only two chapters in but i’m having so much trouble continuing. because what do you mean you have a crush on a guy who is literally beating the shit out of a transfer student??? and then you blame the transfer student? this mc is already pissing me off.
No the bully is not the ml but later the real ml bullies mc as well, assaults him breaks his arm and nearly suffocates him even making mc think of suicide yet mc goes back to him again quite quickly though it was for "survival"... tbh both mc and ml are freaks but the power imbalance makes obviously ml way worse. Art is pretty but the story is just glorified violence, to give an idea if you like Red mansion you will enjoy this but if you find the Red mansion dynamic disgusting you will hate this story too because theirs is basically the same but in school setting
the character art is so beautiful i’m mad it’s been used for this story and not something else. like, we won’t see characters that look like this from this artist ever again and it’s just such a waste how much this story pisses me off when the art is this good. like both leewon and caesar are two of the most gorgeously drawn characters i’ve ever seen, but then their characters continue to have zero development, to circle the same conversations, to flip from being domestic to domestically abusive. this chapter could have been a real conversation, but instead it’s stomach-turning rape. again. because the author has zero idea of how to actually develop a character past the initial starting point, how to progress a story, and stick to character traits without hyperbolizing them.
i swear the side stories haven’t made sense since the hunting game they played. it’s better to just look at than read it.
it’s confusing to me how we are 81 chapters into this story and i still find myself asking HOW leewon even likes caesar. it doesn’t make sense—and not in the “love makes you crazy” way. it just doesn’t seem written in any coherent way at this point. which i guess is because the author keeps writing scenes as if progress might possibly have been made only to then take it all back. it’s just disappointing. this chapter in particular is aggravating because of how little sense it makes when you look at the ways caesar has supposedly changed and the strength leewon supposedly has.
For clarity since the translations don’t specify, this scene was a test. The ML read off a book title that is written in the language that was used in Korea hundreds of years ago. Then the ML used that same language to ask the MC about the measurement of their height difference. The MC shouldn’t know these words or how to read them if he were just a regular student and the fact that he does understand the language and also couldn’t say how old a high school student would be completely gave away that he is much older than he’s pretending to be.
seeing this story get so many negative reviews specifically because of the bdsm aspect when it’s leagues better in art, themes, emotion, and characters than so many other weakly plotted stories people laud on here is frustrating. yes, the bdsm is unhealthy. it’s fiction. it’s an unhealthy fictional relationship. that is the glaring point the original author is trying to make. move on.
OK, so I just finished catching up with the English translations for the novel. Hands-down, this is my favorite Korean novel I’ve ever read. For those asking about the ages, the MC is “about 200 years” old in a body that’s physically 18. The ML is 26 officially, but could be a few years younger (he doesn’t know his exact age). Both the main character and the male lead are characters that were clearly made with love—neither of them are typical for the genre and they both are strong with softness at their core and a tragic backstory wrapped in mystery. Buckle up. This one is going to be good.
I haven’t finished the whole novel yet. There are 300 something chapters and I’m only on 183 (and I’m translating on my own now since the Eng. translations aren’t as far). So I can only answer with the knowledge I currently have.
The man from the past in his flashbacks is his teacher and mentor. He’s the one who’s cursed the MC with immortality.
The ML falls for the MC while getting close to the MC to convince him to join him in his cause… he doesn’t realize it’s love for awhile, but he falls first and he falls hard. I’d say he’s a green flag in that he treats the MC well despite manipulating him for his purposes early on, but he does have… interesting thoughts sometimes lmfao. He’s a little twisted internally but he’s sweet with the MC. There’s no second ML so far.
I don’t know yet!








The world does not need another boring asshole ML x shy MC who’s crushing. We need monster fucking.