs attitude towards ML... like I do get it, he hates him for killing his mum and being a generally heartless bastard, BUT he wants him to have sex with him to poison him, so why does he complain about it? To keep up appearances? Despite him keeping it a secret why he hates him in particular... wouldn't it have made more sense to pretend to want it to kill him faster? I dunno, seems weird that he's literally trying to assassinate him with sex but doesn't want the sex. Could argue it's to be less suspicious but yhr inner monologue doesn't suggest that at all.
I guess he associated sex with forced prostitution. Up to this point he had to do it to survive so having the most unhinged people abuse and muder infront of him turn around and with the same mentality blow his back out, id be apprehensive too.
Yeah totally, like inner actual thoughts and feelings, he hates it obviously as he should. I just don't see how outwardly being stand offish helps his cause? I guess he's not a good actor? I mean Garon literally says he's a bad liar in an upcoming scene so I guess he just can't hide his true feelings. All I'm saying is, it would make sense for a seduction assassination attempt to actually be seductive. I mean it works how he does it, but the character motivation is off for me. It only works because the author needs it to play this way. I'm not really sure what MC is after, other than to kill him with sex and steal the gun plans and his outward actions are kind of in conflict with those wants. Even if he's traumatised by sex, he chose to go there and attempt to kill him this way! Yes he can change his mind but it's just an odd way to go about it and he doesn't seem to have much of a plan. Which continues throughout the novel btw
And we thought Garon was insane.... I mean he is, but not this brand of insane.
Who is garon?
Sorry, from Toxin... similar energy.
I read what I could of the novel and oh my God. A wild ride ahead... just wow.
Can u link the Novel plz:)
SPOIL ME PLS
So... cliffnotes - very spoiler don't read if you're not sure.
Uruman rapist dies, Emperor not mad at mc about it, but mc gets found out regarding stealing the gun plans. This forces raonhiljo to escape with mc - there's big raonhiljo flashbacks then traveling to get out of the kingdom. Emperor is murdering SO many people trying to find him. Just as they're getting away, Emperor arrives and takes mc back. Mc is confined, raped and refuses to eat. Emperor is getting imae poison symptoms, they learn of this possibility but the Emperor already knows and doesn't care? But they start looking for the antidote The concubine attacks mc in a jealous fit trying to kill him and find the antidote but ends up also murdered by Emperor. Raonhiljo returns to take mc again with a rebel army, during the fight the imae poison finishes its job and as the Emperor is dying, mc yells at him wanting him to care about what he's done but he just doesn't, though he's kinda regretful he doesn't care(if that makes sense) He dies as mc tries to heal him with his horn antidote. Raonhiljo takes mc and starts a new settlement with the rebels. Mc is not into it, keeps sleepwalking again. Raonhiljo gives mc a name then lets him go. Mc leaves and goes back to his home to where he lived with his mother to rebuild his life.
Turns out Emperor didn't die, just haggard and worse for wear, so is mc after his horn was damaged giving the antidote (and being attacked by the concubine). At chp 40 they're kind of kindling something. Emperor is softer and more respectful but still doesn't feel the emotions he should. I might have missed stuff but honestly the big plot points are here. It's a long and bloody tale.
For those getting angry the uke isn't saying anything, I would suggest he's mulling over his options before making a bad decision and making things worse in panic or anger. It's actually a mature thing to do to wait a little and make your decision calmly. Hoping he does make a decision, not just wait for things to happen TO him.
I do hope he decides to ask the questions, though if i trmember correctly, he did ask a direct 'did you like me?' And got a hurtful lie so who knows ╮(￣▽￣)╭
I don't really understand what the semes plan is... I believe he likes him but why not be honest? Best be an amazing reason! Not a lame 'I can't handle my emotions well, I'm scared'
This really irritated me the first time I read it (didnt finish it at all) - giving it another go now.... let's see if it still pisses me off!
the dragging will piss you off again, everything after they got together finally is dragged until now
I got to chapter 15 and I'm done. The emotional manipulation is too much for me because I know we're supposed to be on the MLs side and I'm just not.. (≧∀≦)
Finding out at 3 weeks seems... impossible well, very very unlikely from a home pregnancy test.... nitpicking but why not just say 4/5 weeks which is more normal? Would have preferred if they did a time jump... until he finished uni, had a job etc maybe a year or 2 then the marriage and pregnancy. Also where did all the money come from? Seemed an after thought that he's now a rich boy who's going to inherit property... Just a bit rushed. Also what happened to his revenge plan I get he didn't really mean it but he couldn't even remember he had a plan like that! Overall cute but stupid
She should take sick leave. Go off sick and then it explains your absence, sure she'll lose the project but in a grown up world, she can't handle it right now. The sensible thing to do is step down. You take the high ground and his victory from him by stepping aside.
I really don't like Andrew, he's a simp for a cheater and is just mean while also being a slimey suck up. She wasn't going after his job, but he seems to be going for hers, it's just too much. Personal preference too, I don't like love interests glasses in comics ╮(￣▽￣)╭ i know, shallow but I can't help it.