"everyone has to sacrifice something for happiness" :/// i wish ian could learn to treasure himself and realize that staying with raymond how everything is right now is not happiness. hes miserable. he can't paint, he's been shunned out by everyone, he can't meet with his friends, and now nicholas is gone. staying with raymond will just make his life worse. the sacrifice he needs to make isnt painting but raymond. he needs to let go of raymond if he wants to be happy, no matter how much it hurts. if raymond loves him and it's meant to be, they'll meet again, this time not in darkness, but in light.
also im kinda disappointed in nicholas :// i get being envious and upset but saying hes jealous of ian's past is so gross and dismissive of the trauma ian's been through. it romanticizes everything ian went through because "oh, well at least you're a good painter now!" but ian hasn't even come to terms with his past and its just so weird to say something like that. i hope nicholas will apologize because i really like him and hes like... the only person ian can really rely on right now. god. this is making me so upset because ian really has no one to rely on now. hes alone again
what i want: jooin realizes his self worth and cuts yawhi out of his life; jooin takes some time to be alone so he can appreciate himself some more, during this time, he and cain get closer; cain explains himself and its not creepy (i think if they knew each other in a past life but only cain remembers could be cool, or maybe cain spent some time in korea when he was younger and met jooin? idk, just something not creepy,,,); eventually they start dating and its a cute, healthy, wholesome relationship (would also be content if jooin ended up with neither tbh and the story was about jooin realizing his self worth but this is a romance and cain is better than a rapist so)
i know this is unlikely to happen though cuz the story rn is really falling into cliche tropes and im slowly losing hope for it... what will probably happen is the author makes cain be really, really creepy and he'll put jooin in danger so yahwi can swoop in and save him. that way yahwi will seem like a good guy despite him being really shitty and toxic and then the story will seem like a happy ending even though jooin's in a bad relationship...









he better drop him. like now. next chapter i want yahwi out, hes so disrespectful and doesnt care about jooin seriously. theres really no redeeming him honestly
SOMEONE SAID CAIN DID THE RUMOUR BUT LIKE I WAS SO FUCKING CONFUSED??? WHY WAS YAWHI SO RUDE AND NOT PROTECTIVE WHEN JOOIN WAS GETTING BULLIED???
ugh i really hope that isnt true bc i like cain :// honestly theres no other explanation for yawhi's actions other than he just doesnt care about jooin that much :/ and thats exactly why i want jooin to drop him, hes not worth the pain for a possible redemption