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SPOILER ALERT FOR BANANA FISH (I tried to not give spoilers as best I could and only talk about my feelings but you might still be spoiled if you haven’t watched/read it)

I just spent 3 days watching Banana Fish and reading what little I could of the manga including Garden of Light and Angel Eyes. And I did not take it well, I lost my appetite in those 3 days. After I finished BF, I just felt numb with this dull ache in my chest and a feeling of deep emptiness. So I slept to alleviate some of the pain but when I woke up, I cried so hard, harder than I’ve ever had in years. And the catharsis felt sooooo healing. I have a long way to go before I can look at that particular photo in Garden of Light without hurting but that’s okay. Crying until my eyes were completely swollen is my first step to healing.

(This next part is more spoiler-y but I still tried my best)
I feel broken bc of everything that transpired in Banana Fish. I can understand why Ash did what he did in the end and it may have been the best choice for both Eiji and himself but that doesn’t make it hurt any less. Garden of Light gave me the closure that I needed but in a way, it was even more painful than the end of Banana Fish. I’m just so broken right now bc of everything Ash went thru. The world failed Ash so hard over and over again and he was so strong but so broken inside. If I had met him myself, I would have done anything to take away all of his pain and all of his demons. It still kills me that I can’t do anything for him. And I can’t let go of everything just yet but I’m on my way to healing.

someone made a poll doc for top50 best seme and uke in manhwas/huas and the results are out. we had a lot of fun and i will just post the top20 here for the bl fans who are not on bltwitter.

Best ukes
1. Sunyool ≈ From points of three ≈ 4502 votes
2. Yiyoung ≈ On or Off ≈ 2722 v
3. Haebom ≈ Cbaw ≈ 2500 v
4. Dongyun ≈ Bj Alex ≈ 2349 v
5. Nakyum ≈ Potn ≈ 1845 v
6. Yuyang ≈ Here U Are ≈ 1762 v
7. Ed ≈ Walk On Water ≈ 1588 v
8. Soohwa ≈ Sign ≈ 1414 v
9. Sanho ≈ Viewfinder ≈ 1275 v
10. Sungjoon ≈ MMB ≈ 1064 v
11. Jaeha ≈ Man of virtue
12. 704 ≈ Fate Makes No Mistake
13. Jinwoo ≈ Man Of Virtue
14. Chanwoo ≈ Bj Alex
15. Haesoo ≈ Love Or Hate
16. Shell ≈ Blood Bank
17. Wan ≈ False Memories
18. Shin ≈ King's Maker
19. Suha ≈ My Suha
20. Niel ≈ Path To You

Best semes
1. Joowon ≈ Love Or Hate ≈ 9593 v
2. Hoju ≈ The good teacher ≈ 4183 v
3. Taesung ≈ Cbaw ≈ 3802 v
4. Taesung ≈ Legs Which Cannot Walk ≈ 3222 v
5. Taekyung ≈ Love Or Hate ≈ 3222 v
6. Eunho ≈ Lover Boy ≈ 1837 v
7. Dongha ≈ Viewfinder ≈ 1737 v
8. Yohan ≈ Sign ≈ 1556 v
9. Jensen ≈ Path To You ≈ 1526 v
10. Wolfgang ≈ King's maker ≈ 983 v
11. Seungho ≈ Potn
12. Lihuan ≈ Here U Are
13. MD ≈ Bj Alex
14. Eungi ≈ Fools
15. Daehyung ≈ On Or Off
16. Mcqueen ≈ Walk On Water
17. Jiwon ≈ Bj Alex
18. Cain ≈ Dear Door
19. Dojin ≈ Love Is An Illusion
20. Ivan ≈ The Devil's temptation

Um I read yaoi mostly because I’m bored and I usually skip the more sexual panels as see it a bit as feteshizing gay men. Idk lol. I just found out from a post people like girls masturbate to this? Like genuine question to the girls that do that : why and what turns you on about that?

i have a bigger forehead than others so i’m quite conscious of how i look. i have bangs to cover this up of course but it’s hard when i straighten my hair or tie it up for events.

i remember one time i got braids and i only kept them in for a week and a half just bcs i felt so insecure abt them. recently my family pointed this feature of mine out and made of me for it; my sister was like “it’s ok she can get surgery for it” of course i was upset by this and called them out for it. they claimed they didn’t know this insecurity of mine although i’ve projected that for a while now

anyways my family is toxic xoxo

Hi I just wanted to know if anyone has any anime, manga, manhwa, or manhua images that would be good for diamond painting? I am a closeted weeb so preferably something without a face in it (like only the eyes)? Sorry for the inconvenience...

who's actually going back to college this fall? with miss rona in the air, i feel like a lot of institutions aren't as wary as they should be... what are people's takes on going back?

I'm asking just because i have a second lead syndrome,and so i need more likeable characters that aren't the protagonist.
You can say more than one, the more characters, the better lmao

fuck it i will say it.
Sangwoo, jihyun, hisoka, gyuh wool, chrollo and chang liu deserve more hate

Is it only me that gets tired of the classic sweet and naive uke trope that's in almost all yaoi? Please I know there are some ukes out there who can actually stand up for themselves for God's sake. If you've ever encountered an uke who actually has some sense, please do tell. I would love to read a story where the uke has some backbone and doesn't take shit from a trashy seme. You know, an uke that you know is a bad bitch (in a good way).
P U H - L E A Z Z Z Z !

is there an uke that you hate for some reasons? for me, it is shinwoo from love bite.

Here's a video that I think is important for people who don't understand the effects of shipping on an actual human being. Although with most arguments i can see a gray area, like Jack explains in the video, I still think that alot of people are ignorant to what it actually means to ship. I personally don't. I think its weird, personally invasive, and creepy as hell.

i know u peeps probs wont watch the whole vid (its 11 mins) so i recommend starting at 5:20 (im also a little surprised no one posted this yet lol)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=imFRGYS0l4M

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honestly i dont think that most of the people who ship do it maliciously or are terrible people, I just think they are not aware. I also am aware that NoT EvErYoNe DoEs ThIs to this extent.

if u have any comments about it feel free to leave one, love to hear em.

i think this whole shipping conversation is getting kinda long and people are tired of hearing it (same) but i just thought this video was a good way to educate both sides. At the end of the day do whatever the fuck you want i cant stop you, but I would say just be mindful.

luv u all. See u all next post. Stay safe. <3

i think my favourite hot daddy is Hishimoto FROM Koi ga Ochitara AND Clyde FROM Gyangu no Kai-kata

Send me reactions images for these things plz

-someone being annoying

-someone being stupid

-someone making no sense

I was wondering if anyone was interested in being a host like in Ouran High School host club? or if they would check one out? Also if they did what would you like to be referred to as?

The reason I was asking was because I made a discord sever with this Idea. Should I continue with this or give up? I am a bit disillusioned about it...

Please tell me what you think.

Hey everyone! We have a discord server and we’re currently looking for more people to join our small discord community for Yaoi. It’s fairly active and newbie friendly and you’ll have the opportunity to meet many who share the same love for Yaoi as you do! So click on the link and come join us ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~ https://discord.gg/JDjjz7

I'm asking this because last night I had a dream that made me cry. Ash and Eiji were married and they had a stupid fight like any other dumb couple. Ash was building a house for some reason.（/TДT)/

But anyway, I want to know what dreams other people had. Usually my ones are pretty funky.

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