
i have seen a lot of bdsm story but my least favorite genre of it is "grooming" the uke into liking (or at least endure) bdsm. and a lot of the session happen without uke's consent. and bdsm without the other person' consent is just abuse.
unfortunately i like the way the author write this story. the pacing is great, the plot seems okay, and also the development is good. it's really scary to see this type of "violence" bcs usually yaoi authors made the seme just downright asshole, abusive, toxic, it's so easy to hate them but this one? this is one of the cruelest seme i've seen but in some chapter i caught myself thinking "i think he's not that bad". that's kinda scary to me.

here i am thought their first time is gonna be a drunken sex, where they are on a hide out after a mission. the sex was passionate bcs they both are pent up and have sexual tension for awhile but nope, it's a 180 from that. i genuinely don't know how zhenya is gonna have any redemption arc after this. he's on my hit list now. new record for the most darkest red flag seme. fuck him

nah why is everyone just now got the ick gun called his hyung "older brother"? it is always implied that they are step brothers (not related) and ofc they are gonna fuck.
anyway im here for the ride and uncensored lightsaber. also some action while we are at it. im still a little bit so so about the story but let's just see if it gets better since the uke is kinda annoying to me
i've been wondering why there's no update on this comic for so long. i was fearing the most and thought it got discontinued. tysm for uploading, i need this to continue with life. one of zariya's best work, for sure.