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like damn... but also PERFECT conclusion to season 1! One of the themes throughout this whole season has been Hayden being/feeling like a passive party (ie. a member of the audience and watching from the sidelines, being “manipulated" by Brett in the relationship and pulled around) but in diving in front of Brett and saving his life, that’s like the most “main character”/“active” thing someone can do! the clearest example of Hayden showing his agency and making a "choice"

It’s also the perfect callback to when Hayden invited Brett to watch that play with him and Hayden’s explained that he admired self-sacrifice, nobility, rising above one’s selfish instincts, etc. Saving Brett’s life exemplifies all of those traits that he believes in! Brett made fun of all of that before when watching the play and found all of it unrealistic, so I wonder what his thoughts are going to be like now eeeee

(There’s also the thorny situation - how much of Hayden saving Brett will be bc of his own agency, and how much of it is bc he bonded with Brett ie. his bodily instincts…there’s that whole thematic element of animal instinct vs. rising above your instincts, etc. but is it really an either/or situation? hmm)

ANYWAYS LOVE LOVE give me season 2 already UGHHH

story is so well thought out i love the way scenes transition (ie. bullied boy rushing off and then we see him in the foreground in that scene w/ scott) it seriously feels like a movie - i wonder if the author studied screenplay?

also yeaa we're reminded again that even though brett is a nice guy fundamentally there are still going to be times where he exhibits entitlement bc of his privilege growing up/how he was raised - can hayden change him? i think that battle when hayden starts being more assertive in the relationship + class differences will cause more friction in the second season

also a prestigious alum giving hayden advice on his love life is pretty funny fjdaslkf like get that connection hayden!!

author has been hinting at a side story on her twt it's probably coming later this month i'm so excited

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sex scenes from the raws are hot as hell excited for the rest to be translated

this was kind of confusing upon first read but i read it again recently and it just hit so good! both prickly, somewhat insane ppl getting it on >>>> i think i didn't catch it initially bc of how poised jinwoo seems and dresses but he really is the crazy, unstable artist stereotype in many ways - the constantly rejoinder where he's aware of what a hot mess he is so he asks "do you still like me (after seeing who I am)" to colton is a really nice thematic callback at the end. ofc it's the same for colton who has his own crazy complexes.
i know some ppl think the ending seems rushed but in some ways it makes sense to me that jinwoo had this massive meltdown over a misunderstanding that was then easily resolved..jinwoo didn't even care necessarily whether his art would be displayed or not, just whether or not his feelings were toyed with. bc his whole complex is his insecurity re whether he can be loved for who he is and not just for his art, so hearing from colton that colton cared about HIM more than his art made the status of his art irrelevant? he wants to be loved so bad omg
anyways big fan of this! i think it's rare to read a story where both characters are kind of lowkey emotionally and restrained - feels really like you're reading a story about adults and there's an interesting atmosphere. i think it's interesting that jinwoo is actually 6 years younger than colton - would love to see that dynamic play out! i would read anything about this pairing tbh..

these recent two chapters really reinforce how differently they're seeing the relationship. hayden angsting bc he accidentally bonded w/ brett which makes him feel even more out of control in the relationship/over his "body"/instincts (esp considering brett didn't bond with him in return, so it feels unequal). but in his interactions with brett he's restrained and even a bit cold (brett going like "wow this is the first time you're reaching out to me first!") meanwhile brett is enjoying himself - you can tell he's very fond of hayden and he goes out of his way to make it good for him but has no clue about how feel hayden feels towards him. it's going to be amazing when he finds out!!
anyways they're sooo fun and sexy and work with each other so well (Despite the massive communication issues haha). brett biting more off than he can chew never gets old..hayden cupping brett's head so that he doesn't bang the wall - very understated and sweet <33 hayden seems like he's more proactive about wanting to get to know brett more too.. (i know what happens next) but seriously love seeing their relationship grow.

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such an excellent chapter. Brett revealing his hand to Hayden in many ways and how strategic and calculating he is (love a smart pretty boy); people are quick to say that Brett is manipulative = bad. But I think that's a disservice to the story (which isn't about one character being "bad" one character being "good"). Brett has goals, he sets out to accomplish them. He's open about enjoying Hayden's company and wanting to be close to him, and HONEST to Hayden about how he goes out of his way to "earn" Hayden's company and to make HIMSELF seem desirable to Hayden. Brett wants to be "fair" and to provide value to Hayden in exchange. Yes, things are transactional to Brett, but it's also bc Brett can't conceive of being UNCONDITIONALLY desirable to Hayden (like he needs to give reasons to Hayden to want to spend time with him)

But instead of seeing Brett's efforts to spend time with him, Hayden feels manipulated and tries to establish his agency and control (ie. I CHOSE to be here, it wasn't just you; Brett: ??? ok???). It's because Hayden views "sincerity" and "feelings" as something that is uncontrolled and not strategic - like for him, you don't plan these things out; things happen spontaneously and impulsively. This is all tied again to how Hayden feels especially out of control over his sexuality whereas Brett seems to handle his own - and that of others - with ease. It definitely doesn't help that Hayden still ended up hiccuping (ie. his instincts are still out of his control, and within Brett's predictions/control).

I think both perspectives make sense! They're both such different ppl who are miscommunicating and missing each other's cues. Brett continues to feel like things fall predictably within his control; and Hayden feels entirely out of control at all times. Just great character writing I seriously adore this so much.

it was very good of hayden to establish safe words even though brett wanted to play it fast and loose as always so glad we're moving into the zone of healthy consensual non-consent! we can see here that brett maybe overestimates himself/plays it too risky bc of his thrill-seeking behavior so that having hayden to reign him back and be responsible is really valuable. anyways just have to appreciate the author giving us a naturally evolving kinky relationship that involves consent which is also seriously hot has hell.
brett manically laughing after the safeword worked vs him being sooo sweet with hayden in the morning love the contrast, he's honestly still such a wildcard in some ways.

this author/artist is soo good like that scary/horror atmosphere is amazing it feels like a movie - like we get a hint of brett's perspective re. how overwhelming and scarily dominating hayden's alpha phermones are (hence why most ppl can't take it at all). like hayden is legit a natural apex predator when he's not inhibited (thank god brett is a freak who isn't scared by it and is into it!!). also this chapter kind of reinforces how nonresponsive hayden is from brett's pov - brett is constantly following up and giving hayden his updates and even takes the initiative to rush to join hayden after the game. again brett is definitely very active in this relationship and hayden feels mostly passive, even though hayden perceives brett as having the upper hand.

(also can we talk about how cute and pretty brett looks with his hair down free yourself of the hair gel brett!!!!)

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