
uhh, can you take minute and breathe????? now i know why the mc will never get it until it's given to him straight, it's not that he's never thought of the possibility of the ml wanting him, but others surrounding him! im taking a break from this manhwa cuz i cannot with this kind of uncaring people. they just want to solve the problem, uncaring of the feelings of the people involved. if he really cares for his brother, he would consider the possibility of the mc and ml meeting eye to eye even just for a little bit. cuz thats what is actually good for the baby and for his brother, considering his long term unrequited love. this sibling of his wouldn't even let this kind of idea enter his thoughts!?!!!!????? his sibling cant?! but my bff would, even if the my crush and i are impossible, she'd still feed my delusions. wtf i can't with this

i thought i had a high tolerance with toxicity cuz I've read Red Mansion without batting an eye, and i saw that someone said this was toxic, but not toxic enough so i thought, im running out of stories to read! might as well. oh boy was i so wrong... this made me cry so much for 10 minutes dafuk??? i haven't cried since February. that scene in which adele was in a masquerade thing, in which this bastard buenaparte brought her to... literally, my heart ached so bad and i silent cried cuz it's fucking late in the night?!?!! right?! silent crying added the hurt that i feel in my heart, the grudge, and the hate i have for this boy. (i refuse to call him a man, he's so fucking childish) this bastard is so terrible i can't forgive him forever for what he did. i refuse to acknowledge this boy as the male lead, he's so fucking ugly. his whole being is ugly, I've never hated a character this bad. I've always sympathized with them, knowing their traumas. i dislike his whole being, he's so horrible i couldn't care less with his past, whatever.
just like how he does everything in his fucking power to disgrace, humiliate, and hurt adele, i also want to do that to him. i know it's useless cuz they'll end up together anyway, but i hope before that happens, he thinks back of what he did to adele, how he brought her into that God forsaken place. i hope he regrets so fuxking bad and his past action eats away at him every damn time he is with adele. i don't wish him a happy ending with adele, i hope he suffers so bad. there is no redemption for this boy, for me. although i like adele so much, im reading this bc of her, but I'll be staying away from this story to keep my sanity. i like to guard my heart from heartaches, cuz i read to feel good.
excuse my vulgar language because im filled with fiery rage. my wish is for adele to live happily, or disappear into a bubble on its way to find peace.
huh, this new one looks hot