
Maybe because I’m into girls? His ex gf is so pretty even when she’s dying from embarrassment... and I’m totally digging that dress (▰˘◡˘▰)
Thank you author for not falling into the boring stereotype and letting your characters be civilised and mature about past relationship (well maybe not Haebom haha he’s so worked up).

Their story is another manga named Fukuzatsu! Sankaku Kankei that can be read here https://nicobook.org/books/401792
No scanlation group picked it up yet.
Meh story though.

Read the raw. Atsushi is a jerk, he himself being hurt by ex girlfriend is no excuse to being ambiguous to Shuu and his push-and-pull act. Asking to touch him while refusing to responding properly to his confession is the worst.
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In vol 2 when Atsushi said “If you really love me then let me do it to the end” I was SOOOOO MAD. Lmao. HOW ABOUT YOU CONFESS TO HIM PROPERLY AND REASSURE HIS FEELING BEFORE SHOVING YOUR DXXX IN HIM? Thankfully he did (in the middle of foreplay, though, so I still think he’s a jerk). The way author made Shuu think that everything is his fault doesn’t sit well with me. Atsushi touching him and he’s confused? “I’m taking advantage of senpai’s feeling”. Atsushi being sulky after Shuu ran away from his selfish demand? “Oh no it’s my fault senpai is mad at me”.
Long story short I only love Shuu and my baby doesn’t deserve to cry that much for his first love (╬ ̄皿 ̄)凸

I had a feeling that the Seme was a jerk. I was really really hoping that he'd get hit with some sort of karma or atleast gets ghosted by the uke for some time and realize his feelings. But apparently none of that will happen (just as i had expected). Ugh it really pisses me off but as long as the uke is happy i guess its fine. Seme is still a jerk in my eyes though lol.

If anyone wants to support sensei, the first 2 books in the Deluxe Edition series by Sublime is being 35% discounted on bookdepository.com and you get free international shipping. I have just placed my order. Of course it’s still cheaper to purchase digital version, just sharing in case other fans are collecting the print.
This is one of the few manga that when I reread, I start from somewhere in the middle. Hidoku Shinaide started out rapey with a bully protagonist before suddenly taking off to be a serious coming-of-age love story that hits right on all the feels. I hope whoever finds this gem late can overlook the crappy beginning to continue on. Because we all know not all love stories start like a fairy tale. Some begin ugly, and it’s up to the two people to decide how they gonna take their relationship from there. Nemu and Maya haven’t disappointed us.