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A YOUNGER VERSION OF ASAMI AND AKIHITO, I'M NOT OKAY
plot twist (not a spoiler, i just want it to happen) : it actually happened and akihito will be very embarrassed when he finds out the guy was asami and he goes to his "in-denial" phase all over again and asami, of course, uses it to his advantage to have akihito. akzbaknx. i love them.

is anyone else a little bit suspicious about logan? i mean, i know he's a servant and he looks nice but what if he's just like christoph? a royal-blood-turned-servant? i hope he's not a bad character because he's one of my favorites (they all are) but yeah. sometimes he has these sudden pauses/realizations, kind of like you would get when you receive a sudden order through hidden ear-pieces or you're being controlled by someone. for instance, when he met lucaon, and when he was speaking to ryan. ryan also mentioned he has "a strong aura for a servant". i don't know what to feel anymore. yikes.

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH BUT AS SOON AS I ENDED CHAPTER 33, I WENT "i will never understand this shit, but i will die to be a part of it"

i am so very in love with this manga. i've re-read the whole series- like- a billion times, probably the same as a couple of others, BUT. i have such conflicting emotions because:
1. i want this manga to continue, but
2. i want this manga to end.
this is because, this manga messes up with my feelings too much. it practically tears my chest open, rips my heart out, steps on it and then kisses it and gently places the pieces back together inside and sew my chest back up. you get it? i hope so, because that's as accurate as i can get.
however, i want this manga to continue because, other than hayashida-san and shuuna-san (they're from another manga), they're my favorite couple that teaches me so many things about emotions and life (also like hayashida and shuuna). i'd like to see more fluffy moments, more happiness, but i'd also like to see more pain and reality, even if it does break my heart. but i also don't want my heart broken. i am in an awful dilemma. :/ :c

i've seen a comment before, saying that a relationship between 2 black haired guys in yaoi/shounen ai is rare to see and, usually, doesn't last (i know, it's a joke, and it was super funny at the time). BUT THE LAST STORY!! and probably all of the stories before, mg. it gave me hope, and love. a lot of love. especially seven years, oh god. it really portrays a beautiful married couple relationship. at some point, you'll have enough of your partner. at some point, you'll notice how much of a jerk you've been, and how you've really done it now. but in the end, it's all going to be okay. i- god, much love for all of the oneshots.

ok, but i never really particularly hated anyone who fell in love with misaki. just the fact that they tried to take misaki away (it kind of makes it seem like they think usagi and misaki's love seem fickle, BUT YEAH) from usami. however, i always hope they find themselves their own, true, first loves. like- ijuuin may say he loves misaki now, but maybe he'll find someone COUGHS AGGRESSIVELY YANASE IN THE BACKGROUND COUGHS AGGRESSIVELY in the future who'll give him a whole lot more firsts, and not just innocent love (he may want to have sex/make love to misaki, but his love for him still appears to be a whole lot more innocent than usagi's). idk- y'know like shinobu and miyagi? i think it'll be like that (since yanase's kinda like shinobu, and ijuuin'll probably suck up to yanase I GTG THEY'RE ALREADY SO CUTE IN MY HEAD)

i really love this manga. it gets me emotionally, so many times and it hurts even more because i've already read the prequel (the story about hayashida's ex and him abusive his ex and his ex having a new, better and healthier relationship with someone else) before. what i'm not satisfied with is: I WANT AN EXTRA CHAPTER WHERE ALL THREE COUPLES MEET AND TALK. they don't have to have an emotional talk and flashbacks and all, y'know? just them passing by on the streets, maybe whispering a, "good luck" or "i wish you the best" to each other for hayashida and his ex (if you haven't read the story, SPOILER, hayashida broke up with his ex because he was afraid he'd become even worse than he already was, with all the abusing he did to the ex, and his last words were "thank you for everything"). since we all know natsuo's kinda not right in the head, i'd kinda like it if hayashida and natsuo met at a supermarket or somewhere while they were on a date with their respective boyfriends and just- greet each other or something, y'know? idk. i just want an interaction between all those 3 couples so bad as my own personal closure. other than that, my hearteu.

please tell me that i'm not the only one who thought yukina's brother looked a lot like haitani. IF HE IS THEN WELL. I FEEL ANOTHER NO BAAI COMING UP.

it's amazing and so cute but like- i have this feeling shuu will end up with akari and the other one (I FORGOT, SORRY) will find someone else and they'll all be happy together? idk?

this manga broke me so many times BUT I AM SO IN LOVE. i even handled the fact that it's still incomplete (though it kind of is? maybe more extra chapters?). i'm not disappointed with this manga at all, to be honest. some people are, and maybe it's just not their cup of tea, but this manga (and it's whole series) is truly worth of being called a masterpiece.
the emotional part that everyone says is missing is actually right there. maybe it's not enough to some of you, but i think it is. this manga's elements of "realistic" is oozing. keiichi is a whole lot like me, so i could understand his way of showing his emotions. honestly, to me, he made a very daring move. he told rio to say "i like you" to shingo, and asked his older brother to apologize to shingo for everything. rio even said keiichi said to "just forget about it" towards his older brother. this, in one way, proves that he had no intentions of them revealing that he was the one who told them to say these two things. he took the chance, not for his own benefit, but to make sure shingo was well taken care of. of course, he's an idiot and gave the ring to his older brother to give to shingo when he clearly knows his brother has no patience whatsoever (but that's what makes his brother adorable). another daring move he made was to tell shingo to give the ring back to him and to put it on shingo himself. this, if not only protectiveness and "ownership", shows love and the will and preparation for a long-term relationship with shingo. as keiichi's older brother has said (or someone else), keiichi chose shingo, even though he may be troublesome. keiichi never stopped loving shingo in his own way.
also, it fucking broke me when shingo cried ok. he rarely cries (except during their making love) and shows his emotions (he does, but not a lot) BUT WHEN HE CRIED, AND THE ATMOSPHERE, OH GOD. i feel as if the mangaka has went through it before, y'know? she captured not only pain, but the temporary self-loath of making the wrong choice and being unable to really voice out your thoughts along with the overflowing bittersweet love shingo felt. it's kind of really sad. that moment seemed as if it was drawn to reflect her emotions for a second- but yeah, that's just my thoughts.
ALSO!! THE SUPPORTING CHARACTERS!! they aren't here as extras. they're here as someone to give the two main characters the push and conscious they need. i love it.
oh, oh, and also. i find no problem whatsoever with the manga ending with them making love. it's not sex, y'know. shingo got to smell keiichi's scent and it got a lot sweeter from the last time he could smell it, and during this sexual intercourse, they interacted and loved each other, embraced each other and accepted the other. well, from my pov of course.