
Legit still think that the memories she has of the heroes cheating on her are fake.

I only read the spoilers, so my memory might get a few things wrong. In all of her past lives, the heroes did come back for her. I don't know what happened with the hero in the first life, but Louisa was chased out from the village and died because of that (she was chased out because of the hero). In the second life or third life, not sure which, she was kidnapped by the demon lord and was raped in her cell. Then, she was given poison to decide to either live or die.
She chose death. Minutes later, the hero came for her.
And as all of her past lives were obviously....terribly sad, I'd guess (not spoiler from now on) that thing of ''The hero always abandons me'' is her own mechanism of self defence.
More like ''I have to stay away from him, if I want to live'' or ''Being near him will bring death''.
There was another girl who said that louisa is somehow connected to the demon lord. And that the present demon lord was the past hero. Don't know if this was her theory or spoiler.

Spoiler also:
Actually the current demon lord was the hero or the captain in the palace.. And Luisa is actually from another world. And dont know if hero or captain he was but he fell inlove with her.. That's why he said June.. June was the girl whom was transported by the Goddess to that world to save it.. then the she was killed.. The black guy, lets call him that was to grief striken that he ate or absorbed if i understand the raws correctly, the Demon lord and thats how he became the Demon lord himself.

But yes, it wasn't the demon Lord who raped her. If my memories are correct, some guys got paid by a noblewoman to do these shit to her. Anyways though, what I'm certain about was that she was given the choice to off herself via poison or continue suffering. She chose the poison instead of waiting. But when she took it, the hero arrived and was too late and she died in his arms. Her second life was she got assassinated, political reasons probably. I think they were married in the second life and people didn't like that.

Last time I read this manga, it only had 20 chapters, it's at 80s now and they haven't gotten together?? What is this, probinsyano?

Also they haven't gotten together yet, that is so typically shoujo, I can't bear characters always dancing around one another but never fucking communicate, j hate it, I'm way too traumatized by shoujo with over 200 chapters. I already waited a long time ago, do I have to wait again? This time wait 10 years for them to finally communicate? Please someone convince me to pick it back up again, when I first read it, I really did like it, but I'm impatient and waited, but each time I check the comments for the status, I always see the same complaints...
AWE FUCK
THAT LOOK AT THE END, WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME???