otakulys's manga / #yaoi(378)

Aww, his boyfriend is so sweet. Pretty rushed, but not too bad. I think Harada's play on it with her Henai couple was a little better, but still, it wasn't the worst thing I've seen.

Yep, that's... pretty fucked up. I like some of the themes, but it's mostly just rape-kink smut, so sadly none of that goes anywhere. Could be worse, though.

Aw, what a very sweet, sad little story. I wish a lot of elements had been longer and more fleshed out. The stalker part was way too rushed. The reveal had me excited, but then it was just over. I think the story would have benefited having a few volumes to really explore the struggle between the identity of Haru/Sakura, etc. But still, sweet story, and I love me some hurt/comfort, so five stars.

I read the comments and actually expected this to be way worse. It was too brief to really have an impact, though the ending was certainly cruel. It made me sad when his friend was so excited to hear from him and see him, when we know the true reason for all of it. Other than that, it was kind of rushed, and I skimmed the smut scene because I wasn't fond of the art, nor the type of sexual exchange. At any rate, it had potential to really offer a sucker punch at the end, but it's otherwise unremarkable.

Noooooo, update soon, please! I so rarely find manga that truly scratches that hurt/comfort itch. I crave this sort of thing. It's so dark and beautiful and messed up. It made me cry, but in just the right way. I'm not sure what to expect in the future, but I really hope that there's an update soon. I'm worried this has been abandoned completely, since it's been a while. There are so many things I love about this story. I wish there were more like it out there. At the same time, I wish that love triangles didn't have to end in someone "choosing." Why can't he be with both of them? They're all fucked up anyway. They're all so damaged, especially the ukes. You can't entirely blame them for doing stupid, selfish things, given the way they've been taught to survive. Anyway, I'm going to die if this isn't updated.

Wow, this art is GORGEOUS. I don't typically like doujinshi, for many reasons, but this is well-drawn and interesting. Not much story, but it works. I just wish we could have these two, drawn like this, in a longer story.

Very sad. Beautiful art, complicated human emotions. Reading the comments made me think I should skip this, but it ended up being painful in a satisfying way, rather than in a way that destroyed me. I actually preferred the complicated, messy story to the first story. I'm not a fan of incest, for one, but it was also just more typical and cliche than the second story. Didn't hate it, though. I haven't read the precursor manga, so I was sort of filling in the blanks as I went, but I appreciated the nature of the character unfurling, these people lashing out, hurting others so that they can feel your own hurt, etc. Definitely sad, and it leaves a little empty feeling in your gut, but... I've seen much worse. At least they're still trying. (Just from this, though, I wish Sato would dump Akira and find someone better. He's the only one who doesn't seem redeemable, but maybe he's featured in the first story?)

Read this in the full collection. It's kind of confusing, trying to follow the time line with all of these oneshots. I didn't know where to start.

Said this in the comments, but basically: I can actually relate to the uke, but in a less extreme sense. I don't do it anymore, but as a little girl, I used to set up situations in order to make myself feel unloved and unwanted. I'm not sure when it started, but I guess it was a form of masochism born from my need to cope with being ripped away from my loving mother and raised with mean children and crappy babysitters because my dad would rather my mom suffer than his daughter be happy and healthy. Basically, it's the sense that if someone supposedly loves or cares about you, some part of you has to prove it isn't true. It isn't that you actually like it. It's more of a compulsion. I don't know why I did it. Maybe to prove to myself that I was incapable of being loved. If someone claimed to care about me, I was much more likely to lash out at them or hurt them. Granted, I moved past that by high school, and I was never cruel to anyone but myself. I just understand where that comes from. I don't know, it's dumb, but this manga really got to me because of that. The uke doesn't want to be vulnerable, so he acts like a dick. He's testing this guy, but pretending it's because he doesn't care. That way he won't get hurt. But secretly, he wants the guy to keep passing the tests. Not-so-secretly by the end, hence the tears. It made me cry, too. I know a lot of people are hating on the character, but I think it's clear he's just a damaged person. Doesn't mean the seme should just tolerate the abuse, but I'd like to imagine a future with them working through all of this together. Maybe they can even be friends with the other kid? I like that it's open but it's still so sad. I wish there'd been more here. You don't see this kind of personality explored often. I wish it were easier to explain, that sheer contradiction of wanting to prove that no one can truly love you and desperately, DESPERATELY wishing that you're wrong.

Holy crap. I was not expecting to love this as much as I did! I want to keep reading about these two! I don't know if the cliffhanger with the ex is due to another volume coming or tied into the spin off with the ex, but I don't want this to be the end of their story. So freaking sweet and perfect! I thought it was going to be typical shoujo-esque silliness with no substance. It was so much more. I also really, really liked the stuff with his ex. I wish there were more stories with ex-boyfriend issues where the guy doesn't end up back with the abusive piece of crap or whatever. Seriously, though, I hope someone translates the spin off soon. And I hope we get more work from this author! So far, love her stuff!