Why is he so afraid of Love !! Ughhhh !! How I wish Yashiro get jealous over Dou-chin so hard that he starts to beg for him to come back !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Suffered rape and beatings from a man who was meant to be his step father
- Was told he was just like a girl, to keep quiet and as a coping mechanism developed a shield where he convinced himself that his abuser(s) were not at fault and that he was a "masochist".
- Mother likely neglected her son as a child, seeing as the flashbacks of Yashiro as a young boy are him alone, or as a teen he laments that people love you, then they don't and speaks poorly of her. His mother abandoned him when he was only 15.
- Doesn't really view himself as gay or straight, as he has only experienced unrequited love with Kageyama and sacrificed himself to the yakuza for him.
- Has a poor self worth, he self harms by needing to have violent sexual encounters as this is easier to cope with, than dealing with the pressures of romantic connections.
- Love to Yashiro is painful, it means being aware that he was a victim of rape, of abandonment that he can't just block out these traumas by being used by yakuza men and accepting being beaten. Doumeki wasn't willing to indulge Yashiro's coping mechanisms, he was also willing to die for him and on occasion was nearly shot in the head. His situation of unrequited love, of blocking out his true emotions and trauma, of pretending to be a "masochist" were harmful, but it gave him a sense of familiarity and it was what he could cope with. Doumeki changed everything, he experienced sex with emotion, he experienced painful triggers and realisations to his past, he had Kageyama who has been pig ignorant to the real Yashiro for all these years confront him. Everyone in Yashiro's life has either used him, abused him, left him or thinks that the act he puts on is real, but not Doumeki. Yashiro has been living in his comfort zone for decades, and within a few months D has basically thrown a spanner in the works.
I do agree with everything you said !!
You see I don't hate Yashiro but You know, I don't think Doumeki should be treated that way !
What ever the reason Yashiro has for not being with the one who treating him with respect and care about him a lot, He needs to snap out of it already, it's been so long since Yashiro gave everything to other people and denied himself !
He's been hurting Doumeki too much it's just so sad seeing him casting away what he wants the most for the sake of other people !!
Is it me or they hinted that Edna & Eli might be siblings ?????!!!!!
** At first I though maybe the mother had an affair with Count Poliot because they share the same eye color but then I thought it might be her uncle or even not related but still ,,, I really really really am afraid of a crappy twist ╥﹏╥
** Tho I so am into Rio & Chris, they're so adorable together aside from Elina (▰˘◡˘▰)
Huntington's disease is a genetic neurodegenerative (destroys your brain) disease. It's genetic, there's no cure and your life expectancy after the onset of symptoms is about 10 to 25 years. Its pretty awful (and has nothing to do with this manga) my best friends dad (and other relatives) has it and she might have it too : Watching someone suffer from it is hard.











How much I wish to slap him !!! Jeez, I can't believe how tolerating Takano is (╯°Д °)╯╧╧
Well, he's definitely in the wrong too. That's just not the way to make someone admit their feelings...
I feel u
I know that but come on he begged him, always saying he loves him and fears leaving him, he said that every single chapter I read so far ! Even tho their trauma was mainly Ritsu's fault and yet he's still acting like a spoiled child !
I say Takano is only 30% wrong in this relation !