guys what do i do??

hi i feel like a real chud. i cant go to school. ever since i was diagnosed with anorexia it took everything away from me. i dont even wanna leave the house anymore (｡ ︿ ｡) all i do is chud out and read gl and bl all day long in my bedroom. i’m depressed all the time and school is so draining, it’s like a toll. i just wanted somewhere to talk about this tbh and like…i don’t expect anyone to know how to respond or even want to respond. Also if you wanna be uhm friends or something we can bond over yaoi and stuff…but i just idk what to do how can i bring myself to go and not like die