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“what’s wrong with me?” great question, sunyeon! A lot.

can whoever was tling this one please come back…. my friend and i were talking about divorce and it inexplicably reminded me of this series and how it hasn’t updated in ages. i miss it this author really does have a great knack for storytelling & communication issues i would like to see more kf

god they both love each other so much and want to change and improve FOR each other…….. i love them. my kids. ch2 is so so good i love yano being willing to step out and talk back to a teacher to defend odajima he’s gotten so much bolder…. i also do think it’s interesting seeing the cafeteria incident having a lasting impact on the narrative, im glad it’s sticking around (even if it’s a sad thing to see people treating odajima the way they are because of it, it’s good it wasn’t a dropped detail). the 1.5 extras are sooo nice too the one of them snuggling together in bed with odajima getting excited abt yano reciprocating his feelings…. wah.

also the note about pittosporum as a plant!!!! i love flower language thank you for including that interview detail…. as soon as i saw it listed as a feb14 flower it clicked that must be why odajima’s birthday is valentine’s day since i’ve thought that his birthday being then was an interesting pick….. i wonder if there’s any significance associated with yano’s birthday too. as always thank you for your translations kou! ^_^

fun fact: the thumbnail for this chapter is just that one panel of jigu crying with his face bright red. saw it on my twitter fyp tuesday and it was how i found out the hiatus ended. anyways WE HAVE HIT THE PROGRESS POINT!!!! it’s all uphill from here.shout out to jigu as always. bpd legend

I’M BEHIND BC WORK WAS BUSY LAST WEEK & I’VE BEEN SICK oh my god i have four chapters to review now. fake pittosporum commentary fan guy

god they’re so sweet. forever and always that really is just the first thing i have to say. they’re so sweet. they care about each other and about trying to figure out how to understand each other & understand their approach to their relationship so so much. odajima thanking god for getting to come here with yano… yano wanting to figure out how to express how much he loves odajima in words… god they’re so sweet.

ODAJIMA’S FEAR OF BUGS FROM CH6 ALSO LOLLLLL i know it’s played for a silly little moment but i also like how it is - as everything about his behaviour is - reminder that he’s just a teenager. seeing him freak out at a cicada like that shows he’s healed enough to be able to express himself and his fear and maybe it’s not that deep but to ME it is. also him talking to yano’s dad and feeling guilty for being thanked because to him his motives for helping out yano - from the notebook to getting him to come home - were selfish (and what he described in 2nd leaf as ‘gross’) only to be told that no matter his motives, he still helped someone. he really needed to hear that because even with all of the progress he’s made - and what progress he has - he’s still burdened by the idea of dragging yano down with his own selfish whims, from the day they became roommates to now.

also yano taking odajima firefly-viewing on a date to his family’s spot which was also his parents’ date spot and where his dad PROPOSED…. that’s so intimate. kids you’re only 16 you have a lot of time to go before then but please….. please vol5, 6, whatever timeskip volume where they’re still going strong as adults and get engaged in this spot. sensei please. Sensei

anyways the way yano talks about how he’s not sure if he made the right choice pursuing their high school but he’s still glad he did because he got to meet odajima. wanting to thank him for everything only for odajima to break down because he still feels so, so selfish when it’s normal for him to want to do things for his boyfriend because he wants to stay by his side, and yano telling him outright he’s not sure if he can because he’s not sure what he wants to do but he still wants odajima to know how much he cares about him!!! AND HIS BRINGING UP WHAT HE SAID IN 2ND LEAF…. he didn’t approach their relationship with halfhearted feelings and he MEANT it. and the exchange of first names and i love yous. aaaaaugh wehhhh wahhh sniffle. god they’re SOOO sweet i can’t wait for 4th leaf. how many leaves do pittosporum stems bear because i will keep clapping and cheering if we end up with 10 volumes or something at this rate i need these two to be happy forever

this gives the EN version some good time to catch up!!! if anyone’s curious about how it ended:


kyuho is fired from his internship one week before its completion because he refuses to use some falsified / doctored information his supervisor provided him. Yoongun, who’s been worried about him because he hasn’t seen him come home the past few days (after Kyuho’s multiple attempts to shut him down re: their relationship prior), he comes across Kyuho heading home from work early while crying and asks what happens. while initially refusing to tell him, Kyuho ends up breaking down, tells Yoongun what happened, and then says something his supervisor said to him (basically that he was tiring) reminded him of Yoongun once saying something similar and that it set him off, and that he didn’t think his personality was really that much of an issue until he had to face this. he then apologised for lashing out and tells Yoongun that they’re too different to work out and that they can never understand each other, which is where the season ends.

the novel ended so all i have left is the manhwa………… ball sunday now. im glad they kept his coming out the exact same as it was in the novel & didn’t cut out his specifically describing himself as bi yay no erasure ^-^ he really is such a great ML i love jungwoo & his grasp on his own feelings and approach towards everything

the fact he watched his lover from a past life grow up with the hope and desire for them to be together again someday is the issue here. this is a very inherently groomy / predatory scenario whether they’re blood related or not. he was there for this guy’s birth & all of his childhood milestones. he got upset seeing the reincarnated ex have a girlfriend when in high school while he was a grown ass man this entire time watching over him. reincarnation or no, This is the problem here in this case

these two literally make me feel like a proud parent watching their child walk down the aisle at their wedding or something uweh. the way odajima kept clinging on to the onigiri yano made him because he was so touched at yano having thought of him, yano finding out finally that odajima was the one who returned his notebook first year, his learning just how much odajima thinks of him and tries to support him not just because he loves him but also because as someone who’s struggled so much mentally he wants to make sure someone he loves doesn’t get stressed out the same way (esp after all the stress he put him under in vols 1/2). Wahhh uwahhh

yano’s family is so cute also… you can really tell how much all the kids take after their dad in expressiveness (& the twins in looks), while yano resembles his mom in everything but the face. they’re so sweet & close-knit i’m glad they welcomed odajima so warmly….

odajima remembering the moment where yano first caught his eye in their first year… the scene where yano was fretting about his family’s expenses….. worrying about him because of that…. they both care about how they approach each other so much (too much even) they’re so sweet. ╥﹏╥ uwah.