
Ch 5 really hit close to home. Only seeing others putting a slice of effort I put in the same thing and be so much popular. Yet I didn't even have my friends cheering me like I did for them and saw others did.
All these bottled emotion outburst as anger. Towards someone who had no connection with that anger and coupld probably be the nicest person.

The author’s note is really sus. But as a someone who has wrote before, there are many times where I have acted a disgusting persona to get the flow smooth.
It could be that when she was writing the rapists dialogue and action, she was excited cause she felt like that villain. And she also felt sad cause she also wrote Seno.
But that's just from my experience. I wouldn't deny there are many people who gets excited at rape and Bl authors have history of romanticising abuse most.
Ain't no way the author made birthing a pleasurable process