
"at this old age of 35" I wanted to burst in laughter, but could only quietly do so, cause I am at work. What the heck. I am 24 now. But who on earth is old when they are 35? You are old when you are above 45. The you can say stuff like "this old age" and will just sound dramatic haha so professor you are not old...you are a freshly matured wine hehe

and I cannot at all appreciate what Hyunoh did. This has nothing to do with friendship or loyalty, that he didn`t at least tell the people involved - which is his group members and especially woojoo and eunsung - that it was Tarius who did this. If someone you care about, does something harmful like this, you have to still be reasonable and act responsibly. They acted out of their own free will like this, so whatever consequences may come if you just act responsible, they have to bear it. That guy deserves no single ounce of sympathy. Wow, he is jelly cause his best friend and first love is focuses on not only him. But he is a disguting asshole who harrasses everyone and everything and even sexually harrassed Hyunoh. I swear. I hate these kinds of people. Peole like Tarius are just plain pathetic and need a harsh as hell reality check, cause they are the types to start bawling in realisation of what they lost because of their own actions and Hyunoh needs to stop acting like a sacrificial heroic martyr or something, who needs to protect everyone around him, cause his ignorance caused this. If he acted early, if he was honest to Tarius and not give up half heartedly in honestly and sternly facing him and told everyone that Tarius saw the contract the second he found out, he could have prevented everything. Tarius needs to be driven into a corner and than beaten down by all the consequences of the shit he did all the time one after another and lose out all he thought would remain like it is even while throwing out his basic decency and then he may deserve another tiny chance if that makes him do a character development and fucking grow up. Urgh.....

i just started this. and i was at the scene where he said how he gonna destroy our cutie. and there is two options.
either he is the trash that assaulted that actress and was caught by this cutie and wants to take revenge now to bury a witness of his disgusting self he tries to deny. or he is someone who was into her or has some kind of grudge against cutie because he missunderstood his personality based on the "rough face" he has and thinks he is some kinda awesome bitch hero of justice who is about to clear out the bad guys in the industry cause deep down he is actually a scum in denial trying to proof he is not by acting this way.
all in all he is scum. bye. no sympathy for people who judge without evidence.

suffer from asian parents, as if they are on some kind of leash and will die or something if they ever dare overstep it or HOW DARE break it.
And here I am, someone who decided to not give a fuck if my parents "love" only would exist for a me that like some dog obeyed their expectations and became someone I was not just to give their unhappy irresponsible selves some sense of stability, control and satisfaction in their lousy lifes controlled by self inflicted restrictions. So I went "against" my parents and did my own thing. They tried threatening me, doing all they could think of to make me obey. But they realised how that only made me more and more distant and assured about how toxic they are, how their "love" is not at all anything I would want in my life and how I rather "woke up" from being some dependent baby and matured with ever mistake they made. Now they are the kinds of parents you see on TV in those perfect dramas, who support their daughter, try to fnd out what she likes and adjust to it, who praise her for being so confident and so awesome to go her own way. Who sometimes raise their opinion and show remnants of wishes and expectations they had on their kid who they viewed as their possession for too long, but try to supress it whenever they see how I close off when they do that. It is funny to see how my mother sometimes chokes up, when I tell her, that I appreciate her opinion on my life, but that it is my life and that I am the only one that knows what is best for me.
So this stuff about an adult women being forced into doing something she does not want actually....it is irresponsible from an objective standpoint. She has no right to be unhappy or what, if she decides to give the responsibility over her own goddamn life to her parents all on her own, just to "not be hated". What the heck. I am not blaming her. She is ina kind of society that uses this family structure, hierarchy and education to manipulate and control their citizen in this way. It comes in very handy for the powerful 1 percent of korea to have citizen that listen to authority so well, even when they feel strongly against it. I mean you can see it on the suicide rates and the age of those who commit it. They rather kill themselves, than say no and stand their ground and live their own life how they want to. A very successful capitalistic society that is an easy puppet for the 1 percent.

Through his own self inflicted drama. The reason he rejects her now and projects his own feelings onto her and takes it all out on her, is because he is to weak to carry his own feelings and take responsibility for himself and that he did wrong as well. Yes, he did become a great writer thanks to that drama and pain he brought onto himself. He cannot deny it. Many artists literally eat up negative experience and trauma, because that is what makes them most creative sometimes, motivates them and brings them purpose. I was like Jiho, too. A kind, caring girl on the outside, that did her own thing and somehow had classmates that stuck to me even though I was selfish and only cared about myself and an attraction to a classmate that I kind of made into that big a thing all on my own. Even though as an adult after a lot of stuff and starting to self reflect, be honest and not be dependent on shit anymore, I realised what kind of a brat I actually was. I never even talked to my crush a lot. All I knew was the nice side of themselves they showed to the public and their friends. Their social mask. I fell for that. Small shit they did I made into something meaningful all on my own. Then I blamed them for rejecting my confession that came out of nowhere on their graduation day. For a long time I clung onto that pain of rejection and failed love, blamed them for making me fall and hurt me. Like an idiot. And he is the same. Did he ever try to become friends? Did he ever talk with her? Get to know her? He was shy, so he wrote a letter, but he was so preoccuppied with his own drama and expectations and feelings he didn“t notice that his OH SO GREAT LOVE was fucking bawling there, with a devasted look on her face. He cannot deal with the fact, that he has responsibility in all this, that all the shit he went through after the rejection was all self inflicted and could have been avoided and was just all because of his own selfishness and missunderstanding. That is why he is running away now. Still clinging to that rejection, hating love and women, taking it out on people as if the whole world was unfair to him and should suffer for making his 19 year old self go through something SO AWFUL. Like bruh. Grow up please. He has to grow up and face the shame he brought onto himself. But he is someone who is very stubborn and proud, that is why he cannot deal with what he knows he has to do. He will run, until he cannot find a way out of facing his own idiocy anymore.
I feel so stressed out. I mean, they are so imprisoned by mundane things, that they keep getting hurt as if it was natural, instead of being shown a way to free themselves and have the courage to stand on new ground away from everything they got used to. People get used to situations and think it is normal. Like children from asian families think it is normal, that you have to listen to every demand of your parents and make THEM proud and live your life according to their wishes and marry when they tell you, have kids because they tell you and stay with your husband because he wants to or society or family wants to. Have people overstep boundaries they are actually not allowed to overstep, because everyone always did it, so it feels normal and you feel guilty for feeling umcomfortable about it or whatever. She could just emotionally distance herself from being the "daughter" of her father and mother and the child of that marriage. It is somewhat psychological abuse her mom is doing, to make her child think it is her fault that her mother is still married, even though that is to a great extend just an excuse. My parents did the same. If a man demands that you have a family similar to his, so he can love you properly and deem you worthy of marriage, then you dumb his ass. That is not love nor a healthy prospect for a relationship. It means he is trash that comes from a trash family himself. His family is no better than yours, because yours is broken obviously, his seems to be poisened on the inside. A pitiful bastard who doesn`t know love or what family is supposed to be. You also don`t need a biological child or a child at all to have a family. If you and your partner love each other healthily, nothing matters and only weak losers would dare talk behind your backs, but you wouldn`t give a damn because you know they are not worth an ounce of attention and you love your life and are proud of it. Seo Yihun comes from a healthy family, with a father who lives as an example of true unconditional and healthy love. He is someone who would never judge someone because of things out of their own control and responsibility. It is not your fault you are sick, nor has it anything to do with you that you parents are bad and broken. You are not a marrionett and spitting image of your parents like your ex who seemed like a copy and paste of his own mother, so you have nothing to fear. Only people who live the karma of their parents are to be feared. Because they will always be controlled by them and rather hurt their partner than dissappoint their parents and blame you for feeling bad that they didn`t rightfully take your side. Family has no room in a couples relatioship. A couple that doesn`t know this will only become toxic with time. Partners are called partners for a reason. And family and the prospective partners behaviour about his family and all are important only in the beginning, to tell you what kind of person your partner is. Like my sisters 5 year old boyfriend who when things became serious and parents got to know each other, showed his true colours as a mommas boy who would throw his own girlfriend away to please his mom instead of telling her off for being unrightfully rude to the girlfriend. So my sister who knows her worth threw away his ass haha....I am looking forward to Namwoo finally healing and breaking away from all her painful shackles....