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WHYYYY WHYYYYYY HYESUNG WHY DON"T DO THIS TO ME ╥﹏╥

Season one can't end like this. I can't wait till September to know what's going to happen. My heart is broken!
A health baby boy is born but Hye refuses to even look at his own son. Dojin freaks out but he decides to go talk to Hye and try to convince him to change his mind. But by the time he makes his way to hye's room, Hye had already left ╥﹏╥

That's too cruel! How can the season end here!! ╥﹏╥

So El's options range between being raped by an obsessive prince repeatedly who will probably lock him up in some tower for the rest of his life, and being tortured and killed by a vengeful woman to get back at said prince. I'm not sure which one's the worse option lol
But yet again the uke here lives for sex, and he has a thing for the prince so maybe the first option is better

chanwoo's the ultimate gay best friend that I've always wanted to have lol. Listen to chanwoo DG, he's right. This thing with Alex is going nowhere. I mean Jiwon could have at least thanked DG for taking care of him while he was drunk. He's really such a prick.

I think he peed himself... no wonder he is pissed. Poor guy, that must've been embarrassing. Yohan needs to use other means besides sex to get Soohwa to talk lol

You know what would be so fucking awesome? If DG gets drunk as fuck and storms the broadcast room during the live stream and just confronts Alex for all the shit attitude he was served all this time, and just let it allll out. Nothing would be more satisfying than that. I'm just tired of DG bending backwards for Alex and giving him everything he wants and forgiving him for everything and getting nothing but a horrible treatment and attitude in return. I want things to go to hell now lol

"The baby shouldn't see this."
MY HEART CAN'T HANDLE THIS MUCH. I'M CRYING.
Finally finally they had a proper conversation and had actual consensual sex that they both wanted and enjoyed and no one was crying and it was beautiful and I'm going to cry again （/TДT)/

* Internal Screaming, crying, freaking out! * (SPOILERS AHEAD FOR CHAPTER 31)
Okay I'm trying to calm down over here but it's not working! Hye and Dojin kept kissing and Hye started rubbing himself against Dojin and getting him excited. Dojin tried to stop because he did not want to hurt the baby. Then Hye asked him if Dojin thinks he is disgusting. Dojin says : "No, you are Beautiful. I have always thought that" * Kyaaaaaaa* Hye then giggles! And calls Dojin an idiot. Dojin thinks to himself: "He smiled... at me." * Dead * And then they have sex, slowly so that Hye can keep up for the baby's sake. Then Dojin thinks to himself (I'm not sure if he says it or just thinks it): "Even after the baby is born. Don't leave. Stay with me. Let's raise it together. Stay by my side." After that they sleep together. Then Hye wakes up in pain and says that her stomach hurts.
* I got the translation from an account on Instagram who posted part of the chapters and a bit from google translate *
So my heart can't keeeeeeeep calm. Finally! Finally! ╥﹏╥

I'm glad that Dojin realizes that what he is doing is wrong. He knows that he's making Hyesung suffer and admits that the only reason he is doing so because he feels satisfaction from seeing him pregnant and relying on him all the time.

Everybody complains that Hye is selfish and materialistic - which might be the case - but Dojin is also selfish. Dojin wants Hyesung even if Hyesung does not want him back. Dojin is so selfish that he is using the baby to tie Hye to him and keep him. I know Dojin loves the baby and he wants to be a good father, but he is still using it to keep Hyesung with him. If it weren't Hye the one pregnant with his child but some random omega he did not like, I doubt he would have went to this extent. Dojin was never planning to honour their contract. There's no way in hell he will let Hye leave after giving birth. We can see that in chapter 22 where he says "he still has time" to win over Hye. And in chapter 28 when he says he still will not give up. Dojin is so desperate, he's so scared of losing Hye that he went to such extreme measures by making a 20-sth poor high-school drop-out jobless omega, who he knew for less than a month, keep a baby that the omega obviously is not mature enough to look after. Hye is childish, immature and fails to evaluate the situations he is forced into. He is so naive that he almost got himself human trafficked! For God's sake, how could this guy become a mom?! Dojin knew all of that, but still insisted on Hye having the baby. Actually Hye wanting to abort the baby at first was the most rational thing he could come up with. But since he is so naive, he settled for a contract that he did not think through enough. Now that his pregnancy became sort of a 'reality' to him, and now that he knows how hard and painful it's going to be, he is beyond depressed and really suffering. I feel so bad for him. He did not plan this far ahead and now reality is hitting him like a brick, and Dojin wanting to keep him so bad allowed for this to happen and that makes him an accomplice to Hye's suffering.

I don't really hate Dojin either, even though I can see his selfishness. I like his caring side and I like his raw feelings. And there's nothing wrong with Dojin loving hye and wanting to be with him. It's never wrong to love someone. However, it is wrong to keep pushing oneself onto somebody who doesn't want you back, especially through manipulative means. Dojin never, not even once, told Hye how he feels. Hye can't read minds. Also, Hye is not very bright and can't properly read the situation. He will not figure out on his own how Dojin feels if Dojin does not tell him. From Hye's perspective, Dojin made him an omega, fucked him against his will, made him pregnant and now is the reason he is suffering. Hye is basically taking 'his revenge' on Dojin by using him for his money, a behavior that is enabled by Dojin himself. Dojin used his money to keep Hye with him as well, buying him stuff whenever he is upset so he doesn't leave. The way this relationship started was toxic and a good conversation is needed to clear things up. I want them to end up together but I want them to both willingly love each other and decide to be together. But things are so unequal now, because the one paying the highest price is Hyesung. He's the one suffering, he's the one whose body and mind are going through so many changes, changes he has zero control over. It's actually scary. Hye feels like everything he planned for his life went to shit. He feels like he has no control over his life and not even control over his own body. And even through all of this, he keeps up a strong and happy front. Honestly, he is amazing. I wouldn't be able to deal with it the way he does.

On the bright side (SPOILER HERE FOR CHAPTERS 29 - 30), in chapter 30 they have a fucking proper conversation. Finally, finally they talk things out and Hye realizes that it was not Dojin's fault that he's an omega, because he was one all along, regardless of Dojin and Dojin apologizes properly for making things harder on Hye, and promises him that he will protect him from his dick of a father. In here Hye starts to trust Dojin more and makes the first move and kisses him. Why couldn't that happen from the start? Hye is a decent person, he treats his friends well. The only person throughout this manga that he treated badly was Dojin, only because he had this negative conception about who Dojin really is. What they needed from the start was to communicate properly. But I'm happy with chapter 30. Hopefully after all this angst, we get some flufff. I want some fluffy happy moments. I can't stand seeing Hye crying anymore! ╥﹏╥ Anyway sorry for the long-ass comment, I got carried away (￣∇￣")

I'm both sad and happy after reading chapter 30! I'm happy that they finally talked it out! God they needed to have a proper conversation for a long time now! And I'm sad for Hyesung! His backstory is more fucked up than what I expected. So this is what I got from google translate, so I'm not sure how accurate it is, but here goes:

Hyesung asks if he could sleep beside Dojin and Dojin immediately agrees. He then tells him to get closer to him because that would make him feel less uneasy. Hyesung scoots over closer to Dojin. Then Dojin asks him if he wanted to talk about what happened. So Hyesung starts talking about everything. He said that his mum left him when he was only 5 years old. His mum was a 21 year old part-time worker at a bar when she met his dad. She got pregnant with Hye and did not want to get rid of the baby (I'm not sure about that part though), and because of that Hye's dad was forced to marry her. Hye's dad hated Hye for that, because he was the reason he was forced to marry his mum. Hye then talks about how his father kept on hitting his mum everyday and then he forced her to go out and sleep with other alphas for money (that fucker). His mum just couldn't go on like this and left. Hye then says that his dad had no interest in him when he was in elementary school because it was thought then that he was an alpha. So Hye lived with his grandma while the dad lived with some other omega. Hye's grandma did not care much about him and spent her days gambling. When Hye was in highschool, his grandma died. After the funeral, Hye's dad looks at Hyesung and comments how Hye looks exactly like his mum, how he is as tall as her and as thin as her. He then says: are you really an alpha? Hyesung trembles with fear and that's when he drops from Highschool and leaves the house and that was the last time he saw his dad. He starts trembling and Dojin hugs him tightly. Hyesung then says that if it was found out he was an omega, his dad would have treated him like his mother and that regardles of how fucked up things got, it was okay as long as he did not face his dad. Dojin then says that now no one can do anything to him and that he would never let it happen no matter what. He then says he's sorry because he was the reason Hyesung became an omega and that if they had never met, Hyesung might not have 'manifested' into an omega. Hyesung then says that it did not matter, because he was already an omega from the start and it would have happened sooner or later anyway. Dojin then says still... sorry. Because I made it so much harder on you... And then Hyesung and Dojin kissssssssssss.

Fuck my heart. I don't know what to do with it. Hye's life was horrrriblleee. He probably got his love for money from his gambling grandmother. He's insecure because of his dad. His mum left him. I just can't! But I'm so happy that they had a proper conversation! I'm so glad that he trusts Dojin enough now to talk this out with him! Dojin now needs to tell him his feelings! Please please I want my Hyesung to be happy! And fuck his piece of shit father. This man is absolute trash. No wonder Hye is scared of him to this extent!

Crying over here. Poor Hye.
So Hye sees his dad with a new woman(?) and two kids. He panics and says to himself what should he do, he can't be caught. But he is trembling so hard he drops the plate and it crashes. His father turns towards the sound of the crashing but Hye has his back to him. Dojin rushes over to Hye's side and asks him what is going on. Hye then clings to him and tells him that his dad is behind him. Hye then says that if his dad can smell his scent he will know its him. Hye's dad then walks over and asks if everything is okay. Dojin tells him everything is fine. The father then says "I think you're pregnant. You sure you're okay? you look like sth bad happened (or sth like that). Hye is so scared of being caught so Dojin releases his pheromones and startles Hye's father. He tells him that they are fine. He then carries Hye in his arms and leaves the restaurant.
They go to the hospital where Hye receives an IV. The doctor says that he doesn't think Hye needs to be hospitalized. Dojin then goes to hye and asks him if he is feeling better. Hye says he is fine but then Hye asks Dojin about the baby. He asks if it is okay, because it suddenly stopped moving and that surprised him. Dojin grabs his hand and tells him that the baby is okay and not to worry about it. He then asks Hye if he wants to stay in the hospital but Hye says he wants to go back home. They go back home and Dojin put Hye in bed and goes to his room. He then remembers how Hye was so scared every time he spoke of his parents. But Hye then knocks on Dojin's door and asks if they could sleep together.

Someone help, I can't stop crying. My baby ╥﹏╥