Crossdressing = fine.
Age difference = a little too much for me.
Otherwise it's nice to see a manga with an awesome approach. Crossdressing treated as a part of the person. I feel bad for the old man though. He just kept sucking through life and didn't get any better. Just stayed alive and sufferring.
I'm happy to say, if you're suicidal that's more manga-magic. Life moves on as long as you change. Shake things up, choose to do things that make you uncomfortable. Because everything NEW is going to be uncomfotable. We don't like to take risks with such high probability of negative results. That's natural. Give yourself permission to fail, to look like an idiot, to be an idiot, to not know, to be rude and selfish despite your best intentions. To be human. And forgive yourself for your flaws the same way you forgive others for their flaws.
I lived years suicidal and depressed. But no matter what there are always people more hopeless than you. Treat yourself with a little of the generosity you'd give those people. Sometimes we're too quick to bully ourselves.
I love this post so much. I relate with everything you said.
My own experience with a suicide attempt also made me learn there is light even in the darkest of places: an unexpected "plus" of being tagged as someone struggling with suicidal thoughts, 10 years ago, was that after everyone found out about my misery, many people I knew began to be really open and honest with me about their own problems. It's like knowing about my history made them feel like since I knew what suffering was, then they were safe from being judged, and that could let their their own masks drop when talking to me. I turned that into my own strength and began using it as a means to heal myself along with many of the people around me. It didn't solve everything from the get-go, but it was definitely a start.
Yeah same here. People who know tend to fall into two camps, the ones that think they know what they're talking about but really don't and say all kinds of horrible things as a result. Then there's the people who see it as an opportunity to open up. I'm super open about literally everything and talk openly about suicide so I get all kinds of interesting stories in return. People are pretty amazing.
My problem was my family who thought they could raise the perfect child by ensuring they had no sense of self, no independence and was generally 'less' than them for easy control. Any signs of independent thought = being condemned as evil or a sinner or simply punished for perfectly human behavior/thoughts. They actually told me they thought I was posessed by the devil at some point because I was having seizures. And after you leave an abuser you end up abuse yourself in their stead. I hated myself for a long time for no real reason. Eventually I grew up and broke their brainwashing. Now I'm incredibly happy and I'm working towards my dream job even though their voices still fight me in my head saying I'm too stupid to do it.
Things that have helped over the years:
-What direct proof is there that you can't do [blank]?
-You can't beat yourself up for failing if you haven't tried yet.
-The only opinion that matters is your own.
-Other people who have a problem with things about you you can't control are assholes, because you would never do the same to them.
-Are you doing [blank] because you're self-destructing? (I have a nasty happy of trying to ruin my own life left over from my upbringing where this was a part of how they controlled me)
Working this dialogue into my mind changed my life. Especially working out what things were my problem and what things were other peoples problems. That helped with all kinds of things. I'm lucky enough to be able to support people with mental illness indirectly every day and I know I've changed peoples lives for the better. Helping others really does wonders to help yourself.
...who really wanted Hikaru to show up? ヾ(☆▽☆)
read this then, hikaru is here
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/shiny_star/
Thanks but I meant with these characters. I wanted to see his reaction to a fanboy and I'm a sucker for jealousy (as long as it's not a viable love triangle).
Hikaru's partner in that one is the type I hate the most.
There's an extra in Shiny Star where they meet at the movies
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/shiny_star/uu/v01/c007.1/pg-1/
There are so many bad puns I really don't have time to write them. Write them for me? I'll give you prompts!
Wood.
Bark.
Leaving/Leafing.
Honey.
Stump.
Cut.
Branching out.
Stick.
Big/Thick/Heavy
Root.
Grow/Growing
You have the right to remain cheesy. All puns can and will be used against you.
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Got people saying that 'they're not falling in love with each other'. I think it's actually pretty likely that they are. Mainly because the uke is repeating his crush's name over and over like he's trying to hold onto it. And while he's getting raped, he can't bring his crush's face to mind and immediately turns to touching the seme's face. At the same time the uke is seeing for the first time that the seme cares about him as indicated by the beginning. The seme's actions are absolutely drenched in pain which make this manga more heartbreaking.
What I think other readers are seeing is too much reality. Rape in the Yaoi world is a touchy and complex subject. I personally tend to hate it when it moves from fantasy rape to realistic rape and this scene plays with that line. But this one stays in the fantasy rape realm through the uke's reactions. The uke is not drawing attention to the act, that's not where his focus is. His focus is on what's going on behind the scenes. The feelings of both of them.
IRL rape is an act of dehumanization, often deliberate rather than subliminal but it can be that too. In Yaoi rape has different purposes and to judge a manga with rape needs to look at whether those purposes were sufficiently fulfilled, or if you're more strict, whether the rape was necessary to demonstrate them. In this case I'd say the answer is 'yes'. Their relationship was sex based so that's how they were communicating, the entire basis of their relationship and in this brief look we can see that they don't communicate in other ways. The uke indicates the seme is normally rough after their first encounter indicating the seme has been trying and failing to communicate his affections but the uke isn't getting it. The violence is explosive, demonstrating a loss of control. The seme's face is devastated demonstrating that the purpose of this is loss.
The last word from this manga is that you can be scared of FULFILLING love as you are letting it go. From the way the uke is trying to grasp at his crush at the end and failing, I think the indication is that he's scared to let go of the fantasy of his crush but he's also scared to start feeling things for the seme.
I've read this manga a few times and I read every now and again to refresh my memory of it. Love what you said here! I completely agree with you, especially what you put in the last two paragraphs! Wonderful, wonderful way to put it.
Did nobody notice that there was a very strong indication that Lelouch ended up immortal and therefore surviving Suzaku's sword? I mean, it's still technically sad since Suzaku doesn't have immortality but you can imagine he gets it somehow in the future.
So they can still have a happy ended. Sort of. Cheer up guys! Everything goes in fandom!
Actually yes in the last clip he is alive with the other girl who is also either in mortal with him because I’m basically what she wanted she just didn’t want to be alone anymore it was painful also you could just be like reincarnation and the other girl died we earlier on because she wanted to at one point