those twins are goofy as fuck for the lame, one-person apology they tried to give him. what excuse could possible make up for raping, lying, and using him this entire time. mc was having sex with another STRANGER the whole “relationship” and completely clueless to their switches… it must’ve felt extremely violating for him! this reaction from the loss of autonomy and also the betrayal makes perfect sense. id react like this and even worse if i were him
they literally took turns raping him and using him as an object for sexual gratification this entire time. not knowing who you’re having sex with, and the already dubious beginning, puts a sour taste in my mouth. this naive guy had his first time with these absolute losers and i hope next season is a complete, dominating switch in power and dynamics. i really dislike pairings of an mc being a pure victim and being naturally childish/innocent, and then completely screwed over by a sex addicted toxic hyper-masculine frat fucker. the undertones feel so pedophilic (born yesterday syndrome)
i only wish i didn’t see spoilers when this was in the early chapters because it makes the translated reveal less impactful
this is the type of toxicity i can’t stand in romance. where one person has all the power, resources, and LOVE from the mc already but they’re too psychotic and braindead to do something productive with all that. conscious, ongoing torment for fucking what?? he’s always going out of everyone’s way to make his “lover’s” life more difficult and painful than necessary like someone needs to a stab him a few times and get him begging and crying just for mc’s eyes to look at him.
and yes im still reading as soon as a chapter gets posted igdaf
the explicit intimacy between our two mc’s being hidden from our eyes and only showing the aftermath of the chase can represent their affection towards each other now. they are nothing but means to an end, a chase for a high. their connection with sex is ugly, distant, and cruel. it’s not even an act of genuine sexual gratification but them trying to feel alive and human, and seeking pleasure from the power taken or given. sex is far beyond the orgasm for them, it’s something that offers a social and mental benefit. they’ve lost themselves and haven’t been able to recover
and then the parallels of their self-mutilation and how they cope with life… the dreariness of it all as we see the lack of human connection despite the near-death fist fights, the sex, the meetings, and their day to day interactions. it’s all so dull and sad, their desperation drove them to a bloody life still colored in grey









mc should’ve left a long time ago from how he’s been treated. he was made fun of all the time, used as a dildo, and constantly disregarded despite how “needed” he was. ml was wayyy to spoiled this entire season i need to see him humbled and pathetic. im excited to see how this horny heathen begs and apologizes, his heartbroken face will heal me