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MC has undoubtedly treated ML harshly and unfair when they were young. ML was forced to become a part of this ”big happy family” where there was greater opportunities of living a better life. While MC never wanted a brother or a new parent, ML has lost a brother and is secretly longing for that strong and unbreakable bond filled with a sense of security. MC knows that and uses it in his favor. He does warm up to ML a bit, but he’s still the child who only sees everything through his own perspective. He’s jealous of ML’s relationship with his family, to the point of being irritated at how ML doesn’t know how good he has it, while he (MC) continues to work hard because it’s his only option because he feel that he can only rely on himself in the end.

When ML finds out he’s an omega it’s like a punch in the face, like a death sentence or a label sent by life to show him that his life has been and always will be filled with a misery he can’t escape no matter how hard he works. Being an omega comes with a cap on the future due to how society works, like how instead of being seen as ”good at his job”, he’ll only ever be seen as ”good for an omega”. It puts limits to his future career and future overall. For the sake of the family, the company, and his future, the best decision is to marry ML. While ML adores him and loves him, he sees it as once again being forced to bend to someone else’s plan and adjust his life accordingly (like when he became a part of ML’s family). Although it is ”for the best”, given his situation, he can’t help but resent ML for it even though he’s done nothing wrong (again, like how he resents ML for living a good life ”free of struggle”).

When MC loses his memories, he has the chance to get to know ML as adults and knows that ML regards him as an equal and treat him as such. He doesn’t understand why of how he could’ve been unresponsive to ML’s feelings, especially since they’re so pure hearted. He feels that his past self was probably very unlikable and from what he learns it seems to be true. He begins falling in love with ML and opens up his heart, unlike in the past when we know they were more like roommates trying not to disturb each other than lovers. ML is still a pushover and weak to ML, while ML swears to himself to treat him better.

When he begin to uncover the truth about the accident and regain his memories, his fist instinct is to leave ML in the dark. At first he even suspects him, but after clearing some things up he realizes it can’t be true. Still, he treats ML as an outsider, with the excuse of protecting him by not dragging someone ”innocent” in, and in the end he continues to lean on himself only while also failing to realize that as long as it affects him, ML is dragged in and affected too because he loves him.

Now there’s a child in the picture. He loves the child and knows ML does too. He’s close to uncovering the truth and regaining all his memories, which indirectly means becoming more like his past self. While he knows ML want nothing more than to help him, he becomes scared of becoming like his past self. He doesn’t like that part of himself, how he treated ML, and is afraid that when he regains his memories ML will begin to like him less or even fall out of love with him. Fearing he’ll stay only because of the child or only continue to love him because if it.

He wants to stay as the person he thinks and feels he is, while also uncovering the truth, and that’s not possible at the same time. He knows the more he remembers, the more of his past self will become part of him, but most importantly he knows that ML knows it too. So he ends up fighting his inner self, while once again not relying on ML. Like I said before, his first instinct is always to deal with everything by himself. The person he remembers himself as is not someone who’s been nice to ML. ML remembers him in a nicer light, but he doesn’t want to become someone who treats him like that either. In the end, he ends up projecting his insecurities to ML which is both unfair and extremely hurtful. BUT they talk it out, becomes even closer to the point of being truly equals, and become a happy family. So it’s worth holding on to the end, even if it gets frustrating.

Start binge reading in the middle of the night. The sun is now up. Reads chapter 79. Goes to chapter 80. Oh! A placeholder? I didn’t know it wasn’t finished but actively updating right now isn’t that bad. Last updated 2023!?!? There’s a novel (I said with joy) , the novel is 500+ chapters (I was then stabbed 57 times)

Plz I need more wym it only updates once a month

Good story. Healthy couple (we love communication).

I feel like ML’s trauma was taken a bit to light though. It’s played if as ”just a misunderstanding” where to father did have good intentions and once it’s cleared up ML should get ready to embrace him in his heart. He said he didn’t forgive him, but because of how it was followed up his ”grudge” started to seem meaningless and he should just let it go for himself and for everyone else’s sake. His father said he would do it again, not regretting anything because he did what he thought was right and the only way he could think of. He did try his best and should not apologize for grieving his dead wife, or trying to make ML learn magic as he was studying as well in hope of curing him. ML was a danger to other and in danger because of his condition, I can’t even imagine how horrified his father must’ve felt when he too became affected.

By locking ML in a tower, separated from the world and other’s, he could manage his duties while monitoring ML. But the way the it was done was, even if it was the only way he could think of, was extremely traumatic for ML and for that he does owe him a heartfelt apology. He seems to be sorry of how he couldn’t respond to ML with love at the time although he did love him, but not for what he did because it was the only way he could think of. He’d do it again, to protect him, and that’s also part of the problem.

Ignoring the existence of betas who don’t feel pheromones and could’ve easily been hired as staff to cater MC and somewhat make his isolation a bit less lonely, the father literally sent his cousin to mate with him. Maybe cousins weren’t a taboo at the time among nobles, but it was literally his dead wife’s sisters son. The same sister he wanted ML to be raised by like family and naturally they developed a brotherly bond. Even if it was ”the best person” to choose, non of them consented and both of them were also against it. The father couldn’t even take a moment an explain the purpose of this to him? Because the mating doesn’t happen he sends countless others, knowing they have no choice because they’ll be affected by ML’s pheromones and ML won’t have a choice since he’s literally imprisoned with no rights what so ever.

I understand the MC felt disgusted, even with himself, to the point of wanting to end his life. But this didn’t matter at all to the father, who still doesn’t seem to understand the level of trauma he went through. He comes daily to inflict pain on ML, telling him to study so he won’t have to be hurt, but couldn’t have explained it was his way of trying to help his condition and not because he hated his guts? Still, the whole situation is minimized to that his father couldn’t be like a father to him due to the grief of losing his mother and, unknown to ML, he did his best to try to cure him - somehow it’s turned into the father suffering in silence. Now because he’s emotionally available he can just swoop in and make up for everything, playing the ”your child likes me and doesn’t want me gone” card so it would be cruel to his grandchild if he wasn’t allowed to see her. What he forced ML, a literal child, to go through was disgusting and cruel in many ways and that’a why he has trauma related to his father. He’s not avoiding eye contact just because he’s father looked at him in a way that scared him, but also because of the memories of how he lived and was treated those nearly 10 years.

I feel like this is heavily shown when they talk and ML dares meet his eyes. If it only was about the eye contact and associated fear, he would’ve felt much better. Meeting his eyes, realizing they weren’t as scary as he remembered, and that he’s now strong enough to face him. But he was still really tense and uncomfortable when the father showed up later, a conditioned trauma response. MC just wants everyone to get along and be a happy family, but he accepts the father more than ML does and that’s a problem because the issue is between the father and the son. So the father can get ”easier access” to ML through MC because ML would very likely have rejected his visit if he knew he’d come.

”In this era” feels like Ed Sheeran’s ”loving you till we’re seventy” lol

”For now all we can do is wait and watch” I get it but also like at least tell your brother off or make sum plan of earning his trust or betray him. I feel like he can do more than just sitting and waiting for ML to rescue him? I hope he does. The rescue might also seem like an offense that could result in political conflict or even war, deceive them or fight back plz

I’m not usually a fan of ML sweeping in and saving MC like a knight in shining armor (lol) when MC is doing his best to make things work but his living circumstances really are too poor. Is really remembering things earlier (while still being forced to take the sus medication), while being relentlessly abused by Lister when he just flips a switch and decides he wants to hurt him really for the best? As we know Lister isn’t ”crazy” (the way MC is) or sum, he just enjoys abusing him. While with ML he could be safe and sound and just focusing on recovering. Lister and his mom might crash out but that to me seems like a win on ML’s part.

Having MC being a former noble/important leading figure, now serving as a slave, I feel like it must’ve been MC’s decision or will in the first place, a calculated move for the sake of what they’re trying to achieve, to become both a slave and losing his memory. That ML probably opposed to it but, disregarding their feelings, it really was the best of not only way.

While MC might get some intel, he probably won’t even understand what it means, he regains his memories faster (still requiring taking them to lose his memory hoping he would come to his senses and stop) but how are they so sure he’ll even make it out alive? Lister’s mother seem to feel guilt about the slave thing, but turns a blind eye to most of the quite obvious abuse, while Lister just enjoys hurting him and establishing control through ”I’ll show you how easy it is for me to hurt you so when I’m not you should be greatful” manipulation. Some seem to think the mother truly has good intentions, while I do think she’s doing what she thinks is best I feel like if he had to choose between backing up MC or backing up Lister, she would always choose her son. That she knows he’s not a good person but thinks it’s not really his fault or that deep down he means well but has a hard time expressing it. Or is simply to dangerous to oppose him and she just wants to choose the safest most convenient way for herself. Either way, she’s clearly scared and opposed to MC regaining his memories and she and Lister were definitely involved in how he became a slave in a way they don’t want anyone to find out about.

The ML doesn’t know about the abuse, bc MC won’t tell him. But because he knows him I feel like he probably knows that logically ML should be treated poorly because of his status and if he was he wouldn’t tell him because that’s the type of person he is. They were lovers MC is so painfully clear someone who would bottle things up, doing everything he can before even thinking of asking for help. But maybe that was all part of the plan too, included in the calculations. He seems to have been a figure of authority, respected, smart, wanting to help people, and he and ML seem to have been the like the leaders of the group. MC seem to to have been just as strong of a character as MC, if not even more if he’s the one with the ideas and ML is his supporting knight, and now he’s truly the opposite and has been reduced the embodiment of weak, scared, and having mental breakdowns losing his mind. None of this is of course not his fault. While he probably will find his own strength in body and mind and piece everything together, it truly was a big price to pay. I truly feel that the only reason ML doesn’t just rescue him is because he’s unknowingly there willingly because I feel like ML treasures him too much to put him there like a chess piece if his own scheme.

Also, nothing will EVER make me like with Lister, or sympathize with him enough that I feel his actions are justified. To be frank, and graphic, I just feel like the intrigue between them is just ”will he r*pe him or not”. Just seeing him gives me anxiety. Somehow his twisted mind interpret MC’s inability to resist (because of the power he holds over him both physically and socially) as Mc not truly disliking him and that means there is a possibility that he deep down also likes him. Can MC please save himself from this horrible place and ML can save him from Lister, what would be nice.

I don’t know, I don’t want spoilers I just wanted to vent. The artstyle and the story is really good and interesting. I’m ranting because I care and I care because I like it.

ngl I was afraid MC would get some kind of amnesia from being hit in the head

Does anyone else who’ve read the novel feel more more hopeful about the manhwa because of the censoring? I honestly liked almost everything about the novel (characters, plot, worldbuiding, pacing etc) but how their first time was handled left me feeling quite… disgusted. It didn’t get much better afterwards but I lowered my expectations so I manage to finish it for the plot and the sake of being able to mark it as completed.

If you don’t know what I’m talking about (warning graphic) it’s about how ML basically wanted to bang MC and the people around him figured out how horrible it would be for MC because ML would probably go through with it violently and unprepared MC would get hurt and it would be traumatizing. So they taught both ML and MC how things world and gave ML the ”stuff that would make things easier”, only to still have him r*pe MC with no prep or control. I guess some might call it noncon that turned into consensual because in the end ”MC did enjoy some of it and if it’s the person he likes it’s okay” (which somehow extremely normalized). It ruined the story for me because it was so unnecessary as literaly everything else in the story could’ve still played out the same. With the manhwa not even showing the stuff they did one the ship I feel like this could be an overall good read.

I might be over sensitive but I’m also only so heavily disappointed because I truly liked the story so much.

Love the character design and the plot seems promising. Also let’s NORMALIZE SHOUNEN AI WHEN THE STORY IS ABOUT KIDS >>>