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I cant remember the title of the manga i read waaaay back about some guy who keeps eating his friend’s food and they have a fight at some point and that friend can never finish his meal cause he ends up leaving an amount that the guy eats from his lunch. I hope im making sense and someone actually has read this lol cause i’ve been on this site for forever but just recently made an account

Love.

I'll be 100% honest. It's a foreign concept.

I know what it's like, or supposed to be like, but I haven't experienced it. I know how it feels to have butterflies in your chest, to actively look forward to a text message, or to have them in your dreams. I know it's a choice, rather than a feeling.

But people don't know that.

I know there are times where you have to try find the reason why you love them in the first place, why you thought the universe were in their eyes, why their voice makes you go "fuck yeah, you again!"

But I don't mourn when they leave. There's a pang in my chest when they say goodbye or they admit to being interested in someone else. But there's this quiet voice in the back of my head that says,

"Thank god you didn't fall in love with me."

I know I'll disappoint them. I know it because I crush on them, and I like them - but I don't love them. I'd rather be the one left, rather than the one leaving.

I've been in a relationship where I'd been romanticised so much, my ex got heavily depressed once I left. Never again. I'm not that great a person. I don't have what you need. So when I do enter a relationship, I'm careful I'll never be the one to leave.

I'm okay with it. That way, it isn't me that hurt them to begin with. What also softens the blow is that it's online... they don't truly know who I am...

But oddly enough, when they do leave, it's completely. I never speak to them again. Is it guilt? I'm a forgiving person, I'm not going to get angry... and although we'll never be the same, I can still talk to you as a friend.

Perhaps I don't know what love is like because I'm still young. People my age don't undergo the trials and tribulations of adulting, or find ways to persevere, or even have the funds to spice things up. There's only so much we can do. We're fickle. That's okay.

I know when I date, I'd be looking for a life partner. I don't WANT to be someone's ex, or someone's "past love" where something about each other just couldn't work out.

If I move abroad temporarily, I want to know they'll stay loyal. Because I would. I'd want them to look after themselves, to put themselves FIRST and put me SECOND because if they invest everything they have into a relationship with me, before I'm ready to, they'll come up short. I can't answer to every text immediately. I have a life to lead and a demanding family. I'd want them to have a part of their life I'm not in. Give them space.

But it seems anytime I do, they lose interest. That's why so many girls are clingy, why they're so possessive and afraid they'll be discarded. That's why I don't fall in love.

My solution is to find a partner when I'm in my late twenties. When I've settled down, when I'm stable and my chances of finding someone in a similar circumstance have exponentially increased.

It's a little sad, knowing I won't love for a long while. Maybe I'm being presumptuous. But really, what are the chances of finding someone that wants a future marriage partner at the age of 18?

I feel dirty asking abt this truly T-T but if u have done it before, is it worth it? Should I try it? Idk idk i feel weird writing this out but i wanna know!!! T-T

y'all ever felt as if no one cares about you? like even if you disappear, no one would notice?

Idk what’s ur fav yaoi manhwa, mine is royal servent for sure lol.

I havent.. but I think if I did I would have to straight up create a new identity and vanish from the face of the earth..

I've thought about it so many times, but, I couldn't try it. Death is a big thing for so many people but for me.. it's just.. a small incident. This feels really bad because death can bring changes for worst but.. I haven't done anything till now that will give me a desire to continue, but I also can't try it because I'm scared of what might happen to my family when I'm gone they'll probably survive and Im probably one of the biggest reason for their stress and struggle, but even with that I don't have the motivation to continue, maybe I'm guilty or just afraid of what will happen afterwards, whether it'll be just a peaceful sleep or the beginning of another journey. It's probably not small for me, I've only ever found my peace in stories, most of emotions are not mine but of the characters I've seen. I don't know what's real or fiction anymore. I'm just ranting here, but I don't think I deserve to have my own feelings, I probably can't. I don't have a goal, nor the motivation to find one. I just don't know what to do anymore, am I being a coward or am I really concerned about my loved ones?

Yo, I've been drawing this quarantine and I'm feeling great but this past few weeks, I'm losing motivation. I feel like I'm getting bad at this and I can't seem to draw what I really wanted. It feels like I'm back to zero where everything is a mess. I can't even draw a proper face even tho this is the easiest part for me. I've been saving a lot of reference but I keep messing it up. I want to go back in the zone again, what did you do when this happened?

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can anyone recommend me some good yaoi anime? i watched (and thoroughly enjoyed) dakaichi "i'm being harassed by the sexiest man in the world" a while back and was wondering if anyone could give me some recommendations (๑•ㅂ•)و✧

So I'm a 16 year old from the U.S. and I made a tiny public art discord server a few days ago. A 23 year old Lebanese guy joined and friended me and keeps asking for my name irl and for me to speak in the voice chat. What should I do? Am I just overreacting? He seems really pissed by the fact that I use a male name for my discord tag and he doesn't want to use it since I told him I'm female (I'm actually transmasc, but it shouldn't matter anyway).

Have you feel the feeling of you want to cry for no reason and some simole things made you cry a lot haha i think its funny at first but some others told me its not simple so i just think if theirs something wrong with me.... when i was in grade 5 all of my classmates starts bullying me and stole everything to me and they always judge me so maybe i became sensitive cuz of all pain that i recieve from the past

What do you think is wrong with me?

I wanna help translate some bl manga/manhwa or whatever but I don't know any of the languages and have very little cleaning or typesetting experience and have no idea where to even get raws from but if there's anyone out there planning or working on something and needs a little help with anything or just wanna be friends lmao hmu at least I have experience with an English degree if you need a proof reader at the very least I can edit us cute credit pages

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You don’t have to tell why you hate them though ╮(￣▽￣)╭

You started knowing what's yaoi and what made you stay? I'm sure some of you have read some pretty fk up yaoi troupe (more often than not, the troupe in yaoi are kinda messed up) and does it change your way of thinking or mess up your perception of reality and fiction?

I agree that minors shouldn't be reading stuffs like this but I would be a hypocrite to preach it since I was a minor when I started reading yaoi. It did opened my eyes to many concepts and some fk up stuffs but never once did I confused reality and fiction. I know very well that it's simply just something I read. If I'm curious or if I wanted to know more, I will simply googled it and understand it for myself.

I find it to be really weird when people start policing others on what they should draw or what they should write, because I've been reading stuffs like this since ages ago and it never affected me, it just makes me understand how fuck up it is that this happened and I've learn to understand what a bullshit it is.

SO, my question is, does reading yaoi change your attitude/perception/acceptance/understanding towards some of the topic that was portrayed in the yaoi and what is it?

For me, I've learn a lot. Accepting lgbtq+ and understanding free love, understanding the pain of being not accepted simply because of who you love, are probably the most prominent in all that I have come to understand.

no titles allowed; give me the premise/ summary of the manga or any story that made you cry your heart out. let's all be sad together woop woop!!

My boyfriends family are super hardcore trump supporters and I’m just not like that I have no interest in that mad or politics but they insist on wanting me to talk about it and like him and I just can’t, it makes me very uncomfortable when they talk about it and give me trump stuff I just throw it away, how do I tell them I’m not into politics let alone republican. And also happy pride month and don’t forget to donate to the blm movement’s or just sign your name!

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