Tbh I don’t think it was that kind of intent behind it

I had a whole thing with sh for a while but it was probably more to do with ocd and no impulse control than wanting to die (although I did think that things might be easier for people around me if I wasn’t there, I didn’t actually feel strongly enough about it to be suicidal) I never seriously injured myself ignoring the argument that any amount of self inflicted injury is serious.. I was never hospitalized, and I’ve gotten worse scratches from my cat. The closest thing to a real attempt was this one time I decided to take a bunch of pills, and I can’t remember why I even did it, but I didn’t tell anyone and my stomach must have a crazy makeup because I had to have taken at least nine advil as well as other types and I didn’t even have a stomach ache after.. I got better at controlling myself as I got older, but the thought still crosses my mind whenever I see something sharp, and I still lose on occasion..