
Very sad for Haru, but to me that was a trauma response from the ML. Like he just recently found out his phone was hacked for how long so the fear of being monitored is still very fresh. Understandabley he'd freak out if Haru knew something he never told him
I do appreciate that his immediate response to realizing he fucked up is to go apologize. Hate when characters just leave the misunderstanding as it is.

He’s clearly traumatised. All the hate he got was undeserved. You can’t change how you respond to trauma. When I get triggered and my ptsd flares up, I’ve gotten violent before and didn’t even know cause I thought I was still in danger. The important thing is to inform those around you and apologise for it if it happens and he’s doing that so he’s literally doing all that he can to do better. And like you said, it’s so refreshing to see a character actually immediately fix a misunderstanding instead of letting it fester!

If they were just gonna kill him off why even make him gay bro like now my hopes are crushed
Like it's a good story but that killed it for me I'm sad

Yes to the the sacrifice part, no to everything else. You're reading too much into it. I said it cause it's disappointing that he died since there was so much build up to him having happiness in the end. I wanted him to have happiness.
I said it more like, why get my hopes up that he'd be happy, and him him being gay or not wouldn't have changed the story much anyway.
My one critique of this ONE story isn't how I see ALL gay people and gay people in media I'm just disappointed in his death, simply that

The translations are a bit off sometimes but I think I understand it.
ML being shaken up is kinda understandable because he's a character that feels deeply despite how he looks (he was described with "passionate" eyes in ch 1). So he's still gonna think about the memories he cherished
Despite that, I don't think he'll ever take his shitty ex back. Instead, I think him sharing was more of a flirtation tactic, to get the MC to be more pro-active in being in a relationship with him
I interpret "if I'm shaken, catch me" as saying "I want you to pursue me like i'm pursuing you"
Why do I keep reading this even though I hate this man's guts