They're both kinda asshats, but while Aoi is a product of his environment, Nanjou just has this really annoying "grander than thou" attitude. I didn’t like him much, but I guess I do gotta acknowledge he was nicer to Aoi after he boticed his attitude stemmed from trauma... but also it's really weird how he's painted in the light of "saving" Aoi. I *do* think they have chemistry, but as this story is told (with the ammount of trauma Aoi has, the way they meet, Nanjou's whole spiel about "researching for material to use on his book"...) they're put into a super weird spot where it doesn't feel all that good to see how fast their relationship progresses. Maybe not immediately bonding and getting to know eachother *beforehand* would've helped,,,
Now, wtf was up with AOI apologizing to Mamoru for "leaving him behind"? Are you fucking for real??? That man can't look past his own fucking nose u saw your friend get raped, did not intervene, and now you want to have a say in how he should live? Get a grip. That guy needs to put in jail
I'm sorry he's 180cm and weighs less than 60kg????? No wonder Chouji was worried abt him getting thinner, this guy's all skin and bones
Anyways it's an okay-ish story imo. A bit over-the-top at moments, but I really liked how real the MC felt, and the development he had -- even though his "tsundere" (?) nature isn't my fave.
But, I'm really sad that Chouji being okama was kind of disregarded the more serious they became. The manga always made a point to say it was because getting involved with Takeru made him "manlier"... and that's bullshit bro I want my Chouko back...
... but I just CAN'T enjoy them being lovey-dovey when I still genuinely do not see how the fuck Ichimura has the guts to say he loves Nishino after he straight up just did NOT care about the wellbeing or feelings of the man he supposedly loves.
Nishino states mutiple times – to Ichimura and to others – that he is unhappy with this marriage being decided for him and did not plan to follow through with it, and has confided to Ichimura how much he hates just having to shut up and accept decisions his dad makes for him in general. It changed NOTHING in how Ichimura treated him and the situation.
To Ichimura, Nishino has to bear the duty of being the business' heir by marrying whoever his father chooses. He takes Nishino's dad's words practically as gospel, and believes the sucession hierarchy should stay as is. Everything Nishino is fighting against, everything Nishino does not want to let stay as-is, is essentially sensible in Ichimura's eyes.
The only explanation for his thought process not being simply a direct replica of Nishino's father's is that regardless of how he himself felt about it, he thought Nishino's feelings on the subject (the arranged marriage) would be ignored by his father or that, in the future, Nishino would just "marry another woman anyway" – so Ichimura thought he would get ""discarded"" either way. And, apparently, that's the only thing he manages to care about, because not once does Nishino's distress over this situation even seem to register. Ichimura does not show, at any moment whatsoever, ANY empathy towards Nishino. You can go back and check panel by panel for yourself – Ichimura only ever thinks about how he's going to get hurt by this marriage and how he is impeding on Nishino's duty. He does not even *acknowledge* Nishino's unwillingness.
When Ichumura talks about "not getting in the way of Nishino's goals," he has known for a veryyy long time that Nishino's goal was to do what he wanted (generally) – but apparently, that just didn't register, and somehow that goal now is something Nishino needed an arranged marriage in order to accomplish.
It seems he truly does not understand why Nishino wants independency. Therefore, he does not understand how any of this could make him unhappy. Therefore therefore, he can just ignore it when Nishino tries to be vulnerable and express how distraught he is that he is being put into this position.
If *this* is what Ichimura considers to love someone, then I feel very sorry for Nishino.
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Ahem. Anyways... I'm probably getting way too heated about this, but I just needed to rant a lil bit ╥﹏╥
The quality of the art here will never cease to amaze me. Not only is it super pretty and fluid, with incredible pacing and paneling, but it's also super HOT. Truly a masterpiece of our times... Unfortunately tho, with me it's come to a point that I just stare in wonder and I can't even get horny LMAO
In my mind I'll be thinking abt how hot Milton looks or abt how glad I am he's getting his due dicking () but for better or for worse I stand unaffected lol











The dialogue was so confusing but I loved this to bits... the author really knows how to build a hot and bothered atmosphere, and both main characters are sooo pretty