Is there a novel? Does anyone have the link on booktoki?
damn I feel bad for our MC bc he's so kind and soft... and meanwhile alphas are crazy in this universe. But then again I'm sure he'll give a pass bc it's his kidnapper and abuser getting the shit beaten out of him like he deserves so...
I always come back to just cheese at Mr Kwon teasing Yeon-oh in the bath and then massaging his head so lovingly after... he has a semi smile the entire time in that chap and I kick my feet and giggle cz FINALLY u can see how much he loves Yeon-oh and being around him. He was a fool for not appreciating him sooner.
dislikes on this is crazy... some haters are mad asf
"so my pain didn't matter" is where he lost me. This is such a broken way of thinking and the story never gets into it any deeper than sex. It's also cringe to use impact play as a substitute for genuinely wanting to punch something. It's a trauma response to think he needs to take care of other people's feelings above his own this badly, and I know it's the intention of the author so I'm not saying it's unexpected, but it's kinda crazy that it doesn't ever get addressed even in the MC's own thoughts.
Mr Han's "I regret it" speech is insincere, I would rather he was just honest that he can't offer any better and doesn't want to bc he likes that the MC is bending so much for him. I'm sure that's what the MC wants to hear anyway. That Mr Han likes him exactly this way. Some people with trauma like Seodan process it by letting their partners use them as a sex toy. Re-enacting the powerlessness and dehumanisation is like an addiction for them cz they're tryna rewire that traumatic experience into something else. So Seodan wants to hear that his partner just wants to use him exactly like he's offering
The MC fantasising about the 2nd ML ("his fresh forest scent") only for Garon to swoop in and to something toxic and possessive... nice storytelling. The change in mood hit me with chills cause the sky turned dark red and Garon was all quiet, and the MC went from light and reflective to nervous. Garon is suffocating but the MC is always hoping for a little more from him, while also wanting the 2nd ML. Regardless of how fucked up, the way the author tells the story is quite good. I'm sad MC only got to enjoy the feeling of liberation for a few seconds alone before he was reminded of reality. Poor babe.
I almost cry when he wants to get consoled by the second ml, he's so gentle tho, i do want it too. Poor mc, even tho we know he just gonna end up with the toxic one. But my heart still want him with the second ml
I miss their interactions outside the castle, before everything happened, bc MC was low-key flirting with him and having fun away from his village members. I'm sure he still misses that and wants to feel comforted and free like he did then. I like the 2nd ML but not when he's around Garon... Garon is super toxic but I've accepted that he's endgame
Right! I'm fine with garon being the end game. But the second ml is just too good, and the mc is clearly love him. But yeah it is what it is. I just hate if someone hating on the second ml
Omg me too, it's like everyone needs him to be the bad guy to justify liking Garon I like the 2nd ML so the theories about him being secretly evil always bug me lol
this is so cute but damn min joon's ass suddenly got thick... his mom really does feed them good
Really like how masculine but cute the MC is. They have good chemistry but they're both a little dishonest in approaching each other lol hope they work that out
The story is interesting but I still don't get what precisely the issue the MC had with the ML, and how it got resolved... like why did he go from crying and blaming him to admitting his feelings to whatever this truce is... I don't get what even happened?!?? Where did his hatred for bdsm go suddenly. He just screamed at Mr Han once and Mr Han didn't give a real answer so why did their dynamic even change I feel like this story made me dumber
Ok I'm giving up thinking about it... it doesn't make sense and that's okay just need to turn your brain off to read some things
Their dynamics never really changed though?
ML is still kinda doing watever he sees fit, in his very morally gray ways.
MC isn’t inclined to BDSM and is more vanilla, but his issues aren’t with pain, submission, or BDSM directly (if his reactions so far are anything to go by). His priorities lie in wanting to be loved/ valued and he thinks BDSM goes directly against that. Because he doesn’t understand how you can value someone and still want to inflect physical pain on them. So it’s more mental than anything. It makes him feel uncared for. But he has been portrayed as having both submissive and slight masochistic tendencies.
Frankly if we’re to apply irl logic the two should still just break up cuz they’re highly incompatible. Unless MC can learn to not just be okay with BDSM, but actively enjoy and seek it. Or ml magically becomes vanilla which is even less likely. But it’s fiction so… they’ll magically make it work.
He still didn't like BDSM but is.willing to go for it because he loves ML more than he hates BDSM. His issue previously was he's jealous and sort of throwing an adult tantrum with ML. This annoy the hell out of ML because he doesn't understand what's going on. MC self esteem is low, he is willing to cling to ML doing whatever he can.
Mr Han is not so big on words. But he always show with actions when it comes to his feelings. Technically at this point they're both so into each other. The problem is MC is giving himself too much and Mr Han noticed this. That's why he keeps giving MC way out of it.
I think I kind of get it now, thanks... but still, I can't believe they fought like that and just got back together without even discussing it
yeah, irl they wouldn't work out, but it's fiction and they're still together somehow, which is probably why my brain couldn't compute I wonder if either of them are gonna change
With them it's like unspoken things lol! I don't know how to explain it but it's mostly like this because of their personality. They're technically so different but so similar at the same time. Like how their personality complements each other. Lee Seodan need someone like Han Juwon in his life to push him in doing something for himself. Han Juwon need someone like Lee Seodan to understand how precious another person is other than just trying to dominate them.
That's why I love their dynamics because it's not black and white. Lee Seodan has his issues and reasonings. Han Juwon also clearly struggling with his issues. Normally story like this won't fare well because it will be toxic. With them, I don't get that vibe and the way it was developed is good. From outsider the relationship looks dysfunctional (like most readers here), but to people who gets it, they get it why their relationship is working.
Yeah imo that's why the story is still compelling. Sometimes they complement each other very uniquely and seem crucial to the other person's growth and other times e.g sex they seem world's apart, although I feel like that could have been mitigated if Mr Han used safe bdsm practices and introduced Seodan to his role, bc he clearly enjoys being submissive to Mr Han, he was just confused... I have my beef with the writer's pacing and plot at times but the characters themselves are at least worth the read
I don't like student X teacher but atp I'm not liking Jiheon a lot and the professor looks more interesting, so Wooju x professor ig