
I wander if this what has led him to think of others first and be the one thats always emotionally available towards others even when he is suffering too... it always looks one sided and I totally get how emotionally unavailable he is now and depressed. I mean im experiencing that too. He mentions "alone" from A but it sounds like he is too. And he mentions problems from his parents and the homophobic terms so thats why i think this... he never mentions how he feels maybe out of fear they'll leave.

I lobed the art and the concept of women and pressure. However, i never felt anything from her relationship with manager chun. Repeatedly they kept saying how she was putting him with her ideals and on a pedestals. He didn't consider her as precious enough to stay and ask for marriage. The person she came out looking happy with, that supported her ideas and gave her new ones was Hyunmin? He was generally interesting and loved and defended her and she was less timid and honest with him. All her new ideas came from hyunmin, not only did he inspire her but she was comfortable. You can feel his love and she never felt distanced from him like she did with chun. So im confused why she never got with him... is this saying women will just go with what makes them comfortable at that age. Sometimes I don't like straight romance because of this... making you settle for marriage or make you feel old at 30 when you're not?? She literally had more chemistry with hyunmin and her love with chun felt so average and she kept going on about "mature" like ???. I noticed she turned into the woman she always aspired to be like but it just felt frustrating tbh. Idk if the author meant to make this backhanded? Chun kept her within her fishtank amd hynmin helped her burst out of it?? SO WHY

Tbh she was the most honest with him... i thought author was trying to portray idealistic love with manager chun and a realistic one with hyunmin... so i was confused at the end. Idk if the author was trying to say you can have different types of love or end up with the one that really is compatible with you etc and that this is more realistic for people but cmon....hyunmin was the one that inspired all those moments and even said to close that distance between them and i felt nothing from chun (i forgot his name) jsjsj
Im glad the author turned how he viewed himself into how he can help others like him. I think it is an honour and good natured. Marriage is something where the spouse has the rights to be regarded as the others no.1 priority. It matters a lot. People are selfish to assume their kind of love is the only "normal" one or the concept of masculinity is not toxic. The things he experienced, people he has met and the story of his husband brought me to tears. To think someones pain is due to society letting individuals down and then feel justified about it. Laws doesn't mean it is just, we should always talk about it. Like author said his sexuality doesn't determine his character, who or how many people they like or whether or not they deserve rights of marriage/children as its a human right. Stereotypes just feel like it roots in patriarchal stereotypes that affect men and women regardless of sexuality. The fact author was called all sorts of things, kicked out of a job, called immoral and treated badly by exes and predatory men is truly concerning and justifies his activism because they treat those from LGBTQ communities less than human its not right.