One day later since I posted this thread- (http://www.mangago.me/thing/about/136769/?filter=date#about_136772)- I'd like to update yall because some people were looking for closure. FEMALE PARENTAL UNIT REMAINS OBLIVIOUS TO MY SECRET YAOI LIFE! I REPEAT, FEMALE PARENTAL UNIT REMAINS OBLIVIOUS TO MY SECRET YAOI LIFE!
I got up this morning expecting to be cussed out and ass whooped like half the comments were predicting, but she just smiled at me and gave me back my computer!! I almost had a heart attack istg I didn't sleep a wink last night. the yaoi gods really were watching over me and activated fashionlib block or sum :')
Thanks to everyone who supported me and prayed for me in that stressful time. your kind words really meant a lot to me and I will forever hold them dear to my heart. im also stealing all yall's reaction memes if that's ok.
And let this serve as a warning to those of yall who don't clear their browser history. if you're at risk like me, be sure to clear your history each session, or better yet just use incognito. Mark my words, never again do I want to experience the suspended horror of my mother finding out I read literary works with titles such as "Daddy tastes like butter". Never again.
I got up this morning expecting to be cussed out and ass whooped like half the comments were predicting, but she just smiled at me and gave me back my computer!! I almost had a heart attack istg I didn't sleep a wink last night. the yaoi gods really were watching over me and activated fashionlib block or sum :')
Thanks to everyone who supported me and prayed for me in that stressful time. your kind words really meant a lot to me and I will forever hold them dear to my heart. im also stealing all yall's reaction memes if that's ok.
And let this serve as a warning to those of yall who don't clear their browser history. if you're at risk like me, be sure to clear your history each session, or better yet just use incognito. Mark my words, never again do I want to experience the suspended horror of my mother finding out I read literary works with titles such as "Daddy tastes like butter". Never again.
about yall ever just feel sad
the day i decide to take a break from the shitshow that's mangago, some piece of shit edgelord posts self harm pictures. happy i dodged it at least but so sorry to all of you who were affected, that shit sucks.
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here's some grounding techniques:
- name:
* 5 things you see
* 4 things you feel
* 3 things you smell
* 2 things you taste
* 1 thing you can think of
- memorise or recite:
* a dialogue
* a movie scene
* a song etcetera
- take a walk:
* around your house
* outside
* open a window
* in your backyard
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stay safe! (づ￣ ³￣)づ
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here's some grounding techniques:
- name:
* 5 things you see
* 4 things you feel
* 3 things you smell
* 2 things you taste
* 1 thing you can think of
- memorise or recite:
* a dialogue
* a movie scene
* a song etcetera
- take a walk:
* around your house
* outside
* open a window
* in your backyard
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stay safe! (づ￣ ³￣)づ
about yall ever just feel sad
Do you think that magic may exists somewhere, not just on earth? Be honest if you do or don't go crazy.ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
about yall ever just feel sad
I'm sending cat pictures, you can add your own. These cat pictures mainly consist of cats looking into the camera. If I misspell something it's probably because I'm tired. The cat pictures will be in the replies once I finish downloading them from my computer.
about yall ever just feel sad
I’m super confused about everything so what’s this Felix thing everyone’s talking about?
Just ignore the title, I needed to grab your attention to ask you this. Whats the most recent yaoi manga you added or are currently reading right now.
Mines is 'Cumming in your pubic bone' yeah Ik freaky right
Mines is 'Cumming in your pubic bone' yeah Ik freaky right
about yall ever just feel sad
AYYYY JUST SO YOU GUYS KNOW I LOVE AND CARE ABOUT ALL OF YOU <333
Here are some of my comfort mangas and animes and youtubers!
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/dasadanan/ (Manga)
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/chiya_s_just_an_unsta (manga)
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/okama_waltz/ (Manga)
——————— ᴄᴏᴍғᴏʀᴛ ᴀɴɪᴍᴇs
Saiki k
Ouran highschool host club
The studio ghibli movies :)
———— comfort youtubers
Nino’s home (he’s a baking channel!) https://youtu.be/4_YBELE4LpM
Dream (he’s a minecraft youtuber :)) his minecraft manhunt videos never fail to put a smile on my face https://youtu.be/tylNqtyj0gs
——— Do you like youtubers that draw?
Emurichu
Jaiden animations
Sultan sketches
TheOdd1sOut
They make videos that are funny and sometimes wholesome :)
ANYWAYS BYE NOW!
Here are some of my comfort mangas and animes and youtubers!
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/dasadanan/ (Manga)
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/chiya_s_just_an_unsta (manga)
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/okama_waltz/ (Manga)
——————— ᴄᴏᴍғᴏʀᴛ ᴀɴɪᴍᴇs
Saiki k
Ouran highschool host club
The studio ghibli movies :)
———— comfort youtubers
Nino’s home (he’s a baking channel!) https://youtu.be/4_YBELE4LpM
Dream (he’s a minecraft youtuber :)) his minecraft manhunt videos never fail to put a smile on my face https://youtu.be/tylNqtyj0gs
——— Do you like youtubers that draw?
Emurichu
Jaiden animations
Sultan sketches
TheOdd1sOut
They make videos that are funny and sometimes wholesome :)
ANYWAYS BYE NOW!
about yall ever just feel sad
skip this if u don't want ot red but i feel like this is important to say about the whole thing...
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i saw one person saying that they didn't want to block and WEREN'T reporting them because they didn't know what they were going through and wanted to help them. Thats extremely harmful to a lot of people who were trigged by that content. This is not a call out btw but it is important to say. Regardless of what u may think plz WHENEVER u see harmful content plz report. U can help whoever you want and still report when things should be reported, this goes for everyone. I know this is the internet and to ask for this place to be "safe" is asking for to much but plz just report stuff it aint that hard! I think most (if not all idk i cant find them lol) of the post made by felix are gone. IF for whetever reason u see more plz report. thanks.
plz report
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ANYWAYSSSSS cute link time,
heres a cute cat video to take ur mind off it :
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1RTiaTGuKnM
And if ur more of a dog person:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwAzSupGjmo
OH~ i seeee more of a bird person?:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFjCgY3GwLk
Things with scales more ur style hmmm:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QXvxaBYRMLM
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i saw one person saying that they didn't want to block and WEREN'T reporting them because they didn't know what they were going through and wanted to help them. Thats extremely harmful to a lot of people who were trigged by that content. This is not a call out btw but it is important to say. Regardless of what u may think plz WHENEVER u see harmful content plz report. U can help whoever you want and still report when things should be reported, this goes for everyone. I know this is the internet and to ask for this place to be "safe" is asking for to much but plz just report stuff it aint that hard! I think most (if not all idk i cant find them lol) of the post made by felix are gone. IF for whetever reason u see more plz report. thanks.
plz report
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ANYWAYSSSSS cute link time,
heres a cute cat video to take ur mind off it :
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1RTiaTGuKnM
And if ur more of a dog person:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwAzSupGjmo
OH~ i seeee more of a bird person?:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFjCgY3GwLk
Things with scales more ur style hmmm:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QXvxaBYRMLM
about yall ever just feel sad
Please, please send nice photos. I have hemophobia and this Felix thing made me so scared and I can’t erase it from my brain, please send wholesome photos :((
about yall ever just feel sad
To all my babies on mangago that are traumatize about the graphic content (self harm) I'm just sending you some kisses incase your scared.
about feeling left out
Usually I find the quiet days on this site boring as fuck but not gonna lie I ain't complainin' if shit's slow tomorrow.
about yall ever just feel sad
After reading the "Felix" things and seeing that I can't erase that in my mind and I feel like I am suffocating from this- PLS send something that made you happy/laugh/smile! It can be a photo, meme, youtube video, something you read on here, or just ANYTHING! Love you and have an amazing night/day! <3
about feeling left out
Hi btch, I see you keep posting about s/lf h/rm huh, you think it's funny? Is that the only "humor" you have? How pathetic of you, thinking that posting things like that is humorous or entertaining when you know you'll trigger people, and you delete the replies when people point it out, disgusting I hope karma gets you~
about get to know you
Remember "Pian Pian"? somehow i found it in my reading list but when i went to the link it says "404 error, page not found" what the heck fhwajfhwjah
about first kiss
A question came into my mind. So the definition of a pedophilia is someone with sexual feelings directed toward children. And i wanted to ask you guys, if someone has this sexual feeling should we arrest them before they do something to kids, or should we let them be until they do something? I got no answers on google so can you guys answer. I think the police should keep an eye on people with pedophilia. How about you?
about first kiss
about get to know you
i need yaoi wallpaper. i would prefer less lewd things...but its okay if thats the only thing you have.
about first kiss
Making a question about me cause no one else cares about my ugly ass.
about lose weight
Hm so this is real, so lowkey it’s not yoonbum lol and I need advice cause apparently people on mangago are all in some way therapists and no one knows me on here lol. It’s a completely disorganized rant lol so if you don’t wanna read it, don’t.
Long story short, my dad verbally abuses and mom physical, and that’s pretty common with Asian families, but they have exceptionally bad tempers and I get blamed for everything and that messes with my head. When I was younger (idk 6-7-8?) I would not yell back or do anything, just cry and kinda run away after being hit and just bottle up my feelings. But I guess the last few years (I’m 13) I’ve been getting to the point where I’m just pissed and I’ve been yelling back and throwing literal punches, and I’m pretty strong, so I’ve gotten to the point where I’ve literally grabbed and held down my dad for a solid minute, and as a result my dad has also become violent. For the last years I’ve gotten bruises from him like... throwing me. Idk how to explain it. So basically big fight big fight, I’m forced to apologize every time because mom always has to vouch for her ‘dear husband’.
Aight that back story is over, I’ve locked myself in the basement for the past 3 months now. Lmao plot twist. It wasn’t that bad cause like it’s summer break so no schools or anything and so no one had to know. Before you ask, yes I’m keeping myself fed, clean yadda yadda.
So the first week, my mom immediately asked me to go to therepy (ignoring the fact I asked that 2 years ago cough cough) and said I need help. I comepletely blocked the door so they can’t get in, and I would be dead silent when they came by, so they haven’t talked to me at all nor seen me. The second week they started begging me to come out and apologizing (I haven’t heard an apology in 13 years hah) but I’m too petty to give up so easily. After the 3rd week or ish they started getting mad, like mad mad, bangin on the door and stuff mad and screaming at me telling me they would abandon me and stuff if I ever did come out. Then the next 2 months would be a random mix of leaving food out, writing angry or sad letters, yelling, crying screaming and stuff li,e that. And I’m pretty sure my mentality maybe took a hit because I ended up making my own language and started talking to myself with it, and I would get mad, scared, and sad really easily, and I would have just the most extreme parinoia. Idk. I also tried downing half a bottle of Advil but I threw it all up and got a really bad stomach ache after.
But now it’s back to school, and I guess my ‘parents’ don’t want to look bad or something, because now they’re getting even more mad and screaming at me whenever they get the chance, and trying to force the handle open, then they brought up the fact that they would call the police and like kid help stuff to force me out of the home.
And now I’m sitting here, more parinoid than fucking ever, but every time I think of leaving, I can’t, and I don’t want to be the one apologizing for the fact they started the whole, thing in the first place and I know I will be forced to apologize for being ‘a fat, stupid rat’. The whole fucking fight all started for me not hearing my dad because I had headphones on for gods sake, they would get mad at me not pouring a cup of oat milk for them or me staying on the computer for 5 extra minutes, or not wiping down a glass right. Idk this was just a chaotic rant, but quite literally none of my friends or anyone else knows about it so I needed to rant it all.
I’m the one apologizing for their mistakes, I’m apologizing for their misunderstandings, I’m apologizing for them fucking hearing something wrong and taking offense. I don’t want to fucking apologize again and feel guilty about it, I want them to know their daughter has ignored them, and that they have no clue what I’m doing, and for them feel the guilt that they’re the only ones to blame.
But I’m at the point where I’m scared because I have no clue what’s going to happen next, and what I should do. I don’t know if they’re just saying empty threats or making actual promises. (￣∇￣")
Aight any advice is appreciated. ^^
Long story short, my dad verbally abuses and mom physical, and that’s pretty common with Asian families, but they have exceptionally bad tempers and I get blamed for everything and that messes with my head. When I was younger (idk 6-7-8?) I would not yell back or do anything, just cry and kinda run away after being hit and just bottle up my feelings. But I guess the last few years (I’m 13) I’ve been getting to the point where I’m just pissed and I’ve been yelling back and throwing literal punches, and I’m pretty strong, so I’ve gotten to the point where I’ve literally grabbed and held down my dad for a solid minute, and as a result my dad has also become violent. For the last years I’ve gotten bruises from him like... throwing me. Idk how to explain it. So basically big fight big fight, I’m forced to apologize every time because mom always has to vouch for her ‘dear husband’.
Aight that back story is over, I’ve locked myself in the basement for the past 3 months now. Lmao plot twist. It wasn’t that bad cause like it’s summer break so no schools or anything and so no one had to know. Before you ask, yes I’m keeping myself fed, clean yadda yadda.
So the first week, my mom immediately asked me to go to therepy (ignoring the fact I asked that 2 years ago cough cough) and said I need help. I comepletely blocked the door so they can’t get in, and I would be dead silent when they came by, so they haven’t talked to me at all nor seen me. The second week they started begging me to come out and apologizing (I haven’t heard an apology in 13 years hah) but I’m too petty to give up so easily. After the 3rd week or ish they started getting mad, like mad mad, bangin on the door and stuff mad and screaming at me telling me they would abandon me and stuff if I ever did come out. Then the next 2 months would be a random mix of leaving food out, writing angry or sad letters, yelling, crying screaming and stuff li,e that. And I’m pretty sure my mentality maybe took a hit because I ended up making my own language and started talking to myself with it, and I would get mad, scared, and sad really easily, and I would have just the most extreme parinoia. Idk. I also tried downing half a bottle of Advil but I threw it all up and got a really bad stomach ache after.
But now it’s back to school, and I guess my ‘parents’ don’t want to look bad or something, because now they’re getting even more mad and screaming at me whenever they get the chance, and trying to force the handle open, then they brought up the fact that they would call the police and like kid help stuff to force me out of the home.
And now I’m sitting here, more parinoid than fucking ever, but every time I think of leaving, I can’t, and I don’t want to be the one apologizing for the fact they started the whole, thing in the first place and I know I will be forced to apologize for being ‘a fat, stupid rat’. The whole fucking fight all started for me not hearing my dad because I had headphones on for gods sake, they would get mad at me not pouring a cup of oat milk for them or me staying on the computer for 5 extra minutes, or not wiping down a glass right. Idk this was just a chaotic rant, but quite literally none of my friends or anyone else knows about it so I needed to rant it all.
I’m the one apologizing for their mistakes, I’m apologizing for their misunderstandings, I’m apologizing for them fucking hearing something wrong and taking offense. I don’t want to fucking apologize again and feel guilty about it, I want them to know their daughter has ignored them, and that they have no clue what I’m doing, and for them feel the guilt that they’re the only ones to blame.
But I’m at the point where I’m scared because I have no clue what’s going to happen next, and what I should do. I don’t know if they’re just saying empty threats or making actual promises. (￣∇￣")
Aight any advice is appreciated. ^^
