
ive always had the feeling that shishikura was the only one in it in this relationship. esp at the end of vol.1 when it was him who ended up confessing first. he even contemplated about apologising when he didn't do anything wrong. but i still find their chemistry really good, esp for a enemies to lovers pair.
but kotani is really doing it right now. he feels so distanced from uke regarding feelings. they don't talk, they have s3x everytime they have an argument. and it's always kotani initiating it and shishikura always the one wanting to talk instead.
kotani needs a SERIOUS chasing arc frfr. this new guy seems the catalyst for jealousy arc. hehehe. cuz if was shishikura and i was dating to marry, and my partner out of the blue (WHILE IM LOOKING SO HAPPY AFTER A WEDDING PHOTOSHOOT EVEN THO IT WASN'T ACTUALLY FOR A WEDDING??) said he doesn't want to marry. im ending it, idc. cuz like, what's the point of dating e/o if my goal here is to marry and you don't want to??

YESSSSS SAY IT LOUDER shishikura is the only one dating here basically he always takes the first steps, he always apologize (or wonders if he should) EVEN when he does nothing wrong and hes always trying to talk things out but kotani just doesnt care at all this is the first time in my life that ive been rooting for a jealousy arc fr

it's so sad when you think about it. even in the extras shishikura felt like nothing changed between them after the confession bc they're just having s3x. then he initiated a date, kotani didn't want to at first, instead of talking with shishikura, he just wants to sleep with him. now this!! shishikura wants to talk again but kotani just went in for the s3x. omg even i am getting tired of kotani's ass.
idk but i kinda want jooha to not get his memories back. past jooha has a lot of trauma and i just want my baby to be happyyy all the timeee aaaaa