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I love how ordinary it is. It might be plain and vanilla, but I prefer this over the angsty, psychological, and full of drama yaoi (they are way too unrealistic). ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~

I feel like I’m dying. I want River to end up with Khaol but Khaol doesn’t deserve him. I don’t want River to end up with Heil, but Heil’s a much better choice than Khaol. My heart feels so uncomfortable. (￣∇￣")

This shit was cringey, but it strangely made me all jittery.

To the readers, it’s a toxic relationship, but to the two in the relationship, it’s not because they’re both weird in the head. As long as they’re happy. (✿´‿`)

To the readers, it’s a toxic relationship, but to two in the relationship, it’s not because they both weird in the head. As long as they’re happy. (✿´‿`)

I have never seen a guy as cynical as the seme. I kind of want to hit him. ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ

I tolerate many rapist seme because most of the time the rape victim uke were made to end up with them. Even if I don’t like it, what can I do? Who made the author write up such a ridiculous plot? Who normalized rape? But for once, I don’t need to have tolerance. The black-haired rapist can rot. It’s annoying how many yaoi normalize rape and put the rapist and the rape victim in a relationship. And as a reader I got used to it and normalize it as well (in fiction only, I do not normalize rape in the real world). (╬￣皿￣)凸

What a wishy-washy uke. I know it’s the cat’s fault, but nevertheless he raped the seme then play the victim. He’s the ultimate coward. The uke’s negative, depressed, shy, and reserved personality was so annoying. It’s ridiculous. I feel like the seme was the one who did all the work. The uke denies the truth and the plot only move forward because the seme continuously confront the uke. The only reason I kept reading was the seme. It takes a lot of patience to deal with someone like the uke.

P.S. don’t come for me saying that if I don’t like it, just leave. It’s just a review. ╮(￣▽￣)╭

Rule #1 that I live by: do not get into a relationship if you’re emotionally unavailable.

I was in the same exact situation as the uke. I was afraid of giving others my heart and the uncertain future. My mind constantly dwells on the worst-case scenario. Just like how the uke sleep around out of loneliness, I started dating a guy. Like the seme, he’s a sweet and gentle person. He’s too good, so good that I feel unworthy of him because I know I didn’t love him. I like him, but it wasn’t love. It wasn’t fair to him because he sincerely loved me. He probably realize it too and broke up with me. It’s been 4 years since and I never date again. Perhaps I subconsciously glorify his existence because I felt guilty, but I truly couldn’t find someone better than him. But even if I do find such a person, I wouldn’t start anything unless I sort out my inner demons. Hurting someone once is already enough. I would be a scum to put a second person in the same situation as my ex.

That’s why I don’t pity the uke because he hurt three people. He hurt the seme, his ex-sex partner, and his ex-wife. Why get into a relationship with the seme when you have no intention of trying to work things out? It’s okay to make a mistake, but it’s no longer okay once you made the same mistake over and over. Love, if done right, is a beautiful thing. Even if you don’t want it, there’s no need to trample over others’ sincerity. But that’s what the uke did. He trample over others’ love while sabotaging himself then turn around and say shit like “Whenever I wanted something badly, things never turned out well.”

People will probably tell me that I am getting too worked up over this or I need to chill because it’s just fiction. I know it’s fiction, but the uke’s behavior just triggers me. It’s like seeing a mirror of myself. I want to smack him, but I can’t so I’m here ranting instead.

OMG, the seme is so handsome and sweet! (ꈍꈊꈍ) (˃ᗜ˂๑) (≧ᗜ≦✿)

The uke is inconsiderate and a homophobe. How did the seme find him cute and even fell for him? But he’s a redeemable person because he later apologize for his homophobic behavior.

What I love about the seme is that he isn’t delusional. He had been hopeful that the uke would fall for him, but eventually wake up. He’s not a push-over. Every time the uke is being inconsiderate, he doesn’t put up with it. I love how despite the feelings he has for the uke, when the seme choose to let go, he didn’t go back on it. He isn’t one of those indecisive and hypocritical seme who say they would let go, but continue to bother the uke. They only got together because the uke reach out to him.