bal's Things

Honestly, it's kinda dumb that I remember this specific day. But yeah, today October 21st marks my fourth year reading yaoi. That shit got me through college entrance exam and I'm almost graduating

Shout-out to my first yaoi, Odd Love

Do y'all read yaoi as a comfort activity or coping mechanism?
Personally, I come running to mangago when I'm stressed, anxious or if anything bad happens honestly. It's become part of my routine.
It's definitely not a healthy way to deal with stuff, but works for me. I just wanna read my yaoi when I get home from a exhausting day at work

My friend count is really low. If I take away family and boyfriend, the number is 0. ZERO. So yeah, that leaves me with mom, sister and boyfriend on my circle of friends.

I have college and work colleagues, but nothing more than that.

Anyhow, my question is: how the fuck are people supposed to make friends????
For instance, I'm shy and a introvert, so I get intimidated when I want to join a conversation about a topic of my interest. And also I feel like if I join, I might be interrupting or invading an existing group of friends.

I recently realized that I need to make friends urgently. Occasionally I feel alone, but the future might be even scarier if I stay like this. What will happen if my bf and I break up? What will be like when I move out of my mom's house?

Asking this mainly because I've kept it a secret from my partner. No one in my life knows it, including them. Idk, I just don't feel comfortable telling them that I like to spend some of my free time reading two dudes in love banging. But at the same time, I feel like I'm keeping something relevant about me from them...
Anyways, that said, I have no intention on telling either way.