
i keep trying to start this but her depressing status in life drives me away. is this actually worth it? also if i dont want to start it from the beginning what should i do?

honestly it was definitely depressing but interesting! different from usual stories, and the ml's actions are horrible but the story depicts his quiet abuse and their toxic relationship so well.
SPOILER
the most recent chapter is finally the start og when he tries to win back mc and grovel. it's a long wait but i recommend!

Unfortunately next chapter is the last of the season apparently, so Id recommend you take a break for a bit till season 4 begins.
I really like this story because although the ml is an asshole through and through it's quite nuanced and realistic, no one is like a cartoonish evil person and it's well written from an emotional aspect.
these brothers are so selfish, its actually a talent