That’s an odd sentence. Two things hat should never be used in the same sentence together. Anyways I liked both stories but the 2nd was my fav
….just what my battered spirit needed. Rare to find such sweetness that isn’t overly, disgustingly sweet. It’s like the difference between grocery store sheet cake frosting and a butter cream made with butter from grass fed cows and an expensive liqueur. Both are sweet but one leaves you looking forward to the next bite and the other you can’t bare to finish
....art almost ruin a future relationship. I had painted and chained a Barbie as an art project and my future boyfriend assumed I was gay (bc he’s a fucking idiot). It’s only bc he found out I slept with one of his friends on occasion that he found out I wasn’t gay.
so the dude never became your boyfriend la
No he became my bf. It’s actual a fucked up story. Originally he just wanted to sleep with me but bc I liked him (and bc I thought it would be a shitshow if we hooked up) I kept him as a friend. But I liked him so much. He was basically my teenage ideal. Long brown hair, high cheekbones, skinny, looked like he just left a 90’s Lallapalooza concert. Plus he had issues, don’t ask why I was into troubled guys. But eventually after a night of partying we hooked up and started going out. Although we broke up quickly because he was horrible. But a month later we went back out and this time it stuck. For the most part. We would break up every other night and be fine again the next day. Except we had a huge blowout right before I had to go to rehab. While I was in rehab I found out he’d gotten wasted and slept with a friend of mine so I left rehab to go punch him in the dick, but he’d had this revelation that he was actually going to lose me this time and that he loved me. I’m way to forgiving and hearing him say I love you, melted my heart. After that we were inseparable for two years. It’s was tumultuous and we became infamous for our spectacular fights but obsessive love. I ended up leaving him bc I screwed up my birth control and got knocked up. He just couldn’t settle his shit and I was so obsessed with our baby he felt jealous and insecure. As a result he was incredibly, breathtakingly mean to me and I didn’t want my baby to grow up seeing her mom treated like shit. Plus I was trying to be a good mom and not a train wreck and he hated that. After we broke up I heard the story of how he’d thought I was gay. Anyways how we got there is a much longer story and I think this is long enough. I’m just felt nostalgic for a min. I fucking loved that guy like I’d never loved any other guy. But it was a doomed relationship from the start.
Wow, that was a roller coaster, now i don't mean to pry since i did ask and you did tell but i hope ur doing fine now since you have a child and all. I'm sure ur a great mom and i wish you all the best. take care
It’s cool i did over share. I’m feeling reflective lately. Having my kid changed my life. I was an absolute mess before her and although everything that made me a mess was still there I suddenly had motivation to be better. It’s like previously I had no concrete goals and my life revolved around self destructive behavior. Even if I kicked one a new one would develop. But when I held my baby in my arms I fell into the deepest love I ever felt. I was fascinated by everything about her. I’d watch her for hours and my favorite thing to do was lay in bed nursing her with her little hand curled around my finger. Before her the only thing I looked forward to was getting wasted. After her I had no interest. I’m now a stay at home mom with a kid and two dogs . Ppl who haven’t seen me in years are dumbfounded. I don’t even drink anymore other then a rare half beer. I have to deal with the anxiety and other issues I used partying to mask but I’m working on it and my kid is happy. She’s awesome.
it's cool oversharing your information to a stranger while ur identity is hidden is waaayy better and plus its not something to be ashamed of or anything cause everyone goes through some sort of stuff, honestly ur doing well and i hope ur daughter grows up to be just as well. laying off the drinks may be better for ur health and it is ur choice to drink or not
.....named kaya I always fell Asif since that’s my daughter’s name. Although her spelling is Kaia. I didn’t wNt the spelling to be Kaya bc I’d seen a video game with that spelling. But I’d see a Native American name of kai so I seed an a to make kaia. Apparently it’s word in a lot of different languages. In different languages it means everything from water to ocean to earth, to elder little sister, to “a yew”’, skin, rock, tomorrow, a jam, good creation, to steal-to thieve, and so on. It’s an epically universal name but kind of uncommon in th US. But it does make for some uncomfortable reading when the seme is named kaya. (I’ve read two mangas with a kaya as a seme. No ukes yet.)
dicks with Darth Vader helmets on, yaoi manga had some fugly dicks
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/drugless_sex/uu/hs_v-1-chapter-4/pg-1/
That's a pickle not a dick. Fortunately most of the penises in this manga actually look like penis, but there are manga out there that have left me
traumatized from how hideous the cocks are
That keeps trying to sniff his ass. Animals are like that. Once my boyfriend was on top of me and my cat jumped up and laid down on top of him. My bf got mad bc I couldn’t concentrate after that. I had contracted the giggles and he had to finish with me giggling non stop
I have a pomeranian (Dog) and she always trys to get in between me and my partner cause she thinks we're fighting (So people with pets: lock the door before doing it!)
Except then they freak. I have dogs now bc my baby had allergy induced eczema. (Fortunately she can have dogs with hair like poodles.) Previously my cats would jump up the walls (all our interior walls didn’t go to the ceiling) and peer down at me. Or they’d scratch at the door. My standard poodle punch’s the door and cries. But animals are nothing compared to kids. Me and my bf broke up when my daughter was 7 months old but we’d still do it from time to time. One time he locked the bedroom door but not the bathroom door that had another entrance. The door buts open and my three year old yells “get off her”. It was horrifying and hilarious.
(Bc it’s super sexy I’ve read it several times) I’m a bit bothered by him rubbing his semen into Yuichi’s legs, bc that shit doesn’t soak in. Its not oil or lotion. It’s more like egg whites. It’s kind of like when you have dry skin and you put lotion on after a shower (and you didn’t exfoliate properly) and your dead skin kind of comes off in little balls. Once semen drys a bit it’s really sticky. If you rub it in it’s going to get sticky then dry and then it’ll be like rubbing your hands over dried school glue -it’s going to come of all gummy like. If it gets stuck in any leg hair it’s going to be hell to get off. It’s a hot scene except I’m imagining him rubbing dried jizz that’s pilling up under his hands. It makes me wonder how much experience this mangaka has with actual jizz on the body. There has to be a better way to do that scene. Except probably I’m one of the only ppl to get bothered by these small things. Saeko is one of the only mangaka’s I’m able to not get to bothered by the way she doesn’t provide much in the way of lube for her uke’s. Normally that throws me totally out of the story, but for some reason with Saeko’s work I’m able to not be distracted by it. Maybe it’s bc in the drawings it appears as though the uke has been liberally doused with lube. Idk, but while I’m able to not get tripped up by that I’m still bothered by other stupid shit. It’s a complete fantasy world yet I have these stupid moments when thoughts of how it would work in reality that fuck the fantasy up for me.
Also page 27 of chapter four. Kurosawa San’s dick looks like it’s got darth Vader’s helmet on.
You're as bad as I am! We both think too much! Fantasy is only good when you have never experienced the reality. Like, I've experienced unlubricated anal.... So not fun! So, when I see it in manga, I cringe in pain remembering the reality I experienced. It ruins the fantasy. As for dry jizz on the body, I admit that it doesn't make a good lotion, but it does do a great job as an exfoliant. It pulls off all the dead skin without harsh rubbing of a brush, stone or sponge. Since it does act like glue, it grabs all the dead skin it touches. If you rinse it rather than rub it, it still takes all the dead skin with it as it washes away. But as a lotion it's a no go. It stays sticky and attracts dirt, fuzz and all other manner of dust and hair - like pet hair if you have them. It's a gross feeling and requires a total and hot shower to get it all to rinse off. Ugh.
lol same (づ￣ ³￣)づ
Ikr, even lubricated anal can be tough sometimes. For some reason with my ex I suddenly couldn’t stand anal sex anymore. Like it beams extremely painful. We put like a whole bottle of lube in there and I still couldn’t take it. Made no sense. Not a fun memory but I’d once had a guy force it on me with no lube and it didn’t hurt like that. Eventually my body got back to normal but I always wondered why it started hurting so much out of nowhere. Maybe it was one of those things where mental trauma effects your body, idk. I read that unresolved trauma can lead to chronic pain and chronic health issues later in life. Anyways I sometimes think that reading manga like these will give virgins unrealistic ideas about sex of any kind. It’s not as easy as they make it look. Even vaginal sex wasn’t easy. Like I had sex with a few guys before my hymen actually broke. (I guess I had an exceptionally tough one.) Also sex wasn’t anything like what it was portrayed like in the stuff I’d read. Sex education in America is bullshit so I just wasn’t prepared for what sex was really like. My friends all said it felt great but I think it was just 14 year old bravado. Sex can be great but it’s mever made me drool all over the place(unless I was giving head
I think you're on to something in regards to past trauma and chronic pain. The human psyche is really so fragile. Screw it up and the body will follow.
I think we are all guilty of assuming that since sex is a real life act, it will be portrayed accurately in manga, novels and movies. Well, until we experience it for ourselves, anyway. That is when we realize how different fantasy and reality really are. Though not many, I have had a few painful experiences with sex. The best sex I've ever had was with my husband. Not because he is particularly good at it or well built for it, but because of the deep emotional bond we shared. I don't think you have to be in love to have sex, but it sure as hell makes it better. I have had sex that rendered me unconscious, but I have never drooled unless I was giving head.
Omg this! I can’t! Hahaha
When he rubbed his sperm on his legs it actually said "It's crusty" somewhere.
Anal sex could also hurt due to internal hemorrhoids; some people have them and don’t even realize it. But it could be the trauma, as well, as you were saying.
No it was deep inside plus I’d just had a dr look in my butt. For some reason going to the dr for heartburn ended up with a endoscopy and a rectal exam. Either the dr was a perv or he liked my good insurance. I’m thinking it’s the later. It was literally from drinking soda to much. I quit drinking it and started drinking herbal tea and seltzer and my heartburn was gone. Who know what it was, I mean I also got raped vaginally and could still deal with vaginal sex. But the bodies weird. Like I had a baby and she got stuck in my vaginal canal and now putting a tampon in is hard. Like there’s twists and turns in there that weren’t there before.
I’m so sorry that you’ve been violated and mistreated; wtf is wrong with people?? I just don’t even understand how one could do that to somebody else...I once was having sex with my ex-husband, and he had mono at the time, and he started feeling not right, so we stopped, and even in THAT situation with consent and all, I felt guilty as hell...how people can do it without consent just doesn’t compute!!
I’m relieved that you had benign test results! And yes, soda can fuck people up; I gave it up as a regular drink about 11 or 12 years ago, and I don’t miss it! It causes so many health issues to have steady streams of sugar going through one’s body every day. I’m glad that the herbal teas are treating you better!
I do not have children, but JEEZ O PEETS that sounds painful!! Man, I hope that the twists and turns don’t give you too much trouble!
....smells like_____. I gues it smellls like a combo of bleach & raw egg whites. For some reason the line from apocalypse now (I love the smell of napalm in the morning, smells like...victory)came to me except it became bukkake. But then I couldn’t finish it bc what could you really replace it with? I gues it could be “I love the smell of bukkake in the morning, smell like semen”; but that’s to specific and factual. That would be like the commander in the movie saying ....smells like fuel and shit that’s burning. So I’m still at a loss about how to finish that line and I just spent 5+ mins thinking about how to a parody a line from a classic Francis Ford Coppola movie. I need to go to bed.
Sonnova. Now that's a hard-ass contemplation -about semen smelling like what- you got there
Lol. So much thought indeed. Reminds me of the time back in high school with Salonpas. So when i go to competitions i'd always go "Ahh... smells like Salonpas, the smell of victory and pain" . Your comment just made me do a long ass reminiscing of my youth. I need to go to bed as well.
And it’s not what it actually smells like but what a weird Japanese version of facials smells like and instead of a actual description it’s maybe a metaphor. (I’m a mess grammar -and It’s probably a simile and not a metaphor.)So I’m looking for what it’s smells like and not what it smells “like” -as in the smell of success. Or when ppl say someone smells like money, they don’t actually smell actual dollars it’s more an idom (I think bc again I suck at grammar. And what the fuck does success smell like anyways. But I’m off topic. Anyways I gave up bc it was stupid and I needed to go to sleep.
That line from Apocalypse Now! Is one of the great lines to enter pop culture.