draft, js wanted to put my thoughts down. its three in the morning and i dont care enough to complete my thoughts and i wanna go to sleep so u can have whatever unfinished thoughts i wrote down. i jumped from one paragraph to another, so most of them are prob unfinished. and i dont care, goodnight !!!!!!!!!!
not that im saying what he (boss) did is 'right' or 'good', i js know this is something that can happen irl. (COUGH speaking from experience COUGH COUGH)
i do think to some extent he (boss) knew that if he did survive that suicide attempt, daejong would come running back to him, feel guilty and take care of him while hes still injured. though ofc, the feelings of resentment would still be there, but he prob thought playing docile and submissive would lower ukes guard + if ur being abused, the bare minimum literally looks like paradise. so anything more than the bare minimum is gon look like heaven
1. hes already fucking depressed, he had no passion for life, nothing like a hobby and i doubt he interacts w anyone outside his workplace. and doesnt seem to hook up w anyone, he doesnt seem like the guy thatd do casual fucks.
> he really had nothing to lose w killing himself, id make the same decision. he doesnt have anything to lose, he's decided to make his peace w his victim and theres literally no way theyre coming back cuz theyve moved on (ofc its not that simple, lingering feelings will always be there. which is a bummer. id like to kill those emotions too, but its not so easy)
commit suicide, uke doesnt turn back (equivalent to uke not any feelings for him anymore, like literally nothing. bro doesnt hate or love you, he js doesnt feel anything for you. ur js someone of the past and nothing more than a stranger to him in the present)
> seme dies, happy ending
commit suicide, uke turns back (what happens in the manhwa), uke feel guilty and takes on the responsibility of caretaking (cuz thats js the kinda guy he is. hes too nice for his own good. or well, maybe its better to say hes not sociopathic)
> no one in their right mind would blame someoen who js tried to commit suicide on them. unless theyre a sociopath, narcissistic or js really fucking delusional. and im pretty sure boss man knows that. hes smart enough to figure that out. /// lure uke back in, act docile (tho, ur depressed asf, u dont really have the energy to do anything so u kinda js lay down and take it. so this is the easy part - unless uve got anger issues or some.)
basically im tryna walk you through the thought process of this sick fuck
mb girlies, heonjae, you cute as hell but stabbing ur brother in the back? idk that.... jingi was always the more sensible one anyway.
idk if hes aware of whats happened to jingi and what kind of a creep the uncle is. i dont even know if he can comprehend how torturous those experiences would have been. he lacks common sense. yes its very clear he has a developmental disorder, and is mentally impaired not only due to his bad rng, but because of the lack of support + abuse that he went through. but still bro. what happen to bros before hoes man
right now, i want jingi and twink endgame. heonjae, please voluntarily put yourself in a facility to get yourself help. its going to be real hard because of your age and how your brain is already developed + those fucked up morals of yours have now been set in stone, like real good. those morals aint changing no time soon. so if it doesnt work out, i think you should stay under close supervision. youre sick. all yall sick
No, no, no. MC needs to not end with any of his rapists.
its getting real hard to defend you bro. how u gon hear that someone is plotting against ur brother, w the intent of serious injury and possibly murder, and js not think abt it. like what. like not even a second thought, and then u confess ur love. like. IS THAT WHAT SHOULD BE AT THE FOREFRONT OF UR MIND RN. IS THAT REALLY ALL U HAVE TO SAY. "oh looks like my brothers gonna get killed if he walks into the infirmary tent!!! *walks away and js doesnt do anything*" WHAT. hes gon be real surprised when mc doesnt condone those actions (if he finds out).
this comment makes it seem like this is the first chapter you read lmfao what? are you aware of where these crazy guys currently reside?
No, it's still hard to believe because they're both shitty people but you think that they're at least loyal to each other. Like we see that Jingi helped Heonjae get a lower sentence after cutting off his teacher's legs and getting in fights. We know that Jingi was genuinely trying to help Heonjae flirt with Myeonggi and giving him advice. Aside from their Aunt they are the only family they have. If Myeonggi was able to save Jingi from getting stabbed in ch 1 when he was a stranger and isn't related to them then why isn't Heonjae willing to protect and stand up for him when they're related by blood. Not going to spoil but you'll see in ch 65 how much Jingi cares about Heonjae and how he was actively trying to protect him so it's sad to see Heonjae not willing to do the same. Even gangsters somewhat stand by a bro code.
TELL THEMMMM , istg there’s no going back for heonjae he can’t and will never change, he’s a full grown adult do you know how hard it would be for his brain to actually come to terms with understanding that he has issues and he has to fix them, he’s not even fucking aware of it cuz he thinks what he’s doing is right as long as it makes him happy
i dont get what point youre tryna to make. did you have a bad day and now youre taking it out on me? poor you, i hope you get well soon !!!
Come through come through peach because the sermon is tea and not just ANY tea it’s that SOUTHERN SWEET TEA!
It's obvious heonjae is fucked in the head why r u guys surprised
Y'all should keep in mind that Heonjae definitely has a neurodevelopmental disorder like autism and other unresolved issues. His brother doesn't seem to be helping with his disability either since he doesn't encourage him to speak with people nor continue his hobbies like sports. If anything he treats Heonjae like a pet which only encourages his disorders to worsen. Saying there's no going back for him is somewhat ignorant and harsh... All he needs is to be shown love which he missed as a child along with excessive therapy.
When you say Jingi treats Heonjae like a pet do you mean he doesn't encourage him to talk to others or that he just gives him instructions and expects Heonjae to follow them. It is true that Jingi probably doesn't know how to handle someone that's neurodivergent but that's probably because one he never grew up knowing how to properly love and care for someone because he had a fucked up childhood too and two he's busy trying to protect his brother from issues that might make his autism worse. Jingi doesn't encourage Heonjae to talk to others because they're in prison and a lot of people in prison either want Jingi dead and might try to use Heonjae or want Heonjae dead as well, so making friends in prison probably isn't great. But I guess you're right that the least Jingi could do is acknowledge how good Heonjae is at his hobbies and give him words or encouragement.
Also Heonjae is more than just autistic. He got into prison all by himself with Jingi not really being involved, at least as far as we know. It is true that Jingi could talk to Heonjae more positively and acknowledge his good characteristics but there are plenty of autistic people that don't go around cutting off people's legs. Jingi could have only done so much to help him.
Righhtttt, this person seems to be excusing his actions as being ‘autistic’ and even somehow putting the blame on jingi??? For all we know heonjae not talking to ppl in prison might be for the best cuz every one there is a criminal and criminals don’t care about others so they wouldn’t have been as patient as myeongil was, and also look how heonjae treated the one person who showed him kindness
Jingi isn't a saint though. Heonjae needs someone to teach him about societal norms and Jingi is the one who has been doing it before the MC. Jingi even taught Heonjae that it's okay for friends to have sex and other fucked up shit he instructed him to do with other cellmates. He does this on purpose to have control over others just the way he started ordering the MC around too. I know that Heonjae was fucked up even before jail because of the way everyone neglected him, but Jingi definitely made him even worse. True, he's been protecting him but his approach is somewhat destructive.
Again blaming jingi for heonjae’s actions where in my comment did i say jingi was a ‘saint’, stop putting everything on jingi man. as we saw with the latest chapter heonjae knows what he’s doing and has free will, he’s shown it plenty of times doing as he pleases with mc and lately hasn’t been listening to jingi. How could jingi possibly have made a guy who cut someone’s leg off worse? if anything he’s been protecting him too much and spoiled him instead of actually telling him the things he’s done are bad, this why heonjae got balls and thinks he can do whatever he wants . But then again they’re both in prison for a reason so how could jingi be a normal reasonable person and guide heonjae
How did he make him worse? Maybe by teaching someone who doesn't have a sense of what's right and what's wrong that it's normal to rape and abuse people to the point of suicide. Their past cellmates were treated like absolute shit and if it wasn't for Jingi, none of it would have happened since he's the mastermind behind everything they do in jail
Now I’m js fucking confused, what are you trying to get at? What’s your point , heonjae was bad from the beginning if he was able to do the things he did who says he wouldn’t have done the other things without jingi’s influence? Didn’t he have the hots for his teach or sum?
the good ending (im grasping at straws here, bc i meed to delulu to cope with the, the ☹)
jingi and myeongi get rehabilitated together, being each ofhers support system (but in a healthy way where the dynamic is kinda like "we been through some shit together, we fought and made up then fought again and learned things the hard way. and theres some sexual tension between the two).
heonjae, learns to care for myeongis siblings and in turn learning empathy, how to care for others and himself, finds a job that works for him (prob some physical labor, he wouldnt do well in customer service) and grows and matures as a person.
i specify children because theyre very blunt, easier to read than passive aggressive adults. and their emotional needs are pretty straightforward (i feel liek heonjae would appreciate that). also because children are in need of protection, and heonjae has a really intense need to 'protect' (and thats being generous, hes prob closer to "they cant leave me because i have insane abandonment issues and only so little people get to know me and like me so i need to cling onto the ones that do stay around me or else ill die alone and ill be sad and ill do bad bad things." probably.) so it works well. and itll be a balancing act because children also need to go out into the world to learn and grow as people. they need their own autonomy and heonjae learning to respect that would be ideal. oh plus, children grow up fast and eventually that means theyll leave you because theyve grown and have their own goals and life to live. but they still love you all the same (and i think that sort of secure attachment would be good for heonjae. knowing that even though they may be moving on and they wont see each other as much, knowing that they still love him and care for him would do wonders on his healing journey)
caring for children is a challenging thing to do, but its definitely a learning experience (one that heonjae needs real bad) and can be rewarding watching them grow into their own little people
but if he pulls some stupid shir, detain his ass and throw him back into the cellular.
while the uncle is tied to a five ton brick and thrown into the han river. or somewhere else, i feel like just knowing hes in there would make me sick. maybe get a helicopter to fly his ass over to the middle of the ocean to become fish food. then maybe he could have a "positive" impact in the world as fish nutrition. bleh
screenshotting so I can cope later
real shit
thank god i came back at the end of the arc, i would have killed myself if i came back in the middle of an arc
all of them, but especially the blonde one
Nah i want that zombie lookin one