milky's Things

soooo i think i’m interested in light SM... but i’m actually both S
and M... but besides that, can someone more experienced in this
field give me some advice? i mean, i only have seen mangas about
it, and even if i knew all that there’s to know about it and even if i
had a boyfriend or a sex buddy i don’t think i would have the
courage to ask them to do something like SM... people who like SM are hard to find (at least around me) and usually the ones that are not into it thinks that SM is a sick perverted game so i would be scared that the other person thinks i’m perverted or something.. also, since i’m an S but at the same time an M, it’s even more hard to find a
guy who is a M, they would totally think i’m fucked up. so people,
just please give me some think of advice (￣∇￣") ╥﹏╥

i’m the only one who’s realizing that in this whole website most of the community is fucking rude? excuse is it so difficult to be at least respectful for on another? still some people here are really so sweet and polite, but really... what the fuck

i’m just too horny and nothing helps at all. yeah, i can read yaoi but i constantly feel the urge of having a real person beside me, and it upset me because i want it so bad but i really can’t. it’s not like i can ask the first person that pop up in my mind to fuck. i wouldn’t do that. i would do that with someone i really care about and that i can trust and at the moment i don’t really have a single person like that now. besides the fact that, although i’m know very very much about sex and how it works, how i do things, i never ever done anything. but i still want to fuck! it’s like inside me is living a slut, and i really feel bad about it because i want to feel good but i don’t want to be a bitch. it’s not like i’m so ugly that no one cares about me but.. yeah i might not be ugly but yeah, no one cares about me so much, so why would someone do anything with meee? please help me, i need advices. i want to break my entire room.

p.s. i really don’t understand this website at all TvT i feel like i’m 50 years old and usually i’m really intuitive and great with technology so i’m sorry if i’ve put this in the wrong place to ask