sorry guys I guess this type of smut scene just isnt for me when it looks like the top is pushing it too far and keeps yapping about "your hole won't let me go", "do you really want me to stop" blah blah blah. I'm not a yapper enjoyer looked like my boy Yujin was dying..
I hope we get to see some real development beyond just fucking
I'm frustrated with mc.. but I keep having to remind myself that he's carrying 20 years worth of unresolved, ongoing trauma!!! even in this last moment when Ido gave him a chance to give him an excuse, his fuckass father's words flashed before his mind. Even tho he should have known better that "own up to what you did" doesnt exactly apply in this scenario when he was practically forced and manipulated to do what he did.
genuinely, FUCK HIS FAMILY!!! more than anything else, I just want to see them SUFFER!!!
always using rape to turn someone into a bottom. instead of being traumatized and disgusted the victim suddenly starts exploring anal like the rape never even happened. like, for him to be running to a sex shop looking for dildos is so extreme and unrealistic imo. This whole side story/couple was fcking unnecessary. Romanticizing this fcked up relationship with both parties being rapists... I really should just drop this atp.
I'm not saying he doesn't deserve it... but motherfckers in other stories do far far worse shit and don't suffer half as much as this guy. it's always immediate forgiveness or some other bullshit. this author has done a great job and depicting the degree of suffering this character is going through. THIS is what I wanna see happen to every other motherfcker top that acts like a fuckass piece of shit!











I skipped the last 10 or so chapters after reading spoilers.. but it's still painful to know what MC has been put through. I can only imagine what these psycho bastards have done to him. its honestly heartbreaking how powerless he is, but at the same time so strong willed, which honestly makes it even worse!! he doesn't deserve any of this!! I hope all these bastards meet their demise and die a miserable death