So I'm legit crying. Like I can't stop my tears. I translated the chapter via google translate, so it's a bit effy, but here goes:
So we get a flashback to when Hyesung was a little kid. His mum is being abused by his dad (he's probably forcing her to sleep with him and he is mistreating her). Hyesung hears his mum being abused from behind the door and he is trembling in fear. Afterwords his mum is sleeping in her bed. Hyesung comes to her side with a puzzle box and says: "mum, mum. Let's do this together." She tells him: "mum is tired right now." So Hyesung says: "But Hyesung is bored and wants to play together with mum." So she turns to him and tells him: "Do you want to go play/go outside together with mum?" Hyesung cheers up and says "Yes! Yes!". So basically they head over to a toy store and his mum buys him the big rabbit stuffed doll that he always sleeps with * I basically start tearing up here *. So they get back home and Hyesung's mum tucks Hyesung in his bed with his new toy and she tells him: "Hyesung, mum s going out for a little while and will be back right away. In the meantime, play with your new friend (the stuffed rabbit I guess). Mum will be right back, okay?" Hyesung nods and goes to sleep. However, his mother packs her stuff and leaves. Hyesung keeps thinking: "Mum, come back quickly."
Back to adult preggo Hyesung. He wakes up crying. Apparently the flashback was a dream. * And here i am, my face is a mess from crying my eyes out :'( * So he sits up straight and wipes his tears, thinking: "I fell asleep again". He then strokes his baby bump (which became pretty big) and thinks: "These days I'm dreaming about my mum a lot".
He goes immediately back to his cheerful self, throws off his clothes and says: "I'm sweaty. I'll take a bath!" He heads over to the bathroom and gets into the bathtub (which is hugeeee and has a TV!). He's shouting something at the TV (I'm not sure what it is lol.. google translate came up with something like "the kid is home" and Hyesung was screaming "Hey Alpha!"). Cuts over to Dojin who is practicing how to change a baby's diaper on a baby doll *lol too cute*. Dojin hears Hyesung shouting and runs over to him and asks him "What happened!" Hyesung then tells Dojin: "Scrub my back." Dojin is taken aback (probably because Hyesung is actually asking for his help with sth). When he doesn't move, Hyesung asks: "What are you doing? I can't do it myself." Dojin then answers: "Ah, yes." He then kneels down, takes the sponge, and starts scrubbing Hyesung's back. As Dojin is scrubbing his back, Hyesung says: "Oh please rub it there." Dojin is starting to sweat and he is blushing. He asks him: " here?" And Hyesung answers:" Yes. My shoulder side." Dojin starts rubbing Hyesung's shoulder with his hand. Then Dojin says: "is your body comfortable.." (Not sure about the translation here, it didn't make much sense). Hyesung replies yes. Then as Dojin keeps on rubbing Hyesung's shoulders, Hyesung starts moaning "Ah, Ah yes". Dojin blushes even harder. Hyesung them moans: "It's good." Here basically Dojin loses it, grabs Hyesung, turns his face around and starts kissing him. They then start deeply kissing and Dojin grabs Hyesung's breast and squeezes it. Then after they kiss, Hyesung starts calling Dojin's name: "Park Dojin...Park Dojin.." And then he snaps out of his fantasy with Hyesung shouts: "Park Dojin!" (Yup, the kissing scene did not happen. Dojin was so horny he fantasized the whole thing.) Hyesung then tells Dojin: "what are you doing? Where's your mind at. It's been a while. Now go!" Dojin stands up straight, says okay and basically runs out of the bathroom and into his room. He has a hard on. He starts jerking off while thinking about Hyesung's naked body and the previous times they had sex. While jerking off he thinks about Hyesung: "small body. I want that little body... to the deepest part... everything." He then cums into his hand and thinks: "I have not been doing it for quite some time" (He means sex/masturbation because a lot came out lol). He then hears Hyesung screaming loudly in a panic. He washes his hands and runs over to Hyesung and asks him "Why are you screaming/what happened?!" Hyesung is sitting in front of his closet with clothes all over the place. He has a scared and panicked look on his face and he mumbles to himself: "They don't fit... they don't fit... my clothes don't fit."
So yea this is the chapter. I translated it using google translate. Some parts I'm not so sure about but I believe I'm fairly accurate in most of it. This chapter broke my heart regarding Hyesung's past with his mum. I just can't hate Hyesung no matter what. I love him so much, even without the backstory. I hope things get better for him. He's scared and, instead of facing his fears, always acts like everything is okay. It breaks my heart.
kms i didnt mean to down vote !!!
It's fine! Don't worry about it :)
I love spoilers, so ty for the translation <3
you're welcome!
Thank you so much for translating this!!!
you're welcome!
lol at people hating on Hyesung. Dojin signed the contract because it works for his benefit. He was not going to let Hyesung abort the baby to begin with. Also, if you think Dojin will let Hyesung leave after giving birth... have you been reading the story? There's no way in hell Dojin will let Hyesung leave. I mean only a couple of chapters ago he basically forced himself on him to keep him from leaving. Dojin will use the time now to win Hyesung over.
Hyesung is naive, a brat and doesn't really understand the weight of his actions. He doesn't see far ahead into the future and sucks at interpreting the situations he is in. He is unable to understand Dojin's actions as those of affection towards him. All he sees is a rich alpha who is using him and who lied to him before. Also he is still unaware of how much having a baby is going to affect him. Dojin is not helping by not telling him how he really feels. I mean we as readers know what Dojin is thinking. On the other hand, Dojin never really told Hyesung that he likes him. So how should Hyesung know?
So even though Hyesung has a questionable personality, I still like him. I like that he is not a pushover and that he doesn't think he should just bend over backwards for a rich alpha just because he is an omega. He is looking after himself as well in a way he thinks would work best for him. Dojin is the one chasing after him, he is the one who doesn't allow him to leave and he is the one who insists on him having the baby. So why shouldn't he work hard to gain Hyesung's affection? Hyesung has the right not to like Dojin back (even though I am rooting for them as a couple), and having Dojin willingly spend money on Hyesung does not imply that Hyesung will owe him affection and sex back. Hyesung needs to love Dojin truly first before we see any sort of healthy relationship between the two. anyway in the recent raws (chapters 24 and 25), Hyesung is really starting to warm up to Dojin. So there is progress. We need to wait for the characters to evolve. We can't expect Hyesung to be okay with a shitty situation that was thrust unexpectedly onto him like this. Just give the manga time.
i like how you word things out. and its quite true...
in my opinion as a reader of their romance : Hyesung is naive, brat and from most of his life he knew he was an alpha. there are so many things NEW to him being an OMEGA and he may be a brat but he is innocent. and he has his own DARK PAST he is protecting. we all knew that he is a MATH GENIUS but he needs to keep that thing hidden in fear of his family.
He is innocent and the thing he knew is to PROTECT HIMSELF.
just think about it : If Dojin suddenly tells him when he gave birth that he doesnt need Hyesung anymore - what will Hyesung do?
the contract may look like 'gold digger' but its more of protecting himself from any thing. its hard being a single parent and without any 'reassurance of the future'
and yes, I do believe you are right: "There's no way in hell Dojin will let Hyesung leave. I mean only a couple of chapters ago he basically forced himself on him to keep him from leaving. Dojin will use the time now to win Hyesung over. "
120% real!!! Dojin will not allow Hyesung to leave and he will do anything... after all he has some MONTHS to make Hyesung fall for him...
I love Hyesung cause its the 'omega heat' that makes him lewd and not his real self... its like you're in heat and you have no control over it. but once your sober - you knew full well you are not some whore who will use your self.
i love him.
i love Hyesung...
Thank you for posting your review :) I really like how you protected both of them in your words :)
I agree with your comment as well! Let's wait and see what will happen later. I truly love this manhwa and the characters.
THERE'S A BABY BUMP!! (Hye thinks he's just getting fat lol)
So Dojin goes on a tour and performers and apparently a famous producer or sth (not sure) likes his last two songs (maybe the ones he wrote when he got inspired by Hye?) and she gives him her card and offers him a pro audition or sth (what I understood from google translate). During the tour Dojin asks Hye's friend to sort of baby-sit him until he gets back. Hye at first is happy to spend some time away from Dojin but then he starts getting anxious and goes and hides in the closet between clothes (Dojin's clothes maybe?). His friend tells him that pregnant omegas get anxious when the alpha is not close by. When Dojin comes back Hye grabs him and tells him to sit beside him. Dojin says he might get busy with work but he will always come back home. Hye pretends like he doesn't care. lol
There's definitely progress in this chapter. Hye was lonely without Dojin and anxious as well! Maybe things will get better!
I need raw!!!
omggggg crying fml thank you.
may i ask where you got te raws please? bc smfh i can't-
The raws are not up on toonkor yet but I found them on Instagram. Just search under the tag #loveisanillusion on insta and you can find some posts regarding the chapter. It was super cute and the first time when Hye actually sort of miss Dojin or wants him back. It's so cute
Thank you so much!!!!!
So Hye-sung was getting lonely without Dojin in the house....
Thanks
from what I understood from google translate (I don't know Korean at all), he was more anxious than lonely. The moment Dojin came to the house, Hyesung opened the door for him and basically dragged him to the couch, pushed him down and sat beside him. He didn't tell him anything, he's so stubborn lol but just wanted him close.
Makes sense, thanks.
you're welcome! :)
We all use google translator. It showed me something like "I'm scared of death". Poor cute Hyesung, he's not ready to have baby.
So basically, Alex can go fuck right off. Poor DG.
DG honey wake up. It’s time to confront Alex about his shitty behaviour
Can the jerk just properly end it? If he doesn't want DG anymore than at least say "It's over". What a jerk. Alex doesn't deserve DG. DG deserves better
no, DG should just leave him alone and live his life, Alex will come back eventually
I agree he should end their partnership properly. He has no balls.
So true. He has a temper, is double-faced, engages in horrible forceful sex. Only thing going for him is that he’s physically attractive. Otherwise I’d never touch a man like this even with a ten foot pole.
that's what makes the story interesting, He would be the nice guy in love that would be really boring, no interest. I can not help but defend the character that I find fabulous.
That's kind of sad that you think that.
Everyone has different tastes and don't be sad for me, I'm not, I totally assume my character preferences. I like Alex that's all.
Oh of course, I'll defend that notion to the death but from my POV and i know you might not even enjoy them but my gut reaction is that you're missing out on some enjoyable stories that show case healthy relationships where they are nice and in love. I apologize that I made you feel like you had to defend your tastes.
I also understand why you feel that way, the journey to them hopefully being both in love and in a relationship and more important growing as characters is what makes many stories like this interesting. The journey is just a harsh one so far (for some of us to watch) and I'm hoping the author makes the endgame worthwhile, I will put my trust in her for now haha.
In fact with this kind of character we expect that the "bad guy" shows his flaws, that's why I usually like this kind of character, I like that he isn't perfect, there is the wait that he gets better in contact with the other guy, I don't stick to stories where the seme falls directly in love, shows it and does not hide anything, it does not interest me. I like the real hidden feelings. Maybe Alex will never like DG, I don't know what the author predicts, but I find this character searched and interesting, he doesn't look like others, he's not a Prince Charming caricature. I don't believe in perfect people, it doesn't exist, here Alex shows two faces and I really love this aspect of the story, it intrigues me and interests me. But I can love pretty love stories, I read them too, but I have a preference for complicated relationships. And don't worry I understand that you can not understand my point of view, no worries :) Sorry for my bad english hope you understand what I mean.
@Dweneya what makes this story interesting for me is the MD x Chanwoo pairing. The horrible relationship between asshole Alex and DH is actually vintage yaoi trope - the "he loves me so he treats me bad and it's all my fault" kind of shit.
DG*
I'm not interested by MDxChanwoo at all. I don't care about them and I don't care if you think the relationship between Alex and DG is vintage yaoi or anything else, I love them together, that's all. Nothing will change my mind.
not trying to convince you of shit. you voiced your opinion replying to my first post and I voiced my opinion in return. that's all there is to this mindless comment thread. their relationship is shit - character Alex thinks he is the best thing ever that happened to the cam world, and DG is dumb enough to withstand abuse for the sake of this arrogant asshole bj idol.
Ok but you already gave your opinion, no need to insist on it either, you don't like them ok. It's just a fiction anyway, no need to get upset about it and I'm making the difference between real and fictional characters. It seems that this subject touches you personally or that it bothers you that somebody can appreciate Alex and DG.
omg please get a life. my comments are not that controversial for you to get so fucking triggered. let it go.
Talk about an insane chapter. Holy fuck that was amazing.
Also, could someone kill that Celestial dragon guy already? Seriously one of the worst personalities in all of this series, and that's saying something.
But I'm so happy that Otohime's kindness actually brought forth a change in heart in one of the Celestial dragons! That brings hope for a change!
Poor Hye, he's throwing up everything in chapter 24 and crying because he can't eat anything he likes. Apparently he can eat peaches only (and from what I understood, Dojin tells Hye that hye's pheromones smell like peaches, which might explain why he can only eat them?). Dojin is comforting him though, such a sweetheart.
do you have any raw ? not upload yet on toonkor :(
just search on instagram under the tag loveisanillusion. That's how I found it
Hyesung has a craving for some type of food, Dojin buys it, Hyesung feels ill, gets upset and vomits. Dojin is becoming more caring/affectionate. Hyesung can only eat peaches.
Seems the jist
So like everybody who is hating on Hyesung right now needs to check chapter 26 that came out today. I doubt many would be commenting such harsh words towards him if they did.
For me, I've always loved Hyesung and I still love him even before his backstory came out. He is a breath of fresh air compared to the omegas of most other omegaverses who bend over backwards for the first alpha that wants them.
I want Hyesung and Dojin to have a healthy fluffy relationship, but for that to happen, Hyesung needs to love Dojin and for that, he needs time. Why does everybody want him to fall in love right away? Ever heard of character development? Let the story take its time. This is how it comes interesting. All these toxic comments are just upsetting.
I'm sorry, having a fuck up childhood doesn't excuse his behaviour. A lot of people have had awful childhood, and we don't go around selling our kids or looking for someone rich to support us.
I couldn't agree more I'm literally tired of the comment section at this point. But I won't argue because it's pointless and is told on deaf ears. I get that people are so dedicated to the omegaverse being an opportunity to see fan service sex between trope and stereotype riddled male characters potentially having a baby. Yet, god forbid there's a narrative that breaks the norm of ridiculous they lose their shit. This story is fiction but the character's act realistically enough that it really surprises me how people are angered when characters have autonomy. Want Hyesung to be a complacent representation of misogyny by loving Dojin like a hapless damsel in distress, not have Hyesung be capable of his right to prochoice, and utilize his circumstances to benefit himself like any rational human being would do then go watch Disney. You'll get everything you want and then more in your fictional compartmentalized void.
Listen most of us understand that the parents dont get along but u never ever ever put ur child into it like never ur technically selling ur own blood and its sad .. Even if he had a terrible childhood he has a baby he should understand happiness because a baby just cant leave its own mother right out the womb .., but the main part im.mad about is how dirty he did to that baby .. Kids stay out of parental fights till grown to understand ..
Maybe you're pro-life which is perfectly fine if that's your moral or religious belief. But as of now it's Hyesung's body. NO ONE ESLES. What he decides to do with his body and unborn child is his right alone. Dojin isn't carrying the baby, Hyesung is. For Hyesung to consider Dojin is more more maturity than I'm sure you're even bothering to consider. Also I hate to say it but this baby was clearly a mistake for both of them. Yes people have a responsibility should they be "mature enough" to bring up a child. A child isn't an accessory for a couple, it's a child they'll raise and be solely responsible for YEARS. Dojin has the stability of an influential wealthy alpha family should he decide to rely on them. Though he hasn't he still has way more going for him being mature and secure with his lifestyle. But bringing a child into the conversation as to why these two must get along is absolutely ridiculous AND shows a lack of depth. Hyesung barely knows Dojin. Dojin barely knows Hyesung. So what if Dojin likes Hyesung he has never said a friggin word about it. Most of his desire even falls under instinct as so many people have apparently used as excuse whenever Dojin does anything wrong. You can't have it both was as a defense and offense, because the argument was already riddled with holes. Why do people have fairy tale expectations for a narrative that is realistic to two strangers having essentially a one night stand and one falling pregnant. Hyesung is 20 years old and barely has his life together let alone recently finding out he's an omega expecting a child. The bullshit that he's a golddiger and such is nonsense. The kid couldn't find work as an" alpha" now is an omega let alone a pregnant omega how's he going to support himself?His attempts to leave Dojin and be independent were intervened everytime in some way as Dojin's needs trumped Hyesung's autonomy. When Hyesung was an"alpha" and wanted to con omegas that's the same as anyone having dreams of wanting to be rich, it's doesn't make him evil either as his fallback plan leaves him pregnant; PREGNANT. Being pregnant isn't a fucking easy trip; it's a whole physical and psychological experience.If Hyesung wants to be lavished and pampered while he can't do anything what harm does it do? He can't do anything and he can't leave Dojin so yeah he's going to go shopping, whatever. If Hyesung wants to think of his pregnancy as being a surrogate that's his problem to deal with intensity of the situation. People give up children all the time to more capable parents. People sell their eggs and sperm too what difference those it make. Some surrogates even donate their egg and then carry the baby for willing parents. It's still money for "life", you don't have to have an emotional attachment it doesn't make you evil for crying out loud. Material items are clearly not important to Dojin, he's fucking rich and just wants to make Hyesung comfortable to lessen the drama. Dojin gets the severity of the situation wants to placate Hyesung. So why are people so hung up on demonizing Hyesung. I'm not even going to go into Hyesung's backstory because frankly it's irrelevant. A person is still capable of acting the way Hyesung has done so without the usual sob origin story attributed to BL. The lack of sensitivity and even comprehension that a reader can have to blame Hyesung makes no sense unless you lack empathy or have desensitized yourself enough to think Hyesung's only purpose in this manga is to give you a baby and some make believe story because you deserve it as a reader. Because this is fiction does that mean his actions need to be fake in order to satisfy you? God it's like people stick their fingers in their ears and keeping singing LALALA just because it's more entertaining than facing reality.
I agree but like i said never bring a child into the situation in my current view i just want the uke to fall inlove with the baby and the seme during being pregnant and it actually is gold digging because if you reread the uke properly said "i only messed with him because he was rich" which MEANS yes he IS a GOLDdigger .., at the age 20 most not all know how to take responsibility The Uke ... Acts like a 17 yr old girl .., sorry if this is making u more mad but yea ppl do sell there eggs and sperm but not a baby .. The reason people give there babies away for the good but the uke is only doing the "Good" for himself if u can clearly see in new chapter .., and yea its not disney land but sometimes adding alil magic never hurt things .., Yes i understand the ukes past and i just got done reading the other chapter but honestly im wishing there would be a change .., if a uke didnt want ppl to leave him the uke would act strong but no no this uke acts selfish .., and most of my conclusion is from his pregnant instincts .., and noni dont THINK the uke has to give me a BABY i wanted the mc's to fall INLOVE before that happened .., and i didnt even know his pregnancy was even gonna happen .., but the things he do just makes me kinda sick to my stomach like when he smacked the shoes out of the seme's hand it really made me wanna throw up .., sorry but i think of the uke as a abusive mother more than a golddigger so im happy the seme is taking care of the child .., (Sorry i just like it when Moms take care of there childeren i personally dont have a mom because shes in jail so yea ..
) but sorry if i made u more mad ;-; n tbh im just waiting for something really good to happen because all of this drama between them are rlly getting to my stomach and no other manga really did this to me ;-;
I agree a 100%. I should point out as well how Hyesung is still not fully aware of the weight of the situation. I mean in chapter 23 he says being pregnant is the best right before he throws up. He is childish and obviously unfit to raise a child, and yet he is pulling the ultimate sacrifice for Dojin because he wants the baby. So yeah, what's so wrong about wanting to get paid for it? He still did not develop an emotional connection to the fetus yet. To him, it's just a clump of cells. Maybe throughout the pregnancy his attitude towards the baby changes. But even if it didn't, it's still his choice. Again, people give up their kids for adoption all the time. I just don't get why people are painting Hyesung as this evil manipulator who hates babies and only cares about money, instead of seeing him as somebody who is trying to find a solution out of a shit situation that was forced on him, even if the way he thinks can be described as naive. Like yeah, I agree he doesn't plan far ahead, he is childish, naive and avoids talking about his problems but rather acts as though everything is fine. But he is not evil. And he does not deserve all these hate comments. And dojin is not some 'poor' alpha who is being 'used' for his money. I mean, Dojin is using his money to win over Hyesung. He is willing in all of this. He is not being manipulated. Actually, it is the other way around. The baby shoes thing was a shitty move. He know Hyesung does not want the baby, so why manipulate him like that with cute baby shoes? Of course he is going to freak out. i mean Hyesung's reactions are always over the top. Imagine making an agreement where you decide to give up the baby after birth only for the other side to try to emotionally manipulate you to like the baby that you already decided to give up. I just don't get why Dojin does not express his feelings in words. He can't just buy him stuff and hope Hyesung will fall heads over heels for him. They need to have a proper conversation. Hyesung is the only one who is acting normally here and his actions fit perfectly with his personality. I just love the path this story is taking. I don't want a magical falling in love story with really no character development whatsoever. I want them to fall in love, but on terms that work for both. I want Hyesung to have a say in things, and to actively love Dojin when he is ready, and when he wants to. The fact that Dojin loves him does not mean Hyesung owes him love in return. They should work for it. And it's perfectly okay for him not to love him back. Anyway, we should wait. The pace of the story is good. They might end up loving each other. But it needs time. People are angry that Hyesung is not loving Dojin fast enough, I mean really? Let the characters develop and the story move on its own pace.