Its supposed to be like...it took him literally becoming a girl to man up/ "act like a man"...idk relies too much on stereotypes. His girlfriend should be proof enough that standing up for people and being bold isn't a manly thing, its about confidence and self assurance. He got that in the end once he became a woman and felt like he had something to prove...? Or maybe the moral of the story is just that women are natural bamfs, who knows
for me i thought it was like his gender didnt really change the way he feels.. it didn’t matter if he was a boy or a girl because in the end you love who you love
LAY IT ON EM SUNYOOL. I don't care what feelings Heejae is having. HE CONTACTED JISUH'S ABUSIVE EX JUST TO CORNER HIM AND FUCK HIM UP EMOTIONALLY. Idc idc he doesn't deserve Jisuh's second chance. Sunyool!!!!!!
Sorry for littering the comments, but advice to new readers or old readers confused about the story:
Read the first half, then the flashbacks, then the first half again before reading the end chapters. It makes more sense that way. Also, you have to keep in mind that Law is NOT a reliable narrator. He's the type of character you have to read into his words, you can't take any of them at face value, as Jesse finds in the end along side the reader. Law says one thing, but actually feels another. He is unsure of what he really wants/thinks but will talk like he knows (just like we all do) and it takes an outside perspective to figure him out.
thank you for your advice...this story is confused to me but I am trying to read hehe
After rereading this....my biggest question is around Jesse having Law kicked out of the house. It shows and seems to imply it was to keep Law out of his mother's hands and that perhaps he was doing it to keep Law free since he knew that he didn't want to be controlled by anyone. But then I think back to how desperately Jesse didn't want to be without Law either and I wonder how he could live with that decision? Did he refuse to meet Law at all after banning him from the house? If so, why/how? To protect him but also...I thought Jesse needed him around just as much as Law needed him. But maybe He didn't, it is shown that Jesse is a lot stronger but then sometimes he gets a little desperate and can't stand to live without Law (like in the program, when law tries to leave him he can't stand the idea and either kills himself so he won't be without him or asks to have his memory of law erased bc he knows he couldn't live apart from him unless he completely forgot him) So then how was he fine without Law after kicking him out? Just because he thought it was for Law's own good? Then, the day Law gives him the tea to kidnap him, he was upset. He was trying to say that he never should have tried to let them live as equals/ should have kept a relationship dynamic of Law being submissive to him so that they at least would have been together. So, that implies he didn't like being apart from Law for those few years after kicking him out....so then why did he? He didn't want Law to be involved with his mom but why not go see Law on his own? Was it because he didn't think that he could do that and keep Law away from his mother? That it was the only way to keep Law from pushing? I just wish I understood what happened during the time after he banished Law up until they met again later...before moritat.
I think you missed quite a few details if you´re lost on this bit.
That´s because Jesse was in an entirely different situation inside Moritat. He lost his parents, memories of torture by the kidnappers were still fresh in his mind and was unable to trust anyone-except Law. Law was the only one left. It wasn´t about love-it was dependence. That´s why he jumped from the 2nd floor, he wasn´t in his right mind and desperately needed someone- anyone. Inside Moritat Jesse´s feelings were different. Law was merely a servant as we could see from the flashbacks. If he really loved law then Law would've ended Moritat much sooner.
But in Reality Jesse has everything, and more importantly himself. He loves Law (more so than the old him in Moritat), but also understands that Law was being led astray by his mother. In ch 51 page 5 Jesse says " I thought it was about time for you to show up" In other words, he didnt banish Law for eternity. He stopped Law from leaving once, but decided to release him from the Brown toxicity (althou Law misunderstood his intentions and thought he was abandoned).
In truth, Jesse was worried about him because he was slowly falling, Law always wanted to be equal to him but at some point gave up on that and started to be ordered around by the mother unconsciously. In ch 49 he tells Law " all I did was grant you your wish" which was Freedom (to stand by his side)
Okay okay. I got the stuff you talk about in the bottom 2 paragraphs but I think the first paragraph helps. Its hard to understand the Moritat scenes because they're intentionally confusing, its like a bunch of dreams and consciousness drifting because thats what its like when you're lost in a dream and can't tell what is real/ time doesn't make sense but you still perceive it to flow normally. I think I feel like in Moritat it shows that Jesse, while not being able to completely access his memories, still reacts to things he KNOWS. For like 3 years Law was always by his side, watched him as he slept/fell asleep next to his bed, so in Moritat Jesse often didn't know WHY he felt like he did, but he fell into old habits and his feelings reacted like muscle memory. Like his heart just kind of reacts to seeing Law asleep next to his bed (the scene after Jesse throws up) and his immediate thought is one of concern about Law's health and he reaches out to touch him before stopping himself and wondering what he is doing. I tend to read Moritat like Jesse trying to stay logical, but on top of all the manipulation of memories, he still has a strong connection to Law. But what I get you saying now is why Jesse reacted a lot more extreme inside Moritat. In the outside world he can function fine on his own, but it Moritat Law WAS his world, so if he was going to leave there'd be no point to be trapped in a house alone with his nightmares.
I guess I still want to question what happened after Jesse banished Law in the real world though. He tried to keep him away from his mom, but did he accept that staying away from Law would be something he'd have to do to follow through with that? I just guess I wonder if the explanation for why Jesse can at one point in their childhood freak out about Law going abroad and leaving but then turn around and just accept not being able to see him for 5 years is just because he became more mature and independent. I mean, I guess it does make sense. Jesse is more mentally strong and put up with it, but by the dialogue he didn't get to finish right before the kidnapping its clear he's still upset they didn't get to be together for those 5 years. So I can accept the idea that Jesse just dealt with it while missing Law during that time. But I guess I wonder if he was just planning to stay away from him forever? Moritat basically came out to the public saying they were stopping their work so after that I wonder why Jesse and Law didn't meet/what Law was up to because Moritat was still being worked on behind the scenes and it seems he was obviously part of it because he had his own machine. I just wonder what happened to Law because he was apparently banished barehanded yet his parents were dead so...I wanna know where he went and what he was doing. But I may never know ╥﹏╥
A story about two people who love each other so much that they make themselves, and each other, absolutely miserable.
I mean, their family is to blame mostly
I could've sworn I've read another chapter to that bully one....
sadly author died so idk if it really is the ending.
The author that made the plot passed away. But the mangaka is still alive. So, i think theyre going to continue it?? Idk tho.
no
I kinda like how bad he is?
Ah thank you, been looking for it
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