
I think I might have the same condition as Jihyun. Since I was a kid, I get horny to simple pictures of naked women. Until I turned 7 to 11, I got obsessed with porn videos. I also had to use my dolls. I know, it's disgusting. There was also this one time when my playmate's older brother who was drunk, placed me on his lap and grinded beneath the fabrics. I was just a small child. I didn't know how to cope with it. It made me even more sensitive down there. So maybe at some point, it felt good. I never knew that it was bad because no one told me. It grew worse to the point I can no longer be satisfied with the pornos I usually watch. It drove me crazy. It felt like I am losing my head if I don't relieve myself and every morning was not an exception. I just had to. It was harder to talk to people now because I think I am disgusting. I feel like I am always possessed by demons. It was so hard to look at my self in a mirror because all I see are the nights I spent wasting half of my dignity and soul. I can no longer differentiate who I really am to the me who cannot supress my intense sexual urges. Everyday is getting worse and I need to seek help. I wish my parents were there when J was young to teach me about sex education because I never received any.

https://iweb12.mangapicgallery.com/r/newpiclink/dear_benjamin/39/6f43a2a913e3f1621532f1057cf2e44c.jpeg
no, but why can't you still see you're the spitting image of Benjamin. wtf man.
I think I will never be able to handle the secondhand embarassment when Cinian soon finds out it was just a misunderstanding LOL