i could have been mitsuri back when i was younger. i was in an abusive and controlling relationship. didn't start out that way, it was really hearts and flowers in the beginning. but when he just kind of disappeared, it was the best thing he did for me. then one day, he saw me driving on the street to my job. he followed me there and tried to talk to me. i didn't really acknowledge him and i got into my workplace as fast as i could. i knew that if i even let myself listen to him, i would get sucked right back in, because i wasn't quite over him....even if he used to hit me.
in that sense, i don't blame mitsuru, cos he thought it would be okay. but thinking you have some control over someone who's been controlling you is just not smart.
funnily enough, we work at the same place now after years of not seeing each other. we're a lot older, and he's even apologized to me. i really hope he means it when he says that he hasn't done that to anyone else, because i forgave him. i don't want my forgiveness to go to waste.
This. I know it has been probably years since that happened but I want to thank you for running back to your workplace and recognizing that you weren't over him. Because to me that's Mitsuru's problem, he knew he wasn't completely over Kouichi yet he got into an official relationship with Shougo thus when he Kouichi came back, he was not able to make sound decisions that might have prevented him getting raped. The talk was a right decision but going into a hotel room was not, raped or not, it was inappropriate. If only Mitsuru allowed himself to rest from loving others and concentrated on himself, he would've made better decisions, but then we wouldn't have a story, would we?
thank you. yes, it's been years. you know, he did tell me that when he disappeared back then, that it was the best thing he could've done for me. i agreed with him. i will admit, because there was no real resolution for us both from that time, he was getting caught up in our past and i started to feel some type of way. i think it was just residual feelings on my end that needed to be dealt with, and i have. for him, he was still in love with the girl i once was. now that i'm the way i am, he always asks me where was the innocent and sweet girl from back then. i said, 'she's been gone a long time' lol
i agree..mitsuru should have given himself time to heal, to not have a rebound relationship, cos it really sucks for the other person. i've been both the rebound and the one who started a relationship on the rebound. it sucks either way. haha and you're right, without all these unwise decisions, drama, and stuff, we wouldn't have a story lol
I'm scared of getting into any relationship and your story gives me hope about independence and self-control.
Despite all the stupidity and impulsiveness that's happening in the series, I'd say its really good and I hope the readers get past victim blaming or hating the characters and actually find what the author wants its readers to take from the story. Like what happened to you, there's a lesson to be taken from yours and in this series.
i don't think people should hate on aki too much....he reacts like a lot of people react when they find out their family member is gay, lesbian, etc. he's like he is for a few reasons: mainly that he's dependent on his brother, and he has a fear of the unknown. he can't see why his brother has the sexual preference that he does. coming out in general is still hard for a lot of people cos of the type of reactions, like aki's for one, that people have to it. not everyone is accepting, even if they know it's what makes the other person happy.
when my oldest daughter came out to me as bisexual a few years ago, she said that she was attracted to both males and females. you know what i said? ok, and that i always knew. nothing changed. i still love her just as much. but not everyone is like me...her father didn't handle it as well as me at first, even though he accepted it.










if someone ever said the things to me that that ex said, he would get slapped in his face. lol someone should've punched him
Ikr I mean like seriously, if ur not gay, then u must be extremely gay to have sex with a MAN just to pretend u like him