Omg and all this time I thought he was a young master from rich family
Can relate with seyeong. Its hard to trust someone love me when I feel like I dont have anything worth to be loved. I feel like they'll leave me when they know I cant give them what they want. I feel so insecure thats why its so hard to open up to someone.
When I was in college there's this guy who always hangout with me. I was so poor back then so whenever we go out together he often pays for our meal. I tried to pay him back whenever I have money from my part time job but he refuses, saying Im poor and need to save money, even throw the money to my face when I insist to give him that money. Since then I thought I need to compensate him with something else, like help him with his assignment, and just being a good friend for him since he dont want my money.
One day he confessed. Of course I refuse. Since the beginning of our friendship I have told him that I dont want to be in romantic relationship, I just want to focus on my education first. After that he blame me and saying I used him :'). He was popular and have many friends in his social circle so his friends spread the information to the whole departmeng that I was a bitch who just took their friend's money haha
Well its true that he spend a lot to pay my meal, but I never asked for it. I've tried to pay him but he refuses :') I have no intention to use him but what can I do if he feels that way? So i cant say anything back to those accussation
That experience traumatized me a lot. Whenever people help me even for little things I will make sure to pay them back somehow. And whenever people being nice to me I cant feel their sincerity and always thought that they just want something from me.
So yeah, being comfortable with someone is so scary. I dont want to get used to their kindness or rely on them, cuz I dont think I can handle it when they leave :')
I feel you. It's harder to accept kindness than to give them. I don't like the feeling of being indebted to someone. It makes me feel anxious.
is this anxious avoidant attachment gathering? cause i feel you guys.
Honestly I like her more than those OP FL. Sure OP FL is satisfying to watch but this girl is more relatable as a 'real' person. Like her emotions is so human (if u know what I mean).
Pls recommend me BL like this T^T
The characters were well written. The story and characters development are so good T^T
Pls drop the novel link if u know Im dying to know what happens next
here is the link to the novel
https://novelbin.com/b/save-a-failed-idols-life
But now I'm afraid of losing you Dokja-ya