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When I first read this (idk why i didnt mark it as already read), I was confused because Naruse was obviously gay. But rereading it cleared my head regarding the denial of the label, not exactly the sexuality. What I mean is, if being labelled gay meant being stigmatized, then Naruse didn't want that. He envied what society deemed as normal, but his attempts to experience that with his homosexuality reveals the harsh reality that society reserved normalcy for heterosexuals.

i even have that page where Kei held his hand through the crowd on my gallery. It struck to me how happy homosexual relationships could be if no one judged their happiness. And to see Kei breakdown from suppressing his emptiness reveals that normalcy in love. He found it in Naruse, not because of pity, but because just like Naruse, he wished to be loved, to have an actual place in someone's life instead of being a temporary relief.

lol, im being emotional, but yeah. Like, in the end it's about your relationship with another PERSON. I'm not invalidating sexualities because everyone cannot be pan nor sexual nor romantic. Just stating that normalcy shouldn't be reserved for heterosexuals.

Seungho shouldve been in jail, not pardoned. Dowoon shouldve been separated from Mungyon after the hospital talk. and the manager only showed intrigue, like he saw Seungho as this weird as guy who show interesting personalities towards others. The photographer's sister was a potential witness instead of Seungho, but forced redemption arc i guess. the perspective or side story for seungho was basically rewriting the three characters and ignoring the fact that Seungho committed crimes and Dowoon is an accessory to those crimes, why would the main leads be around them. that's like... so forced given that Chamin is overly protective too.

for a story that started with a ridiculous premise, the lead characters are well-written.

may sound defensive, but this is just to explain the context for those who might hesitate coz of "pedophilia" or age concerns.

1. 12 years is big and I like the characterization of both the adult and the minor. It's not overly idealistic regarding perfect gentlemen or maturity nor is it toxic. Ryou has brains, not impulsive nor horny. Sei controls his urges.

2.Sei does desire Ryou but doesnt act on it until that peck on the cheeks. The only mistake I know he did was take advantage of Ryou's family affections to continue doing so. Next was surprising Ryou with the adult kiss.

3. but the FOLLOW UP. he only ever gave him a kiss, he didnt push him down. he confessed and he left Ryou to decide to leave. no force, no manipulation. it was just confession and space. And when Ryou stayed, he tests the waters but doesn't push, he lets Ryou does as he promised to cook for him.

4. We know Ryou thought about it. He processed the possibility of their relationship, the disadvantage of being younger and what it might look like. same with Sei after the confession.

5. The waiting.

6. The ironically screwed up steps again HAHAHA coz they literally waited until theyve stepped up their relationship before thinking about Ryou's mom. Im not so sure what would happen, but with an ending like this where Sei considers Ryou's capabilities and future... the mom just might agree. maybe.

(also, nah. grooming is a repetitive and behavioral manipulation which brainwashes the victim into dependency and vulnerability. and pedophilia is literally liking someone way younger than you BECAUSE they are younger than you. it's fetishizing younger people and feeling indifferent if and when they're not so young anymore.)

First, I thank the translators for their fact checks. Second, my issues of not liking the overall cohesion of this is the execution. I understand creative liberty, which is why Im criticizing that liberty in this PERSONAL review.

1. I stayed because of the internal conflict within the System. THAT was the intriguing part because the alters were well written and justified in terms of why they were WHO they were (except the integration because that was hella romanticized because of the sweeping, quick-paced "acceptance" —my basis being from DissiocaDID on YouTube, an actual system who educates about DID)

3. Yuuma... he has ears for decoration and convenient characterization

First off, their relationship is adorable and wholesome. Ten years into the relationship and they retain their intimacy and closeness, I like that the maturity of their relationship also shows. Like, ten years relationship as a premise is not just a number used by the author. There is an actual manifestation in their relationship, ie. support system, understanding, and the depth of their emotions when they separated for a while.

Albeit watered down and quick paced, I like the emphasis of societal attempts of inclusion and the cruel reality of conservative thinking. Even when same sex partners are given an opportunity to be acknowledged, the extra steps and obvious "othering" make it difficult for them to be actually acknowledged.

Yuu still had to hide his sexuality to keep his job. Keigo is still unable to confess to his family. Both of them struggled to even live together.

I wouldve wanted to know more about Yuu and his family's "reunion". I think that the last chapter was drawn quickly for a seemingly happy ending. Im sure a few more volumes to address Yuu's family, job, and their official partnership could make this story even more satisfying.

there's so many wrong about that obsessed friend. and Kuro just lets him off and has the audacity to excuse him against someone whom he's hurt. like?? no, he caused misunderstandings and hurt the person u say u like. and when he threw the cat, you still excused his actions. anyway, that's just my rant against the "he's a good guy BUT". he was never a good guy tho??

Guy has guts and that confession scene was well drawn, like in terms of the atmosphere it created. The whole earring rejection was so dramatic that I can't help laughing.

Also, when Jihwan returned the confession, I'm like... my ears are ready to receive and carry the burden of a million studs. but at the same time, i just end up fantasizing how a million earring meant even if he changed earrings every hour every day, they'd be together and loving each more each day HAHAHA. LMAO, why is this story trigging a nasty anf cheesy romantic inside of me.

Im just amused and also entertained with the dynamic plot. The three main characters: Hyuk, Binu, and Daewon had daddy issues but in different ways. It's also commendable that they're not being compared to each other like some depression olympics. Hyuk deals with his father's expectations and his dream. Binu struggles to deal with the disappointment and consequences of father's actions which he had to bear alone. Then there's Daewon with his abusive father. Like they all run away from it. They're like a spectrum of healthy to toxic coping mechanisms.

Hyuk thrives in his dream. He doesn't stop writing (which I really admire because I had the same dream except I'm failing at it... guess my motivation is too weak). And his confrontation with his father occured when he published his book. Like, yeah, I worked hard and I did it. That's a really healthy coping mechanism if u ask me.

Binu tries to handle the consequences while also releasing the stress. He became a delinquent like that. In a sense, it's in the boundary of youthful anger catharsis. And the moment he tore the cover off of his father's poster, it meant that he was done hiding his love for his dad.

But Daewon represents that "too far gone" in the peak of his character. He didnt have anything to lose.But I like how the author gives him a shadow of humanity during the ECG cutting conflict. Both Hyuk and Binu knew that as much as Daewon could possibly do it, he wouldn't. And yeah, he wasn't given a wishy washy redemption arc. In his Daewon way, he dragged his father to the ground instead. Hence, just like how Hyuk and Binu confronted their daddy issues, Daewon did as well.


anyway, I'm not even disappointed that it wasn't BL because I earned much more than that. The plot was thick and Im happy that the author satisfyingly unpacked the main dishes. Coz I feel like the actual BL is a possibility now that Hyuk and Binu unpacked their baggages HAHAHAHA

Yes, there is rape. It is not justifiable, but it is purposeful.

First, the theme is possessiveness. The two characters with opposite personalities are mutually desiring each other. However, while Tsugi embraces the psychological snap of obsessive possessiveness, Kiyou desperately denies his own.

Second, their twisted characterization manifests during the rape. Kiyou is swayed, desperate, and guilty. He is conflicted with his desire, fear, and guilt as he experience Tsugi's attempts to possess him. It is verified when he voluntarily approaches Tsugi and concede. He wanted Tsugi just as much which is why he feels guilty for always hurting Tsugi. I also think victim blaming is debateable here.

Third, it's isolated meaning the plot is catered only for these two people. Kiyou hated how he reacts when Tsugi desires him and his jealousy manifests even after it. He doesn't hate the sex nor Tsugi, he hates the fact that he just might admit his feelings.

These three reasons make the rape readable. Remove it and the story loses its twisted mood, it'll change the whole vibe and characterization. So, yeah. take a hike if you can't handle/process it because it isn't meant for you.