I am rereading this and sure enough as always with rereads, you can somehow see things in a different sense. What I can say is, that I feel a bit pained. I felt like this from the start. The adorable Eunho always only knew how to love and only have Jaeha in his heart. He sure would not have tried anything anymore when they first met again at that bar, if Jaeha was for real totally not interested. Somehow, if you know someone and are so atuned to someone since you were a growing bud, you can sense things. Even if it is subconscious. Jaeha always loved Eunho and is actually a very possessive person. But, he is so insanely good at denying reality, I guess since may be the first time in his youth he realised how much he actually liked Eunhos lovesick behaviour. It is understandable for a kid I guess. He knew that only boys and girls can marry and Eunho obviously was still such an angelic baby and always small and cute and so innocent, so his insane possessiveness kinda went reverse there and trie to "protect eunho the angel". There is a saying everyone knows, how love and hate are only a hairs breath apart from each other. It is easy to fool yourself that the feelings of love are just actually aversion a or something. Then he found his wife, who looks exactlz like the female version of Eunho and married her. Why? Because of his internalised thoughts about how heterosexual marriage is the only thing allowed and ok. So he married the perfect copy that society accepts of Eunho. But lying to yourself for so long makes a human into a very strange version of oneself. Very chaotic. Slowly falling apart, as your mind cannot hold on for ever the weight of all your illusions. That friend of his gave him the sex he wanted, but he felt insanely satisfied only with Eunho. Even their clumsy first time was better than the years of experienced sex he had with his ex sex friend. It is hard to get over something you ingrained so deeply within you, or to for the first time truly let truths sink in you hid away in a dark place within your mind. Change scares humans. Especially slightly pessimistic people like Jeaha. He is afraid to love Eunho for real. He always was scared shitles of that kid as he says, the older they got and the more he realised about his own sexuality and how his excuses were loosing credibility. That is why he also seemed like some kinda animal being slowly trapped. He was scared of all the things he hid, all the lies he told himself and all the shit he did to Eunho and himself and others because of his cowardice and about how to deal with the sand castle collapsing onto himself and thus he ran away. He was lucky. That Eunho did not give up, because he honestly just loved him. I mean other people love selfishly and go all abusive when they see their loved one have kiss marks from others and date around or be in love with other people ( he suspected he still loves the ex wife for the first season). But he tried to not be selfish and just accept whatever he could have. Sure thing it tired him out, because a human cannot stay in such a relationship where he has to put in the feelings and stuff for two people. Anyway, if these didn't happen like this, Jaeha one day, sooner or later, may be when seeing an Eunho that moved on and showers another person with all the capacity of love and care he has and that Jaehe rejected or just in a moment of deep self reflection due to age, he would have had for sure a break down. Realising that just because of some idiotic non sensual reason he gave up the one true love he ever had and could have had in this one life he has. Such an alternative story would also be nice. He really made people especially Eunho suffer a lot so I wished he would have had a true in depth chapter where he hit real rock bottom for all his crap. hhhhhh anyway. an ice manga it is indeed....
it id the author from good day to go crazy. haha now the uke is the pink haired pretty one huh...heh...
and then read and was getting super confused with the siesta and then how they talked and then that huge dude suddenly got all creepy and I just cut there and went super loud "HUH WHAT JUST HAPPENED?!"....i was so loud and honestly shocked, that my roommate came worriedly to ask if I was alright. Haha...dude...didn't expect this....so imma say bye haha
i want to read this. but the intro just kills me. because the emotions are so raw on this ukes face...i just cannot face what will happen after he starts masturbating with two people next door...gosh...my heart...how to overcome this haha
nahh keep reading i undetand you cause i felt the same way with the second hand embarrisment , but that whole scene becomes irrelvent through out this.
just to see what people meant with the last few "good" chapters, I read the chapter 3.5 or what it was and dude....i wish i were infront of the author and could rip this page infront of their face. who the fuck is this persons editor? i get that he wants to have sex there. it makes sense. because that bitch of an uke without any sense of a brain is someone who could make a loved one go almost nuts in order to MAKE THEM UNDERSTAND. but he still didn't. and calls him selfish and acts like the victim. the fuck....while that guy carries your body full of fresh sex into the bath and kisses your back and is all cuddly with you while you bath your nicely fucked naked body....dude....i would have just cut all ties with this kind of selfish asshole and never ever ever talked to them again? why? because of self preservation. my own insticts would go nuts around a person like that. how do i know? because i met people like this and did not ignore the signs and was like BYE BITCH....because THEY DON'T EVER CHANGE. i would may be, if i lost it good because i atually did love this person and want to make them feel the pain they cause me and ignore as if it never happened, i would do what they did to me infront of them. suck someone elses mouth infront of them, because "they are a friend"....hug another freshyl fucked naked guy and bath them and cuddle with them.....be together all the time with that so great friend all the time half naked and super ambiguous infront of them....and then when they act all hurt as if i betrayed them CAUSE THEY WILL ALWAYS ALWAYS NEVER GET IT BUT FEEL LIKE THE VICTIM i will go lose to their ear all seductive and say "i never want to see you again." and go....that was it. he can go be together in that amazing friendship with alex. i would even wish them luck. and go enjoy my fucking life properly. as if there is only one person in the world. a human can always love. it just depends on if you let it in...the love...if you close it off...then you won't find love properly.
go outside omg
Completely agree, as soon as I saw how the story was turning out to be I just saw this as a toxic environment in which the seme will slowly be drained out and madness could come in sooner than later
Argh. When only volume 1 was out , i loved this. But now im reading so many negative comments... maybe i should just leave it at my good memories lol
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The thing that is more revolting here is how it concludes.... it's as if it didn't have any importance, the writing was so bad... it just too morally absurd.
Yeah, i read it now (all except volume 4) and it got really shitty. Jin letting that Alex do what he wants on him while being all insecure and nervous. Lol. If he was insecure, and his boyfriend caught him kissing another guy, he would want to explain that situation before and misunderstandings could arise but nah. That dude would probably fuck Alex if his boyfriend didn't appear at the right time. I really, really liked Jin but everything that happened in volume 3 absolutely ruined it for me. Meanwhile i think the topic of insecurities and the question of will they be able to move past what happened to them when they were young could have been so interesting...
and goes to find himself someone who is not so self centered, that they could make you lose sanity because they twist everything to make it about themselves, but actually is a good normal guy he can be calm with and confident with, then I this story will officially be shit. Seme will slowly be traumatised and loose parts of himself if this would be properly developed by what the author is creating here. And Uke would become more and more deprived and could even go and develop his narcissism even more. Urgh. Annoying.
why is the uke like the most helpless male damsel? Both love interests are fucking weird. I want some kind of mysterious prophetic character to come, like those anonymous people sometimes encounter when they are in a difficult place in life and they somehow say the most incredible stuff. you never see them again, but you can never forget what they said and how it helped you change your life for the better. and i want such a person to appear and tell this uke that he is spellbound by experiencing orgasms for the first time with a dick on a good looking body that knows some techniques. and to move on. he is still a freaking kid. in life you don't need to cling to anyone that comes your way and introduces you to new things. no, you need to learn to consider all perspectives. they might introduce you to something, but if all over they are shit and make you feel negative feelings, grab your legs and leave dude. one day if you have learned enough about yourself and life, you can grab their legs and throw them out haha. you only have one single life. i don't understand why people let themselves suffer like this, instead of doing their best to at least feel 70% good all the time. you won't die if you leave such people. you won't loose anything either, just a lot of stress will go. now you know how good sex feels like, so you can judge a new partner based on that. you learned something. take it and go find someone who can make you feel good not only when his dick is inside you. the heck....gosh...he should either just swag is way outta both after taking as much as he can and just be a smooth sailing career focused guy who doesn't give a shit about people like those two anymore. or find a good partner and with even a cherry on top of the swagness without even needing to say anything, show those two annoying bugs that they are annoying bugs..... goddammit....why is it so hard to make stories like this????
That was long...i didnt even read it but if you have problem with the story just drop it...its not like you're paying for it.
Rightttyyy
as much as you don't like to be told what to do, you can also not tell me what to do. I read this and I developed an opinion about this, like a normal human with a functioning brain and personality. Whether I will still read it to see, if the author will safe the story, or if I won't read it is up to me. But there is no such thing that states that a reader is not allowed to criticise a story they are reading. there are even people who professionally watch films and read movies or manga to write professionally stated opinions about the product. How old are you guys? You sound like kids that for the first time like something on their own and feel compelled to protect it and be accepted by everyone about liking that particular thing. That is not how the world works. A creator always expects that there will be people who don't like their story. And for a good creator people who properly state their reason for disliking something are important, because they give a broader perspective on their own. Thus allowing them to may be see stuff they didn't before, may be feel inspired, answer questions they could not find answers to, see places they could improve. Or they can also read those and decide it is not really valuable to their situation and ignore them. That is why proper critique is important. Or else a human cannot grow. ( be it you reflecting on yourself or other constructively giving you a perspective on you). You must live a very narrow minded and boring life to be saying things like this. I didn't sign up for a cult. I just read a manga. Chill...
Yeah agreed, like u said.....we just read a manga so chill.
i wish therre were extras that shows how they explore sex together until they "Make it" ....aaaah man... such a cute story haha
because I keep reading this in these kinds of stories. The ,,They must be filming a movie.'' reaction. Like dude....if they were, you would know waaaaay before they do the scene on set. Cause they would do hella huge preparation, have to set up a lot of equippment and the place would be informend prior and students would get a notice how to behave. And such sci fi scenes are filmed on special filming sets with green walls and motion sensor stuff and the actors were full body costumes or whatnot. How would humans for a movie do something like that....it got kind of lie a qu now to know aha ok she will die or in general everything is gonna go down the drain from now on