
I like A'bai, but I think he's deeply wrong in the way he treated Zi Xi after he told about his illness. He got angry, to the point he ignored his friend for days, and made Zi Xi feel the need to seek him out and apologise when he literally didn't do anything wrong?! Yes, Zi Xi didn't tell A'bai about his problem... but tbh he was under no obligation to do so. They are friends alright, but that doesn't mean A'bai is entitled to every little piece of personal information about Zi Xi - he can choose what (and to whom) he tells about himself; and if he decides there are certain details he isn't comfortable sharing, it's no one's right to get mad since it's his own life. A'bai was in the wrong here, and I feel kinda bad that it was Zi Xi the one who had to apologise (and share all information as a way to appease his friend).

I can totally understand him feeling hurt (the feeling of betrayal could be akin to finding out you're not the best friend of your own best friend), and I can even understand him getting angry AT THE MOMENT since, heck, we can't always control our feelings. But what got me really disappointed in A'bai is how he maintained his bad attitude, ignoring Zi Xi and making him feel like he had done this terrible awful thing. It was on A'bai to seek his friend, apologize for the outburst and then explain why he felt so hurt to begin with - ya know, like the adult he is. Instead, Zi Xi ends up doing the emotional labor, and he doesn't even hear an apology at all. I just felt A'bai acted like a spoiled 11 years old - which is not really a trait I'd look for on friends.

IKR!? Also, they haven't been friends for that long... I mean, I'd get A'bai if he had found out that someone whom he's been besties with for years didn't trust him enough and hid his condition from him, but come on!
Good thing A'bai actually realized he was overreacting but it's a shame he still wasn't the one looking for Zi Xi to apologize :/

I used to love this manga, and it taught me amazing things about hearing disabilities and their struggles. But now it's just... tiring? It's the same misunderstanting over and over again, and they've had so many opportunities to clear that up but instead it's dragged (and worsened) every chapter. I wouldn't be as tired if this manga was one with weekly updates*, for instance, because that would mean this plotline would change fairly quickly. Instead, we are given a chapter or so every three months, and that chapter is always to add angst in the plot, so we've been stuck FOR YEARS watching an ambiguous and painful relationship between two people who do not work to stay together. I just hope the plotline changes soon to something brighter - or at least new.
*this is by no means a critic to the scanlation group working on this, they are amazing and I am glad they do such a difficult work for us all without being given nothing (but gratitude) in return.

I agree, it's a really frustrating cycle for what is otherwise a great story with great characters you don't often see represented in manga. It's harder and harder to picture resolution anytime soon, or even any meaningful plot development other than a lack of communication between two people who like each other.

This manga is so weirdly heavy (and I don't mean it as an offence).
I catch myself really feeling the characters' pain and deteriorated mental health - how the uke is traumatized by all the violence he suffered, and how that same violence has been shaping the perpetrators' behaviours: the stalker's inability to get over the uke's refusal, the seme's obsession and constant need to compensate for his past abuse, the father who can't accept his son and at the same time seems to feel regretful for his own actions.
When I started reading this, I did expect an apologist story of rape, and I was fine with it (yeah, cut me some slack). What I did not expect was this level of........ realness. Very nice manga (but also unsettling).
They low-key remind me of Kaburagi and Onoe - not only their looks, but their personalities totally fit Onoe and Kaburagi's too. So kyuteee (≧∀≦)
exactly!! that's why i have loved them from day one aaaaaa