
the thing is, jiwon is realizing life is pretty boring without dg which is expected but at the same time, for the most part all jiwon and dg ever did was have sex and then dg would go home. the date was a one time thing, otherwise itd be a wham bam thank you man, go home kinda thing. so other than him not having sex on the regular, isnt his life essentially the same? they never talked much about themselves and they never really hung out. anyways, i always feel like because bj alex is more about the thoughts of the characters and less about action, when i read the raws there is never enough, i always need more because not much happens.

Maybe that's the point. They did share things about themselves, but were always holding back. Kind of like eating something good but only in small bites. It tastes good but you never get full, which means you want more, not less. Also I think people underestimate just how much communication and vulnerability goes into sex. That's why Jiwon always warns DG not to catch feelings or think of him as a boyfriend. Because it's really easy to do when you're with someone consistently, when you know just how to touch them, or what to say to trigger a response. How they look asleep even. And after all that sex we still see little things beyond it. More and more DG ends up sleeping or being left alone in Jiwon's space after sex up until the festival. The lines were getting blurred. I think that's why it matters. It's not just that Jiwon's life didn't really change, it's that Jiwon's life before was so devoid of anything real that DG's absence is keenly felt even though he tried so hard to keep it casual.

I think he will. For me what solidified it was how DG told Jiwon that he loves him more than anyone but he can't do this anymore. That's the kicker. Before that he was willing to put up with anything just to stay close Jiwon. By the time that convo is over he realizes that's not enough. So I'm hoping he gets lots of love and care from Chanwoo and gives himself credit for choosing the right path. Jiwon will come around, he's already feeling the hurt.

why does it feel like the author has put nemus personal growth at a stand still just because hes having to deal with relationship growth and change? you dont need a lot friends and for introverts like nemu, you dont have to socialize alot but its a bit concerning that after all this time, nemu only has two friends, with one being his boyfriend. while maya is out there finding new skills and expanding his horizons, nemu just goes to work, goes to school, and goes home. He hasn't found any hobbies outside of academics and the club hes in(or was in?) hasn't doesn't much to introduce to more kinds of people. Id love to see nemu find another passion and not have to constantly worry about his relationship, it'd be great to see him make new friends and meet new people. people change and grow in college and the author seems to be set on keeping nemu almost exactly the same from his style to, to his outlook. yes, hes grown but personally i only think hes grown in terms of relationship experience, there are other types of growth a person can make and i reallly think nemu needs a change of pace.

Haha I feel attacked *laugh/cries* I only have two friends (no boyfriend in sight) and I go to work and I go home and thats about all I do (well not really. At home I read and I read and I draw and then I read some more...). But I get what you're on about this is a story and thats how stories develop and stay interesting.

first i want to say that a lot of the insecurities nemu has about his relationship with maya are largely due to the fact that nemu has never been in a relationship before. everything from love to jealousy, to communication, are new to him. hes not had many friends and certainly never fallen in love before, for someone like maya who has been in no doubt countless relationships, nemu and maya are in very different places in the way they see things in the relationship. idk, i get a lot of anxiety about their relationship as it progresses. theyve been together for awhile now but still find it hard to lean on each other and still dont share their deepest feelings with each other and about each other. they have a lot of growing to do and it doesnt help that that asshole ruka is in the way. on the other hand ruka has helped maya to tap into talent of his own and its another part of growth for maya, so its not liek ruka is all bad and yet he is so toxic for the nemu and mayas relationship

BUT, realistically(and yes i know this is a manhwa, not real life) how could they end up together? i dont think hanmis mom would approve and what about when it comes to children and the risks involved with incest. lol, im getting a little too real world here but the more i think about it, the less possible i think it will be for them to be together in the end and that crushes me because i really like them together and they know each other best. hyeran/junhyuk and hanmi/gun are cute but at this point i dont see true love between either of the pairings, you just can this sense that junhyuk and hanmi can never fully give their heart to anyone other than each other and at the same time cant fully give their heart to each other because they know its not right. ughh, idk

actualy after more reading, hosik pretty much knew he like sunbae so he started to avoid him and then sunbae got impatient, and then hosik revealed they couldnt be together because they were both men, it was definitely rape because hosik was hesitant but i also believe hosik kind of accepted it, he was just scared to acknowledge his feelings

yeah, its possible hosik was already sobering up by the time they started doing the do and he seemed to enjoy it and accept it, lol. i think he just got scared after waking up and realizing just what he did and didnt want to admit to himself that he was in love with and slept with man, but lets not get it twisted sunbae is super forceful and does often time coerce hosik into doing things because hes so posssessive

Idk about the sobering up part, i mean, he passed back out when he woke up so he must've still been pretty drunk. I definitely think it was still rape, what i meant by "i figured" was that i'm expecting it to show Hosik kinda having feelings for him and for the story to try to use these feelings to make the rape scene seem less rapey. As you pointed out, Sunbae has been VERY shady and forceful so i'm sure the rape scene was probably the same, creepy with cute to cover it up. Not sure why people are expecting the story to change JUST for that one scene to be explained, tbh. The trend is creepy with cute to cover it up. It hints that Sunbae stalks Hosik and covers it up with Sunbae smiling a lot and talking to Hosik normally, with Hosik and the blond friend talking about how weird it is, like he doesn't somehow know Hosik's ENTIRE schedule. Sunbae is the one who decides that they're dating and that Hosik is going to keep the baby after the rape, but you don't really pay attention to that because Hosik and Sunbae's interactions are cute and distracting. Sunbae has Hosik sign contracts, but you don't notice because it's swept under the rug and Hosik is cute. As you pointed out, Hosik was avoiding Sunbae, Sunbae decided to get him drunk to progress things since things weren't going how he wanted, the rape is covered up by the pregnancy and baby. Etc, etc.

when i read this, at first i thought sunbae was sort of guilt tripping hosik by saying he thought their feelings were mutual but reading through the raws and the flashbacks in the raws it really does seem like hosik started to develop a crush on sungyeon sunbae as they started to hang out more. he obviously already noticed he was handsome and i think hosik realized that his feelings toward sunbae were a little bit different and weird. if sunbae, didnt rush things and rape hosik im pretty sure they would have ended up dating anyways because hosik was already beginning to like sunbae, he just needed more time

he was wrong, but its not like planned to ruin the braodcast, he was in his feelings got drunk and when youre drunk everything you want to do and say comes out. yall act like he killed jiwons cat or something. he made a huge mistake, he should atone for it but thats one mistake swimming in a sea of jiwons countless"mistakes" from assault to getting physical with dg. i dont know how so many of you go to literal space to find that dg mistake is equivalent to jiwons, they are not the same and should not be compared. youre comparing watermelon to a freaking mushroom.
uhh, if he was so obsessed with shuu that he wanted to be with only shuu to the point that shuu was all he needed why did he continue to play around with girls throughout the time he was with shuu? it was such a random thing to include, i could swear when i read this the first time, there was an actual ending