I get so anxious, and my stomach churns while reading every chapter. Every time the MC dissociates and pretends to move forward, I remember I'm doing the freaking same as I read every update.
**TRIGGER WARNING**
The two times I got molested by adult men as a teen, I still had to keep going about each day. Never knowing when I'd get triggered. I EVEN SMILED AT THEM, I even was careful of not to make others feel bad when they found out. I don't think people realize how much some people can mentally distance themselves from trauma. Which is why it all comes out so hard when we're triggered. There are literally people who remember their assaults and relive them clear as day, 50 YEARS LATER every day or when triggered. I feel/think so many things when I read this like like I'm in a toxic codependent relationship where I've deluded myself to feel comfort in the pain to cope.
Why big mans getting his ass whooped so often. Maybe he shoulda stayed in that base with all the other rapists.......and then blew himself up with them all inside. Or we should get society built back up so we can get all these rapists to work in the mines with only simple cutlery as tools and two pieces of stale bread a day. I'm so upset that I have to now send my conniving yandere twink to the shadow realm with the rest of them











I knew her life had to literally be in danger to get some honesty out of him. The foreshadowing was not subtle at all