I love to listen to shatta/dancehall songs, watch Caribbean vids, GL Thai series
I remember I was having psychosis thinking I was bullied by several people including Japanese people
There were some vids where it seemed like people were mocking me, so I sent that to several persons to ask if they understood(it was in Japanese) saying "I don't understand, I think they're angry at me I would like to know what I did"
And the person......
I watch videos all day, dance, go for walks waiting patiently for an answer for my job application
Kilari
When I was a child after watching Kilari I wanted to be bubbly like Kilari so I started to smile all the time even when I was sad, tried to be optimistic in all situation, I became really lively (Before I was crying all the time)
Inside out
I noticed some of my positive attitude was toxic positivity, because I wasn't aknowledging my emotion......
(Big yapping session underneath, if you want to read my own thoughts about it...) I'll start off mine first. Personally the first thing that got on my mind was A Silent Voice, Takopi's Original Sin, 10 years where I loved you the most, Murderer Llewellyn's enchanting dinner invitation, Eventually, I Will Become Yours/Bloom Into You and The Sum......
07 08,2025
I'm gonna go in Thailand, Japan with my family
I eat a buffet of all my favorite meals, visit these two countries, hug a lot and cling my mom and brother, fuck with Thai women , wear the most colorful outfits I can (decora style)
I almost don't sleep and go to parties every nights
Hablo un poquito de español
Entiendo mejor que hablo
I tend for the tiny thing I said/did ruminate for hours about what I said/did and feel guilt
80 people did / 6 want to do
I watched Carol, Imagine me and you and others
1984, Animal Farm by George Orwell
I think it would be like a mix of a creep with anger issues, weird fetishes xD
I'm sure if they love me they would stalk me, so I would run away from them xD
Maybe try to talk on 7 cups (it's free, you can talk to volunteers)
Try to do sport (something you enjoy like cardio dance) on a regular basis, eat healthy meals, go outside almost everyday even just for a walk around your neighborhood, try to reduce one step at a time doom scrolling, do journalling to express your feelings, try to watch funny vide......
What do you do when you did or said something and then you feel second-hand embarassment? How do you make that feeling of shame go? Same question when you feel guilt, how do you make that feeling go away?
I don't want to be anxious anymore, I would like to be really relaxed most of the time
For now, I'm a facilitator in a kindergarten and elementary school, I will apply to be a helper of students with disability too and after my training, I plan to become a sophrologist
I swear they needa make more gl's bro like there's barely any good gl out there... Anyway recommend me a movie
02 08,2025
I decided to stop school pressure that was making me so anxious and sad by stopping going to school, I will start to work full time(I was working part-time), save money to travel and later I'll do a sophrologist training