
Wow. Very sad - not because of Mi-chan or Hikaru, but because of Ken. It seems like everyone expects him to just accept all the bs that's thrown at him and be actually GLAD for them. I wish he would find someone better, someone who actually loved him (and not his body with a dead gf's personality). Just. Sad.

I loved this story and I absolutely adored this couple. That being said, if my hutch is correct and Amemori did know he was going to die that day... he was truly very cruel. He forced himself into Yui's life, he did everything he could to make him fall for him, and despite knowing Yui had already a trauma about people he loved dying and leaving him behind, he still went out that day to die. It feels like Amemori accepted his fate because he could live his last days with the person he loved but... he didn't care much about how Yui would feel afterwards, which is actually quite selfish. Well, I am glad they are happy now so ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭

But he himself explained his thoughts. The part when the cat first enters the apartment, Yui tells Amemori not to be nice to it so the cat won't feel bad if it doesn't get to experience the same niceness again. But Amemori says that it's better for the cat to have one treasured memory of kindness than have none at all. You've heard "it's better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all", right? Amemori thinks like that.

I certainly believe that's what Amemori thought, but I for one don't really agree with that reasoning, and I feel like neither does Yui. It's easy to think "it's better to love and lose, than to not love at all" when you're not the one actually losing anything. For instance: I don't think Amemori would chose to stay with Yui if their roles were reversed, as in, if by staying with him, Yui would experience love/kindness but also die later on. Amemori would probably think it's a cruel and unfair fate to both of them; so why is the contrary acceptable? Again, because it's actually Amemori who gets to experience the "one moment of kindness" - only to subsequently die, without experiencing the pain of living on without the love of his life next to him in the future. So, to me, it was a rather selfish choice, even if Amemori himself thought differently.

I honestly think he wanted to give Yui that kindness and love, just like with the cat. And clearly Yui did treasure the memories, so it worked. I think I'm glad for every moment of happiness I've had with my loved ones, and even if my loved ones die I'm glad they were in my life at all. Of course there's also the fact that Amemori has, all his life, gained strenght from the thought that one day he and Yui will fall in love. If he knew that he would have just a few months of bliss and then die saving a child, he'd rather have that bliss. And he also believed his premonitions would all come true, so partly he didn't feel like he had the power to change anything.
Me, desperately clicking the pages after 13: WHYYYY NOTHING OPENS OH GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS
But thanks for the update (≧∀≦)